January 9, 2013 Wednesday
I am being awakened at 4:00 a.m. with a clear mind and being told to, “Write.” I question and I am reassured, “It will be beautiful.”… pen in hand…
“The time has come for all peoples to bow to the will of the Lord God of All Creation. To surrender the will of self unto the will of He who commands all things, to come forth in humility and to offer their hearts in prayer and gratitude. For the day cometh when He, who is in favor of the Lord of All, yes even, Jesus Christ, will reign and all will be in a state of love and glory. For the Earth will be changed and she that hath waited for her Groom, will be as the mother that has long awaited for her children to be independent from her bosom. And in so doing she will be free from her responsibilities. She will quake, groan and shake off her responsibility as mother and be changed into that of a royal maiden that waits to serve only her Master. In that hour all will bow at the holy presence of she that bore the burden of motherhood and has watched with only the love of a mother her children’s follies, strife and struggles. As she has suffered the will of He that commandeth all things. Again, in that day all will submit to her renderings and all will cry out, ‘Our mother destroyth us’ and those of Spirit will know that the mother only groans in her birthing of herself once more, will free herself of the old, and that which man has disrespected her. In that hour of shedding, the mother of all will receive He that is the Creator of All and His love. For she that has loved and suffered will be changed into the paradisal realm of beauty. She will receive her glory and the rocks of the earth will shine as diamonds. And the inhabitants therein will be as the jewels of a treasure house, that when the treasure doors are opened the awe of the King will be revealed as He counts His treasure of His storehouse, that houses His riches. The King of All Creation will see the beauty of that which He has accumulated and will be well pleased.
For what man seeth his worth and knowth the value of that which he will become? No man knoweth the wealth that lies within unless the Spirit of Love befalls him and reveals that which is to come and already exists. Do you not think that the God of All Creation cannot see into the hearts of all men and women, into all His children, and not see the great value that is waiting to shine forth? Do you not think that the love of He that commands all things, is the Master of patience that allows the expressions of His children, and in so allowing sees the beauty in all His creation? For what heart that turns against his brother does not have the will to love and be loved? Do you not see that all of My creation is of Me? Do you not see that a loving and wise parent allows the child to develop and express? And when the heart is full of self-creation and has played itself out, it is then that the heart is ready to turn to the Creator in wonder, that the heart might know itself. And in that turning is the value of self. When the self is relinquished to the will of He that loveth and sees the beauty of His creation… yes, the beauty of God sees itself. For when the heart has ripened it is then that it is ready for harvest, and it is only after the heart has had full expression that it is ready for the hand of the Creator. You ask and wonder, for what purpose is the expression of self when the Creator of all can already see the beauty of the outcome? It is the law of expansion. It is the law of love. It is the will of the Creator that the love of self be realized and that the whole sees the individual particle of self into creation. Are they not each other? But the expression of self is not aware of its completeness. And it is in that expression of completeness that the individual becomes the whole, when the change of completion is made manifest. It is then and only then that the self has played itself out and is ready for the next phase of its evolution or expansion. And it is at that time of self-realization that the true value is revealed, that the ripened fruit becomes a jewel of great value for the King’s storehouse. Are you not only now ready for the hand of the Creator? Are you not only now ready to see yourself as the Creator sees you? Are now ready to see the great value of love?”
Even as the writing came, word upon word, while I wrote the words I questioned that it was making sense. But now as I read it and realize its beauty I can see the lesson in my questioning … that the individual part cannot see the beauty of the whole. I am also being flooded with other ways this lesson can be applied. One application is in my willingness to summit, the individual being part of the whole, and being a part of my new congregation, that I have been even questioning its value and worth. Hmmm, I love the way the Heaven’s messages are layered with lessons of understanding.
January 13, 2013 Sunday
I am tired, it has been a full day and I am still up at 1:30 in the morning. Today was my first visit back to church, after more than twenty-five years. Following my conscience, and the counsel from my visit with my new Stake President. I picked up Dad early this morning, and we went together. My father wanted to support me in my decision to making my way back to the LDS faith. There at church, we were first greeted by my nephew, his wife and young family. The children showed their excitement to see us. We sat in the pew next to them and soon after my brother and his wife joined us, we filled the entire pew. I was then greeted and felt the warmth and love from many as they welcomed me. It was a perfect return: from the talks, sunday school lesson and songs that seemed tailored to me, but I am sure that anyone with an open heart would feel the same way. A friend from my distant past, spoke on the subject of, ‘not looking back’ and related it to Lot’s wife, of the Holy Bible. He explained how it wasn’t that she looked back, but that she looked back and still desired in her heart what she was leaving, and that was what was against the Lord’s command. Counsel that I needed to hear, as I am transitioning from what was to what is. A perfect return, from the songs that stirred my heart emotions and a sunday school lesson on ‘the Light of Christ and revelation’. Which seemed appropriate considering my writings. So all in all, it was a good day with a hurdle cleared that had been worrisome.
It’s now later in the evening and I am really wound up and decided to do some things such as, down load the scriptures to my iPad that I had been waiting all day to do, and send my latest writing to my sister and father. After downloading the LDS scriptures, I started to browse through the different books on my iPad and ended up in the Doctrine and Covenants. It was an odd feeling, not negative but just different, to be going through the scriptures that I haven’t looked at for the last twenty-five years and to be doing it now on my iPad. I found myself reading from the revelations of Joseph Smith and I felt some empathy of his being a scribe unto the Lord.
Just a note, I am NOT by any means am I trying to put myself on the same level as Joseph Smith or anyone else in sharing my experiences, these experiences were and are for me and my growth. If I do share them it is only out of wanting to share the love of the Heavens, for even such as I, and if it might open one’s heart to possibilities, so be it.
It was as I was starting to drift off to sleep, that I decided to quit for the evening (or morning). So I got up to plug in my iPad, which the cord is in my kitchen area, and as I was plugging it in I could feel my fear start to rise within me and my hair started to stand on end, on my arms, neck and head. I could feel my alertness, as it was drawn to the corner in my living room. This corner has given me concern on a few occasions in the past, as I now stood wondering what to do as my body was in a full state of fear. I remember hesitating not wanting to walk down my long hallway with my back to the source of my fear, but I decided to remove myself away to my bedroom (even now as I write this my hair is standing on end in just recalling the experience). As I walked down the hallway I was prompted with a message to confront it, and it was then that I felt this rush of energy that came at my back, in a vengeance. In swift reaction and without a thought, I whipped around in a second’s timing and with arms and hands outstretched, I rebuked the energy in the name of Christ. I commanded the energy to leave my house and called upon the Angels of Heaven to sure me up. I could feel a surge of power, of energy, radiating from the palms of my hands as I spoke the words out loud, and in a state of confidence and authority. I could sense the energy shrink away and I tried to keep my fearless front up as I quickly crawled into bed (As if bed covers pulled up over my head, was going to help!). I continued to pray, and I heard the whisperings of reassurance from Spirit. As I heard these words of comfort, I asked if I could write them, so here I am with Spirit’s condoning love; I was told that I could record all spoken of by Spirit. I think the writing is helping to keep my mind focused and out of the fear. I want to dwell on the good, strength and love of Spirit. And as I am, I am remembering other times when similar experiences happened and I was then told that the lower energies are drawn to the Light… Ahhh… I can feel the warmth and tingling run through my body, starting with at my head and running down my entire body. A reassuring warmth of love and Spirit of protection, of which I am grateful… “Thank You!” I think I will set the pen down to focus on this energy, to give it thanks and honor, in so doing I hear,
“Fear not My son for the Lord God of All Creation is upon you and blesses you, My servant. For the love of God dwelleth in your heart, and so the light and fire of protection will burn brightly for you. Rest, your body is tired, and know that My angels will watch over you and keep you safe. Know My son, that all must submit to My name, so My name spoken with intention will cause the willows to bow, and the flowers to turn their heads to the light. And dispel that which you fear. Fear not for I am with you, My son, sleep and know, even so.”
January 14, 2013 Monday morning
Waking in concern about last night’s experience, and asking for clarification. I went into the living room this morning and I didn’t feel any danger of a negative force. Though I do have a pot in the same corner, that I have felt the energy, and I am wondering if it might have a connection. The pot or I should call it an urn, because it stands about three to four feet in height. It has a dragon that is encircling the circumference of the urn. I love the urn, but if it is the portal of that which has been threatening me, I am willing to take it outside and destroy it. I am now seeking clarity, because I would hate to destroy something that brings my eye pleasure, if I am only doing it out of fear. I am seeking clarity of this reality.
“The concerns of the past and the concerns of the present are real and just. The energies gather unto him, that fights against the will of God. He that was in the beginning even until now, has fought to thwart the will of He that commandeth all. He that was thrown out and down to the physical, that he might play out the role that even he has chosen, for even he is of choice and it was he that chose to play out the role of the ‘angry one’ that thrashes out against the workings of He that knows and sees all. For what man has not felt the influence of he that designs and plots to destroy the will and plan of God? Yes, you question and have questioned the existence of him that is of the dark, that hides where the light cannot touch. You question, because of your fear to give power to one such as he, and yet have you not had enough evidence to convince your doubting mind? You doubt, because then you must ask of which you act, and how others have perceived you in the past and even now. You deny and therefore it doesn’t exist, and yet how many times have you cried out in My name and upon My angels to deliver you? Can you not know with a surety that the forces of he that despises Me, despises and fears you? Yes, even as my servants begin to come into power, he has thwarted himself against their will. But it is with the power and light of He, that commands Heaven and Earth, that knows the hearts of all that serve Him, that the darkness is cast down and the designs of wickedness are trampled. Do you think that the light you carry is not attractive to the forces of evil? For when the light is carried it is as a looming sword to fall upon the unjust and those who thwart against the plan of He that hath seen all. Does not the foolish one know? Yes, but his ego has blinded his understanding and his pride has hardened his heart. Know my son that I am with you and that as you cleave unto the light and love of He that commands all, you will receive no harm. But the buffetings of My blinded son will buck up against thee and will prick at your soul until you give him no heed. And it is then he will relinquish his trying and the foolish one will slither away in lowly desperation. Now My son, how to safeguard against his buffetings? Come unto Me continually, live in a state of gratitude and prayer. Feed your soul with good and sweet fruit that is around you. Continue to strengthen your heart with singleness to Me. Continue to learn to trust yourself and My whisperings; and in so doing these things, the lord of darkness and his designs will have no avail. Do you not know of My love for you and My plan for your voice and words? Calm yourself, it is time that you accept that for which you have been called … you question your ego self and it is that questioning that your true nature is revealed. Question not and trust He that knows your heart, and your role that has awaited you. You wonder, but you are ready? Not yet, even this is hard for the ears who is just now beginning to come out of the shadows of fear. Fear not and trust in the light and love that surrounds you and sures you up. Know of Our love for you and of Our patience. Be of good cheer and know that you are carried in Our hearts and love. Peace, My son, to your soul and all you serve in your earthly dealings. You question about the pot and I say unto you, ‘question and fear not’, but your willingness to destroy that which you cherish is noted and is noteworthy. Your submission is growing… soon you will crave the feel of the bridle and saddle. Peace My son.”
January 21, 2013 Monday (3:00 am)
I am told to “Write”, I question with it being 3:00 am, and told again to, “Write” …
“You are blessed, My son, for your attention to My words to you and for your desire on your new path which has always been your path, that is only now new to you. Blessed are those that hunger and thirst after the things of the Spirit. For I will send thee a blessing and it will be with you as you journey this path, this is a blessing of ‘Loving Acceptance’. Those of whom you are told to share your vision of life, love and Spirit will know from which you speak, and will see with an open heart the words of your heart and the energies will sing as a praise for Me. And in so doing the floodgates of Heaven will be opened and the outpouring of love and the spirit of joy will flood thee, and those who hear your words of truth and praise. For blessed is your gift that will begin to emerge, and with this gift will come many more gifts of the Heavens in which you will be showered. Fear not My son and know from which I speak. For I Am that I Am, that all will be made whole and come unto the Father, and behold His blessing of that which is and will always be. Sleep My son, sleep.”
January 25, 2013 Friday (2:15 am)
Being awakened and hear, “Write.” I question and hear, “Write, come unto Me.”
“Come unto Me, saith the Lord, and know that I have commanded that My will be done, of which I have commanded that my servant, yes even Joseph, come unto you with My will. And it is even he that spoke My words and My will, that ye should know of which I speak. For in the words, is not My command? But those of a cunning mind and slothful heart would try to do not that which is obvious, come unto Me. For when I speak of that which has been spoken, it is of a call back to that whence you came… (question not and write line upon line that you hear and all will be well)…
For that which I have decreed has been spoken and My will has been done, that you might come unto Me once more not out of fear, but out of understanding that your heart is ready and has been prepared for that which is to come. For the heart is ready and the fruit ripened for the hand of the Server, that all things might come to pass. Remember, for he that cometh unto Me with a humbled mind and heart will know Me and know of My will. It is then that the veil will fall away and all things revealed unto him that seeketh My presence. Some may ask, ‘for which of that I command?’ And I say, ‘unto those that come unto Me.’ And the command is in a willing heart. The heart knows and hears that which I speak, for the heart knows the will and desire of He that speaketh and that which is beyond the words. For it is a lawyer’s mind and a cunning mind that says, ‘But He did not say so, that He did not say this or that in His words.’ And I say unto you, ‘the command is beyond the words and falls on the heart.’ And that is which should be known and that is which should be acted upon.
Yes, even as you write these words the heart knows of which I speak. You have mentioned with My servants the law of obedience, and I say unto you, that the day will come that every knee will bow and the lips will speak that which is in the heart. And I ask, ‘Is it not better to bend thy knee this day and receive Me and know, than to receive Me that day?’ And I say unto you, ‘yes!’ For in that day will be much crying out, ‘Why did I not do of which my heart speaketh, and that my ears would not hear, and my body not do?’ For in that day all will be made known unto them that would not listen unto their own hearts and My promptings of that which crieth out before Me. Yes, even He that is of Me that I have blessed to dwell upon the earth that all should not be lost, but should carry My word unto those hearts that would hear. And it is unto them that listen to Him that are prepared for that day that cometh in which every knee will bow. And I say that those that bow this day before that day cometh shall know My will and their hearts will sing a praise of joy and thanksgiving of that which is to come. And it is they that the angels will administer and it is they that will survive that which will destroy many because of their hardened and waxed hearts.
So remember My son, the love of He that calls you to Him that you might be prepared and that the sword will not fall upon you, but that your heart might sing a praise unto Me as I cometh.
Do you not even now know of which I speak and do you not know with understanding My will? That others might not sway you from which the heart has heard that which is beyond the words, My will.
Rest My son and know that I am a loving God that will pour out all that I have unto those of a humble heart, that come unto Me both in heart, mind and spirit. And if they do, all things will be added upon them and they will rejoice in that day and sayth, ‘My Father doth love me to bless me with such exceeding wealth’, for true wealth, the wealth of the heart will overflow with such outpouring and love. Knowth My heart and you will know love, even so come unto Me and know.”
Thank you for all your gifts of love, my heart hears and understands… Thank you!
This writing came after sharing with my meditation group about my life changing experience and the new direction that my path was taking me, a return to the LDS faith. They became agitated with the way I presented it to them saying, “This is not of my choosing” and they were concerned out of love for me that I should be returning to a belief system that doesn’t honor who I am, being Gay. It created a discussion of feelings, hurt and concerns. I was hurt, because of all people I felt that they would understand me the most having shared so much over the last couple of years. They have witnessed my ability to see, know and experience of other realms and I assumed that would understand and accept this life choice. I was somewhat relieved that as we continued to talk it through, their objections were out of my well being and their love for me.
January 26, 2013 Saturday (5:20 am)
I wake up and hear, “Come unto Me.” I question, because the writings have been so frequent lately and I do not want my mind to automatically link waking to writing, I want, my writing, to be as they are prompting me. So now I hear, “Write, The ways of the Lord and your ways…”
Pen in hand…
“The ways of the Lord and your ways are not the same. The ways of the Lord are ways of the heart, whereas mankind, first has the mind to consider. The mind and reasoning is to navigate the physical, but as of God, What reasoning is in All Knowing? For what thought process is needed when there is no thought to consider. You wonder and question these words, because the concept is so foreign to you. But I say unto you, ‘what man that has a will to achieve something has to tarry in the mind to accomplish his task?’ He knows of his heart and therefore acts and then the course is presented to him. It is in the intention of the action that creates the progress of motion of the desired thought or intention … ‘Oh ye of little faith’… (as I am questioning in my mind the meaning, understanding and if this is making sense). You question, because it is so foreign to you, but as I was saying… The mind of questioning is not needed when the intention is of a magnitude of strength. The mere act will determine the course. So when the heart is spoken to and the desire of the heart is heard it is in the action that is important that will create the unfolding of the projected outcome. Ponder My son, because of your desire to do what is true and right, you become caught in the web of the mind. But I say unto you, act and then the path will be made unto you, then the way will become clear. Yes, you had a glimpse of understanding, this of which I speak. Continue to ponder and as you do your thoughts will become enlightened with My understandings and the heart will be heard, always turn to the heart. Mankind believes that the answers come from the mind, but this is not so. Why do you think that so much is spoken of the heart? Because it is the source of all, the connecting point or you might say, the bridge to the Spirit and realm of God. It is through the heart that you approach Me, and it is through the heart that I will come. The heart is the juncture of both worlds. Yes, the apex of the symbol that I have marked your heart. It is the point of all, the place of all creation and the place of all understanding. Yes, All That Is. All is of this place, but the doors of understanding are layered within this place and one must first receive the will of Me to enter. For within the heart holds the understandings of the All. You might call it the storehouse of truths, where all wealth is held.
So, in so much as you dwell in your heart, you dwell in Me, and then you dwell in the house of the Lord. When you ponder, ponder in your heart and then the heart will be heard and understanding will pour forth. The mind is the outcome of the heart, it is only a secondary engaging tool. All must come through the heart. Your learned ones think of the heart as just a pump that brings life to the body and I say unto you it is the life of the body from/through, which everything must come. The brain or mind is a servant to the heart, the body is a servant to the heart. And the will of God is made known and understood in this place, for it is the seat of All That Is. Ponder my son and know of Our love for you. Yes, ponder these things in the heart and know of the heart.”
Thank you, I will begin to focus my intentions with and in my heart. Thank you.
January 28, 2013 Monday (7:00 am)
I have the day off and was just waking after a late night of inputting the writings into the computer. I hear, “Write.” And as usual I again question, not wanting the writings to be of me. As I question I then hear, “Do you not want to walk with Me?”
Pen in hand and ready…
“Walk with Me, My son, and know that as you turn your heart to Me I will be with open arms ready to receive My servant. Awake and hear the sound of victory, the sounds of praise and uplifting. For the Angels on High rejoice in all manner of praise and thanksgiving. For the trumpets sound and the song burst forth and the love flowth for those that dwell in the house of the Lord, the heart. Come unto Me, in praise and thanksgiving and I will come unto you. Lift up thine eyes and behold the glory of All That Is. Lift up thy heart and be of good cheer. For the beginning of All is upon us and the world knoweth not that which is upon them, and they slumber as the tide of change is upon them. The light of love, the light of new beginning, the light of My design and that which all have awaited, that which the centuries have been preparing. You ask of what that I speak and I say, that the cry has gone forth and the Angels of Heaven rejoice and gather, that the prophets of old and new, that carry My word and My will, might be fulfilled.
You question the authenticity of these words and I say unto you, behold that which is upon you and behold that which awaits! The Lion cometh and the roar of He that reigns will be made known and the victory will be His. For again you wonder and again I unto you, Behold, the Angels that weep in joy for the hour is upon you that all will be fulfilled. And those that slumber will not know upon their awakening that which is upon them, and those that have listened to My voice upon their hearts will greet Me at the door and will be as a servant that is up and prepared for the day before the master arises. Oh that ye might be prepared, that the Angels might come unto thee and that your arms might be raised and open to receive them. My son, prepare your heart, prepare your mind and know these things of which I speak. Call upon My name and all will be made whole before you to prepare for that which is to come. Open thy arms and receive Me!”
I laid back on my bed and prepared my mind and breath as I was told to focus on the heart, and with this came the understanding of the teaching, “…narrow is the gate…” is in reference to the heart. It felt as if I was being coached and supported by beings of light administering to me, as I breathed and focused on my heart. As I focused I saw the golden doors of which I have passed before that led me within, the doors appeared to be ancient, which reminded me of the doors of the Salt Lake Temple. But these doors were the doors of my past experiences with Solomon of the Old Testament, and as they opened I saw the familiar scene of the altar, the veil and Solomon. As he drew back the veil, another set of doors appeared, but these doors were not of gold, but of a thick cut crystal, which was not translucent, but of a brightness that was truly beautiful. It was then that they opened and as they did I beheld an incredible sight of endless multitudes of beings of light, Angels of on High, prepared and organized and singing of praise, not of their lips, but of their hearts. The praise was of a visual energy that lifted out of the individuals and created a collective song of praise, a truly wonderful and beautiful sight of celestial wonder. Other things of which I have been instructed not to write were shown unto me that left me in awe and thanksgiving.
“Yes, you have beheld that which of I speak, the doors of the heart were opened to you and you beheld just one tenth of that which is gathered and prepared to bless the Earth with fire. Remember My son, that My days are not your days and My time not your time. But do know of which I speak, and prepare your heart in obedience that you might be prepared for the cloud of darkness that also gathers, and the day shall be of night. But fear not, for your eyes have beheld that which is beyond the darkness, just as the sun is constant, as a storm is upon you. And so it is the armies of love and light are with patience, as the timing of the All awaits that hour when every knee shall bow and know of which that reigns, the Lord of All Creation, even I whom you call Jesus, the Christ of all creation, the Wonder and Light of The World.”
I am in awe and wonder and even begin to question again that this would come through me and in my questioning I hear…”Trust is imperative.”
I just pray that I might be a clear channel and that these things might not be of my mind’s creation, but of a true nature of God. It seems like it was too…
“Question and doubt not of which I have shown you, your questionings and doubt are an abomination to Me! Do you not know of which I speak, and do you not know that I have prepared you for this, have you not Heard!
My son, My love is upon you and My patience is with you, but question not that which is before you. Question not that which is upon your heart, and question not the will of the Lord. For it is I that have led you to this place, and it is I that will lead you forward/beyond. Do you not know of our deep abiding love for you? Yes son, you are still young to this calling and yes son, you will have doubts, but listen not to the doubts of the mind. And as you do you will grow in strength and will be the mighty warrior that you are. Exercise this muscle of faith and know of our love for you and as you do your countenance will shine of He that has you in His heart, My love and heart will be your love and heart. Then we will be in one accord even as My Angels are of My heart. Come unto Me and know of our love. My son, My son behold the love.”
I lay back on my bed again expecting an experience of love, but nothing came except random images and mind creations some crazy and some macabre as I lay and wait, but nothing but the random of dreamlike mind creations.
“Now you know that which is of mind and your cultural programming; and do you now not understand the lightness of Spirit and the organized thought that speak to your heart? Know My son, that this lesson of value will serve the doubting mind. Again I say unto you, it is not of your mind that I speak, but it is of your heart that the words and vision is cast, and it is of your heart that will take flight upon My words. Remember, My son remember, that you might draw close to Me in all things, that the will of He that draws you to Him might come to pass. Peace My son to your heart and know of our love for you.”
I lay back on my bed in a state of prayer for my weakness and as I lay asking for forgiveness for my weakness, I heard…
“No/know My son you are not weak, you are just doubting. And again it shows of your true nature for it is much easier to work with a doubting mind than of a mind and heart of ego, our love and peace to you.”
January 28, 2013 Monday (Later in the day)
Thinking of my sister, as I make breakfast and think of last night’s phone call about her hearing that she was called, “servant” in my writing. She expressed that it was her hope that was how the Lord would refer to her. In my thinking, my heart opened and I was asking a blessing for her and I heard, “Get a Pen and paper.”
Pen in hand…
“For she that wonders and yet knows of her place and heart… I also have prepared her for her role and callings in life that she might be called daughter, sister, and mother. That the light of love should dwell within her, and that light might shine forth and bless My children and My world. Does she not know of My love and understanding for her? Yes, the love of the Lord of All Creation has been upon her in her youth that she might know of her calling, of that as a light bearer of truth. The light that she carries is of Me and through Me. It is that her days upon the earth have been blessed and it is through these blessings that the love of God flowth. One might ask, ‘what of her sufferings?’ And I say unto you, ‘her sufferings are My sufferings’, and I am with her and for her, for what creature of beauty would not fold under such a weight. I say unto you, look at the weight that the mighty ant carries and does the ant not know of his tarry for the good of the all, and does not this creature of beauty? Yes. My daughter and servant, doth not tarry for My will and My heart? Yes, the love of God is upon her and blesses her even in her sufferings or if it were not so she would not have the strength of which I speak. She knows of which I speak and her heart also carries My mark. That the Heavens will bow upon her arrival and the song of praise will shout out with exceeding joy, ‘Praise to the Lord for His daughter of light returneth unto Him to dwell in His heart once more.’ She knows of My love of her family and the sufferings of her beloved. For if it were not so she would be a broken arrow not worthy of the bow, and I say unto you behold the arrow of beauty that is targeted and resting in the set of the bow and is drawn back and in the hands of the Master. For what pains she has suffered will give the strength of the bow and propel her swiftly and surely home. Fear not for her days have been blessed that she might tarry with her families of love. That she might continue to carry the torch of truth that others might see the light of love and know it is of Me, and that they might also come unto Me.
My son, you came together to bless each other and be a standard of light, truth and love. Because of the love that each of you carry your hearts will be blessed with My love, My mark, and My truth that the gates of Heaven will bid thee welcome. Blessed is this day, that the love floweth over and the heart is full.”
Wow! My heart is full and over flows through my tears of joy and thanksgiving.
And as I was in this state of love a blessing flowed forth for my father…
“And of he that calls you son… for he has been blessed among men that the Lord of All Creation fell upon him in his youth and dwelt in his heart, that he would soften his ways and seek out the nature that is love. For the hand of the Lord was upon him and still is blessing him into his aged years. For he has been blessed to be called father, husband and son, and in those callings are the many doors of understanding that has led him to this place of knowing. He doubts as his son doubts, but deep within is the strength which of that of a warrior, and in that strength is the love of self and the love of the world around him. Question not My son, your purpose and question not your calling for has your life not been full thus far? Has not the boy of your youth seen the joy of God in his surroundings, and do you not continue to see the beauty of My creations? Has not My hand lifted you up many times and set you upon your feet that ye might continue to serve the Lord of All with your humble heart and create a place for these your children and My servants.
Oh ye, My servant, lift up thine eyes and behold the beauty that is yours, behold the love of the Heavens that awaits the coming of your presence, and behold the love that is held in the hearts of the many who still tarry for your love and well being. Question not the love and relations that awaits you, but live thy days as the servant you are, and have been and know (said very slowly and softly) that the God of All Creation awaits to lift you up, and in that day, the song of joy will be heard and the love will overflow with the renewed joy of union. Be it so as I have spoken it.
Blessed is this day, for the love poureth forth and all hearts are full, and hear My words.”
February 1, 2013 Friday (6:00 am)
My alarm goes off, as I come out of a deep sleep, and I immediately hear, “The Lord is upon thee as you continue to dwell in the house of the Lord. Lift thine eyes to the Heavens, and behold that which awaits you.”
As I pause a moment, I can see in my mind’s eye a series of events, starting with seeing a gathering of spiritual beings, and in this just seeing a conceptual image. There is some detail, but the focus of my attention is on me, as I am seated and being confirmed with several men around me laying their hands upon my head. As soon as I take in this image, it then flashes to me being baptized and the room is full of people and then again I flash on seeing myself in a suit and speaking to a group of people. And now begin the words again…
“The Lord is well pleased with His servant and son who is willing to submit his will to the ways of God. May you always know that our love is upon you as you continue your journey on this path. Know My son, that this path will bring much joy to you, as you see your path of the past in your distant past. Look back only to pull the lessons of love that you will speak, and know that the future will hold the love and fullness that awaits to him that serves Me, and receives his glory. For the angels surround you and rejoice as you bring others to Me. Share of your love of Me, share of your love of others, and the Heavens will pour out the spirit of love and fill the hearts, and much joy will be blessed upon the opened hearts that hear My words of love. Continue My son on this journey, and all blessings will be added upon you. Peace and love to your heart, My son and servant.”
As I write this last phrase my entire body is jolted with an energy that starts at my base and moves up through to the top of my head, my crown and third eye are now vibrating.
“Yes the body sensations are a gift also, because it is a witness of the Spirit that has developed within you. For when the heart is felt and the Spirit is felt, it is then that the body can also witness of these things of Spirit that are felt and heard. For it is My wish and hope that the heart will cleave only unto Me, as it does it will flow into the hearts of My children and the glory of love will flow forth with My intention and will. Be blessed My son as you start your day, go forth in love.”
February 2, 2013 Saturday (5:40 am)
I am waking before my alarm to the words, “Our love is upon you.”
Pen in hand…
“Our love is upon you this day. As you enter this day, remember to think and speak justly and come to Me in your thoughts and prayers. Come to Me in your actions and deeds. Come to Me in everything that you do, so when people see you and speak thy name, they speak of Me saying, ‘There goeth a man that is of God.’ Remember to listen to My promptings upon your heart that you might know of which you might act, and which you might speak. Come unto Me in all things.
You ask how one might accomplish such a task? And I say unto you, dedicate yourself as you rise and as you lay yourself down, unto Me. Speak it with your lips and with your heart (experienced an energetic jolt) that the voice of the Lord might fall upon you, and be your guide in all that you do. I hear and know of your thoughts about losing your ‘self’ identity. I ask, how does one lose himself to Himself? Are you not of Me? Are you not desiring to return to Me? Are you not wanting all that I have to pour upon thee, as you walk separately from Me on this earthly journey? The truth, we were one and you will return to the One, if you consciously merge with Me in the body or not. Oh My son, I can hear your wonderings about this of which I speak, and your time does not allow for this lesson/knowing. But do know, that the knowledge of this and much more will be taught to you that you might know of which I speak. Fear not for all of which I speak will align with the doctrines and teachings of what I have already spoken to those before you. For what father in loving his children, would tell one child one truth, and not tell another the same? The world is full of misunderstandings, but were they spoken of by Me, for Me and My will? Come unto Me this day and I will be upon thee in thy thought and deed.”
Incredible! After showering and preparing breakfast I had a few minutes, so I sat on the edge of my bed and decided to read through the two short messages/writings of the last couple of days. I am amazed at what I read and how the Heavens are weaving my teachings with my life experiences. As I read the writing dated February 1st, He spoke to me about going forth into my day in love and just a short time after the writing I found myself in my daily tasks at the local floral wholesaler and I lost my patience with the person helping me, as I interrupted that he was throwing attitude at me. And so this morning He teaches me about being an example and speaking with love. And then I opened the Doctrine and Covenants, in which I just started to read a few days ago, and the very last thing I highlighted at the end of the page, which I had forgotten about, was a simple verse, 6:36…“Look unto me in every thought; doubt not fear not.”
And then receiving this morning’s writing… truly incredible!
Just a side note it has been a few days and I had not seen the person that was helping me, in which I lost my patience, and I had decided after the experience that I would give him the benefit and offer my apology and say that it was a poor lack of judgment on my part, giving him the room to save face, just in case he was giving me some attitude. So this morning he wasn’t out front, so went into the back where he usually works and sought him out. He was shocked in seeing me and I went straight to him and offered my apologies and he lit up. so as I was leaving he asked, “So we are good?” and I responded with a handshake, “We are good.” It felt great to clear the air, and even better to do the admonishments of my Teacher. Thank you!
February 3, 2013
I’m being woken up at 4:30am out of a deep sleep, as I was dreaming, and as I woke I heard, “Write.” I questioned a couple of times and heard again, “Yes write, in the beginning of time…”
So pen in hand as I shake off the sleep…
“In the beginning of time there was first the intention of desire, the desire to be and in that desire was the will of God. The will of the Creator to create a habitat to house the children of desire, the children of man. With that desire came the plan that was and still is, the concept of continual grace. Whereas My children would learn for themselves the power of will, the power of choice and in that time of joy the children of desire …Trust My son, I can feel the hesitation and it is affecting the connection/flow… As I was saying, the children of desire were wanting to create that which had never been done, to create a place of desires where the power of creation could be tested. Where the power of will could be given, and the power of choice could be made. And so it was in that time of beginnings there was the gathering of creation and in that gathering the will of God was made known, that love might be divided unto its self. That the laws of polarity and opposites might come into play/creation, that the world of creation and wonder might be created to house her children. The joy was great and in that joy was housed the companion, pain and separation, the separation of the self from the One. And in that time of beginnings the foundations were set, and in those foundations were the laws that govern all men, that all would be just and right. That the law would apply to the all of man, the justice would be ruled and that the just would be judged by the same as the unjust. For this was the desire that the law of opposites and opposition would come into creation for the all to experience. And so within the creation of all, is you, the son that I have called to Me in the thickets that he might come to Me once more. That he might come back unto the law, that he might not be judged by the same law that was laid in the beginning, because of the course of this world. Yes My son, this world. For there are creations without number and creations of every kind that the mind of God can conceive, that the will of creation might be made manifest. For what would be the power of creation without the act, a power of dead intention. My son, this is just a glimpse into the world of mysteries and even so you struggle with trust and fear of the words that I speak, because of the fear of uniformity of that which has already been given. So this is enough for now. For as you develop and trust, in our connection, then the layers of all knowledge will be slowly revealed. That the word of God might be revealed, for the good of understanding, and show the true glory of God… love.
Can you not feel yourself relax and the flow was with ease? Fear not My son, for all that I have and will give is of Me and why would I not give the same to one son and not the other? For the same must apply to be a fair and just God. The will and mind of God must be one of order and justice, that man might not be created in vain.
Come unto Me and know of My love and understandings that you seek. Come unto Me and understand of My complete love of all My creations, for there is nothing that I have not created out of love. So yes, My son, your mind is glimpsing the love that I have for you and the world in which you have been thrust, for the good of the all, for the will of the all is the will of Me.
Rest My son, and know of that which I speak, and question not My love for all of My creation. Even so, I would not be a God of justice and the scale of balance would be upset and the creation of man in vain. Know My son, Know.”
February 4, 2013 Monday (4:30 am)
I’m being woken up early and hear, “Write.” I question because of my few hours of sleep, do to staying up past midnight inputting the writings into the computer and hear again, “Write, the children of men must come before Me in prayer and supplication…”
Pen in hand…
“… For the day cometh when the hearts must come unto Me, because of the judgments that will fall upon the peoples of the Earth. That the wicked must be brought down to their knees or parish in the quaking of the Earth and all manner of destructions. Because the Earth will groan and shake under the weight of the burden of… the transmission is getting weak because of my fears/ judgments. I can feel a rebuke because of my non-trust of the tone of the writing… Yes, the flow is clouded, because of the concerns that you have to protect Man from My wrath. Because you think that this is a tone of an outdated God, of a God of the Old Testament, and it is not the God of the new order of love and acceptance. And I say unto you and the world of men, ‘The love of God is as constant as the Sun; that My love flows continually to all of My creation, for if it were not so all would perish and all would be lost.’ But I say unto you, ‘That I will not stand by and see the ways of the world become the ways of Man, and let the things that I hold dear and true be trampled under the feet of those that think that God of the old is past. And the God of the new is one of just love … I Am that I Am. I am the Beginning and the End, meaning I have the creative power to destroy as well as to love. My wrath is before you because of the very thought that you carry, that all is well in the sight of a loving God. And I say unto you, ‘That all is NOT well. For did you not see your advertisings and were you not even shocked? Were you not even embarrassed by the children seeing the views of suggestive behavior, and the lewd manner that was presented to the masses for acceptance? Can you not see that the ways of Man and the ways of God are not the same? Can you not see that I am a loving God that calls to His children continually, BUT I WILL NOT STAND BY, and let the designs of he that plots to destroy the will of He that has created all from the beginning until now. I will NOT let him, and his following that thwart against Me, take that, that is of good and purity in the nature of My creation. I say unto you and the world of men, ‘That the love of God is as constant as the Sun. That My love flows continually to all of My creation, for if it were not so all would be lost.’ But I say unto you, ‘That I will NOT stand by and see the ways of the world become the ways of Man. And let the things that I hold dear and true be trampled under the feet of those that think that the God of old is past. And the God of the new is one of just love… I Am that I Am. I am the Beginning and the End, meaning I have the creative power to destroy as well as to love. And My wrath is before you, because of the very thought that you carry, that all is well in the sight of a loving God. And I say unto you, ‘All is NOT well.’ For did you not see your advertisings and were you not even shocked? Were you not even embarrassed by the children seeing the views of suggestive behavior and lewd manner that was presented to the masses for acceptance, that which I have sanctified of Me, the God of All Creation. For do you not think that I could put an immediate stop to this at this very moment? Do you not think that I could pull the very breath from thee at this very time? But, I am a loving God that waits and pleads with all My children that their hearts might turn to Me. For it is I, that hold off the Angels of God. For it is I, that wait in hope that the will of Man might turn back to Me. And it is I who have been a Master of patience and love that has delicately led you to this very place that you are. That you might hear My words and plead with My children for their sakes that the will of God will not be forsaken, and the love that is at the core of My children might come forth and turn to Me once more. For I am a merciful God that is willing to turn back the tides of purification that wait to cleanse the world/Earth of her iniquities. For I can hear the cries of the Mother, that she calls unto Me that I might cleanse her of her children’s misdoings, that she cries unto Me. As I have even heard your cries of help in your duress. Was I not a loving God and set you upon your feet? And am I not a loving God that holds back the cleansing tide of the Angel’s wrath to bring forth the balance of freedom and the balance of choice? For it is I who set this plan of freedom of design and it was I who set the foundations of the world, and with it are the laws in which must govern all things. For if it were not so, I would not be a fair and just Father. But I am drawn to the wrath of My beloved, and hear their cries to show the children what is behind the veil, that the veil be rent and that the children of men might see armies of Angels. The multitudes without number that are ready to pour out judgments upon the Earth to cleanse it of all manner of wrong doing. But I plead with them out of concern, for even the one that is lost and might come unto Me. Oh children of men, hear My voice as I cry out in only love, ’Come unto me, turn your hearts unto Him that calls you son and daughter. Turn your hearts to Me that you might hear My call.’ (Tears are flowing, because I can feel the pure nature in His call to Him). Yes, you can glimpse the depth of My love, and yet even with that depth, I cannot stand by and let My will and My law be willfully trampled and teach a new generation that the laws of God do not apply to them, and that there is only the law of acceptance. I can hear your wonderings, about your past and where you have come from and how is it that you were blessed with My presence, even in your ways … only because of My love. The love that holds off the scale of balance. For I could see into your heart and I could see that it was only, because of the blinding of the world and your hurt that took you to your wandering. Did your heart not cry out to Me? Did I not hear you and respond? Have I not been crying out to you for years to come unto Me, and has not your heart responded to My call? Yes, you rejected My call at times and the ways of Man drowned out My call, but can you not see the love and patience that My heart holds for My children? But the scales of balance have tipped and the balance of freedom and choice must be brought back and made level. That the true nature of Man might be made known, and that the natural Man might be brought under control. For have I not lifted your burdens and made thee whole that you might stand before Me, and do the will that I command?
Oh My children, hear My call and heed My pleadings. That the peoples of the Earth might be preserved, and that thy ways might become the ways of love once more. Oh peoples of the Earth, hear My cry, ‘Come unto Me’, that calls you to Him, that calls you home. Let your hearts turn once more to Me, that you might be spared that which is to come. Even so, My love is before you and My hand is outstretched. Hear My plea, Come unto Me.”
February 5, 2013 Tuesday
I awake and there is silence, so I question and hear…
“Rest My son, and know that Our love is upon you. You have much to assimilate.”
February 9, 2013 Saturday (6:15 am)
Again, waking before my alarm, I was in a deep sleep. And while waking I hear, “We are waiting to talk with you.”
“The time has come to prepare the mind and body to be in the best of health, that one can be. This call came to you years ago, and it is the same call that comes to you today. For the body is the vehicle in which the soul must travel in this existence, and it is the same body that will be with you at the time when all will be made whole. Respect it, love it, and honor it. Come unto Me, that I might purify it, and as the body is made pure, so the house is cleansed that the Spirit might fall upon you with more ease and prepare the way for My presence. For none dwelleth in sin before Me, in other words, there is no unclean thing that can be before Me. You wonder about your past and My presence with you, and I say unto you, ‘That My Spirit was with you. My forerunner was upon you, for if it were not so I would not be God and that which I love would perish at My presence.’ For the Light of Love prepares the way before Me that all might be made whole in my presence. For I Am, that I Am. For He that has come, is He that called you out of the thickets of wandering, and it is now I that call you.
I can hear your mind and know your thoughts about not questioning My voice that calls forth unto you, and you bearth more discipline in your thoughts. Remember My son, that there are Three; He who prepares the way, that cries unto you in the name of My Beloved, Whom I am well pleased, that has set the foundation of this world and many worlds that are and that will be and then there is the Creator of All, the One that from which all life must dwell to breathe the breath of existence and in My Name all the order of things that are physical and nonphysical, all things that are spirit and thought, all things particle and subparticle dwelleth. For it is My house that you dwell and it is in My house that you call Me, Father. For the Father calls you now unto Him, that you might be made whole and come unto Me, that the will of he that bears the mark of the heart, might receive All That Is. There is no more and no less, there is only the joy that rests in this place that one might be home once more. Come unto Me, for He that calls you son, now calls you to Him. So prepare the body to receive My glory, for if it were not so all would not exist and be destroyed in My countenance. Remember My son, it is in His name that you must come unto Me and it is His name that you must carry to be in My presence. So let His name, that touched your heart, be upon your lips that you might enter into My house and My heart. Hear My words and failth not to prepare for the day that lies in its approach. Remember the words and promise that has been given…
For how can a loving Father be angry as He lovingly gazes into the eyes of His infant child that struggles to keep his gaze through sleepy eyes?
For prepare, prepare that you might dwell with Me!”
February 10, 2013 Sunday (6:30pm)
I just got home from visiting with Dad, because he wasn’t feeling well enough to go to church. As I am in the kitchen preparing something to eat, I hear, “Write.” I question, it is not as clear as just being waken of out of sleep, because it is mixed with my everyday thoughts. I can feel my crown chakra and third eye chakra activating with energy sensations.
Pen now in hand…
“The time is at hand when the blessings will impart and the love of the Lord will fall upon you with the will of He that commandeth all things. Come unto Me, that the blessings might flow and that the body might know of which it receives the outpouring of love. Yes My son, when the Lord commands the will is made known and the promise of love is fulfilled. Remember to call upon Me and as you do, the fire of love will fill your heart and you will be blessed with the knowledge of which you should act. Blessed is the day when the heart and the mind become one and the heart and mind of God revealed. The Lord is well pleased with the tasks at hand and the desire to accomplish that, which is commanded. Worry not My son, that the strength to endure will be there and the mindset of change will be on this path as you continue to grow and overcome.
Rest My son, you are at a place of exhaustion, your body needs to rejuvenate and that is the purpose of the silence for that last couple of days. Relax and rest the body unto Me. Blessings to you.”
February 13, 2013 Wednesday (5:45am)
I woke up before my alarm and hearing,“Write ‘W’, write.” And again I heard, “Write My beloved son, write. I the Lord am well pleased…”
Waiting with pen in hand and trying to clear my mind.
“I the Lord am well pleased with the growth and counsel of the beloved that you are surrounded, the hearts are turned to love and my servants are of Me. The love that is felt comes from the pure love of My heart and the growth felt is of the mind. Let those that fear move from the mind and into the heart, and then I will be well pleased. You will come upon those that fear you because of the conditioning of man and their own fears of self. The fears and judgments are not of Me, but of the ego and the mind that lives to protect, but what need is there to protect oneself from love? When the heart is felt, the love flowth for all that come before Me in a humble state of spirit. The soul of the downtrodden and judged do not need more judgment, but must be lifted and set upon their feet with love. The love you have felt from those you are surrounded is of Me and it is My praise and blessings that will fall upon them. For it is of My plan and design, the love would be felt and that the right should be in place that My will might be accomplished, not only for you but all involved. For the lessons of love and clear thinking are of Me and are of My design. For as much as the path is made clear, it is then that the law will be made obedient to love, for the law is of love and the law is ruled by love. You see My son, love is at the core of all, even My wrath is based on My love and it is when My love is sufficient that the will of the heart is felt, that the change of the mind and intentions of man will be made to come unto Me. So well done My servants, continue to come unto Me in love and a heart of pure intention and I will open My storehouse and bless all that you have with the blessings that await; for the angels await with an eagerness to pour the blessings that wait to be showered upon you.
Peace and love to you all, as you continue in My love. Go forth My son and I will bless thee with the strength that you will need to run this race of this day. Let the heart be focused upon Me and I will bless thee with the endurance that is needed for your/this week.”
February 16, 2013 Saturday (4:30 am)
I’m waking early, After falling asleep with all the lights on, so getting up and turning them off throughout the house and as I am doing so I hear several times to “Write”, as usual I question and with the final question I hear, “No, Write.”
Pen in Hand…
“For the time is coming for the righteous will begin to be gathered as one, and the time is coming when this gathering will bring together those that will lead My people, then the people will follow. This gathering of Zion will be as spoken, a gathering of those that hear My call, that will come unto one place that they might bring to pass the beginning of those things that have been told would come to pass. And in this no harm will befall them and no hand will come up against them, for the Angels of Heaven will surround them with might and force and the burning sword of God will burn brightly, so that no one will be brave enough to come up against thee. Oh My children prepare your hearts that they might be as one. Take the malice and judgments out of your minds, cease thy murmurings and hear My words that the good will come unto one place, that the way might be tempered for that which is to come. That the souls of God might be gathered to receive Me in the flesh that the physical might be felt once more, that you might begin to have a pure witness of He that will come with the Armies of Heaven, that will come with force and might to cleanse the earth of the iniquities. And that the cries of the Mother will be cries of joy, that she receives her Groom and will rejoice to receive Him that created her and all that dwell within her. That she might receive that which has been promised from the beginning. That she might be made whole and receive her glory; that she might be made pure to house the Lord of All Creation. For in that day those that heard not My call will be as stubble in the field that was left as useless. And they will be left unto themselves for a while for the second gathering. And in that gathering will be those that still come unto Me, that hear My call again and kneel before the Warriors of Heaven and beg for their lives and they will see in the faces that come to destroy and cleanse the fearlessness of the destruction. But as they gaze upon the look of might, they will see the mighty love of God that burns in the eyes that come to cleanse. For it is only with such a love that could witness such destruction. For in that love is the knowledge of which is to come and that, which will be.
Oh, come unto Me children, that you might know of my love before that day cometh, that the Angels of God might pass thee by and that the will of He that commandeth all things might be made manifest. That you might count yourself as one in My heart, that you might gather yourselves unto Me now and cleave unto My herd that you might know My words and My voice. That you might be as one in Me and that you might be protected in that day.
I can hear of your wonderings on a proof or mystery to prove of these words and that you/they might know of the validity of which I speak. And I say unto you, ‘That the Lord God commandeth that you write and it is the same Lord that calls you to Him and it is the same Lord that whispers to you.’ Can you not know My voice and can you not know of My intent? For it is the same Lord that called unto you in the thickets and it is the same Lord of All Creation that speaks the things to you now, that you might hear and know that which is to come. Yes, in your lifetime or why would I speak these things to you? That you might prepare your heart and mind for that which is to come. That you might share with those that will hear your voice of love, and that the word might be made known unto those that you know will receive your words with a knowledge of truth.
Again, I can hear your questionings of the hierarchy of the promise and I say unto you, that this word is going out unto all those that will hear My voice that will gather themselves unto Me. That they might be prepared in that day that My voice will not be a voice of a stranger. But will be the voice in which they will know and hear, saying unto themselves, ‘I know this voice and this call, I know of which is spoken. Let me go now unto Him and question not the things that have been requested.’ For in the call is the knowledge of that which will come.
Remember My son, that all who hear My words will not come unto Me, because of fear or greed, but those that do will receive far more than that which was left behind. Yes, even as in the past that I have gathered My people it is even now that I call again. There are those that will be called to one place and then there are those that will gathered unto the oneness of the heart, which both are of Me. Fear not the words of love that I have spoken unto you. For it is My will that these things be said to prepare the minds that listen, that the knowing will prepare for that which will be.
Rest My son, you are full and know that My love is upon you to hear of these things. Yes, share them that they might hear My words also; for the message of love is being sent out in this manner that the preparing might be one of quiet swiftness, that those that command might be heard. Remember My son, that the will of God is upon thee to write of which I speak.”
February 18, 2013 Monday
I woke and heard no message to write, but as I was kneeling and offering a morning prayer, I was asking for a clear mind that I might know the guidance for a loved one and those I would meet this day. And what came to mind was a conversation that I had yesterday and I was told to write for her name.
Pen in hand…
“For she that struggles with the pleasures of life and the duties of existence. Let her know that the patience of her asking is the same today as in her past. That the Lord of All Creation is upon her, even when she is in her disappointments. And that the love of the Heavens is constant and even though she might ask, ‘Where art thou oh Lord, why must I wait and for whom will I marry and for what purpose if I am too late to have children? All of her questionings are heard and it is the will of the Lord that she might suffer in in her patience, even as I have asked your Mother/ Earth to suffer a while longer for the time is in My hand and the will and … My son your desires are too close and that is why you are having a more difficult time in receiving the words. Calm yourself and release your desires and hopes for her wellbeing and protection of what she should hear for her will and faith. Do you not think that the will of her Father’s love is not sufficient? Do you not think that My heart radiates as much love and concern for her. For she is in My heart and she is in My focus, but the lessons of life and the programming for this existence must be fulfilled. The lessons of faithful attitude and endurance of love is one of the many lessons for this child of love. For the desire is created and the expectations are set forth for one who likes the adventure of life, but in this adventure one must stay attuned to My heart and listen with the adventurer’s heart, that we might be one in purpose. For if the adventurer travels into one direction and the path of excellence is in another, how must I bring forth the desires that one seeks? It is either to bring a change to one or the other; the endless calculations of possibilities are created with every adventure. So when one desires the adventure with desires and expectations, one must stay attuned to the compass to get the true reading, to lead that adventure to the desired results. It is not magic; it is not wizardry. It is in the Creator’s mind and heart that all is organized. It is an existence of creation and in this plane of creation there is order. So when one desires one must stay attuned to the Creator to receive the desired outcome. Let all My children relax in this, which they desire, for their cries come unto Me and it is in those cries that My love is extended beyond that which is in constant flow. For what loving father would turn his back to one child and hear another? My love is constant and My guidance is constant. For when one asks of desire, the laws of purpose come into play, meaning that the laws of one’s purpose, one’s belief and one’s heart. For one may ask with the mind, and the heart is not in agreement or one may ask of the heart and the thinking of the mind will not allow the heart’s desire. One must be of one heart and one mind to be in one purpose of desire. Let the one cleave unto love, let the one cleave with their heart unto Me and I will tend to their heart and mind that the one might be one with My will and desire that the unity of oneness might be achieved.
Let the desires be of Me and all will pour abundantly of love and Spirit. Do you not think that the suffering of all my servants, of past and present, are in My heart? Do you not think that with the suffering of desire, that the fruit will be sweeter? For in some instances there must be the desire so great that the desire can break through the safeguards of the mind or the will of the ego must be broken to allow the desired effect.
So My children, know of My love and know that any suffering is not of My pleasure or desire, but out of one’s state of mind or being. For it is My will that all are in a state of joy and love, even as I am, even as the Heaven’s witness all the pain that is around you, for if it were not so the heart of God would be broken to see such suffering. Come unto Me, give Me your will and let Me lead you and that the desires of the one purpose might be fulfilled. Remember, a divided house has no master, no order, to receive My love to you and all who suffer with broken wills and hearts. Let them lift their eyes unto Me and see the love that pours forth. Be of good cheer, believe and feel my touch of love.”
February 21, 2013 Thursday (3:40 am)
I am being told to write, my mind is foggy but willing…
“The pen is the way to the heart, for when the Lord God commandeth the pen, the heart opens to hear and in hearing are the ways of love. The time will come when the heart will need to be your guide, when the words of truth will be spoken through the heart and in those words will be the salvation of others. For when the Lord speaks and commands, the heart will open and hear the truth of which is spoken. And then the messenger of peace and light will read what is upon the heart of the words of God. Your concerns are reasonable as you see yourself at the present, but in time you will know of which I speak, for the foundation is being built and the foundation is upon Me. For when the time is ready and the building complete, the building will be a building of beauty, to house the Lord God of All Creation, so that My will might be done.
Your concerns are valid and My love is upon you, that you might know of which I speak, that as you listen and write, that in that day these words will become prophetic and then will you remember, that it was spoken from the beginning of which will be and is. For in My reality it has already happened, and the joy of the one that doubted himself is wide felt. Remember My son, remember that the love of God is upon you and that the will of Him is becoming your will, become one, and as will and heart become one, so followeth the mind.Be gentle, for being a scribe of Me, is a gift learned. And in time the pen will disappear and the pen will not be needed to hear My word, but as for now the pen is in training that the mind might attune to the heart. Your ripples of questions, wonder and emotion of concern come through as you write, and I can feel and hear you. Fear not My son, for have I not brought you this far in My wisdom and have I not chosen in vain, but out of love?
The time will come when the mystery will be revealed and the heart will be ready to hear of your worth, but of this day the mind would shut out the heart and the will of God would be forfeited by the ego of fear and desperation. You continually ask and wonder of self, if you are delusional, not of sound mind to be writing such things, is this not even, of which I speak? That the stronghold of the ego or the mind of man still has a hold upon you and as you continue to bear witness of Me through the pen; we will become one and the fruit then will be ready for the Server’s hand and the fruit will be of exceeding delight. Rest My son, rest unto Me and let My Spirit give you strength for this day.”
February 22, 2013 Friday (6:00 am)
Been in deep dreaming all night, when my alarm goes off I hear, “Write, My son write.”
Coming out of a groggy mind as I hear…
“The Lord God is well pleased that the time is near that the peoples will receive the out-pouring of love, the first wave of the call of the Holy Ghost, My preparer and messenger. For in that wave of love, the trumpet will sound and the energy of His call, to come unto Me, will go forth as a mighty wave to all peoples of the Earth. And in this wave of love will be the cry of love to turn to the heart and turn unto Me, that all peoples in all faiths of belief will be prompted to turn to the skies of their hearts and lift their eyes unto Me and behold My love and mercy. And in that act of love they will be prompted to say, “For my God doth love me for my heart flowth over and my will, will become His will and my heart His heart.” And in so doing this wave of love will bring forth the first phase of the beginning of the end of times. And in this ending will be the new beginning of the reign of love, light and the fullness of times. When He who is Lord and Son will come to receive His full glory of that which He has spoken, that which My servants for millennium have spoken. Yes My son the time is near, when this love of man will be made manifest that those that hear will be attuned with the heart and mind and that when this wave of love washes over them they will know of which I speak and prepare their hearts and minds for that which is to come. I can hear your questionings and say unto you, that even though a man, woman or child not have a knowledge of He that will reign, know Him and Me in other ways and by other names; for this is a call to the heart which holds the truth of love for their Creator. For when this cry is heard the heart will speak of Me and those that hear will lift their eyes in love and understanding. For it is then that the first wave of love will bring them to their knees and the humble will cry out unto Me and give thanks for all that has been given, their lips will profess their love that is written upon their hearts.
So My son, in this all children will come unto Me that hear My call and this will be the first of many sifting out of the hearts of man. For this will begin to make the divide of heart, mind and will, that the angels of Heaven will begin to tarry and glean the harvest. For the harvest of love is before us and the will has been spoken, that all that hear My call will come unto Me.
My son My son, know of our love, know of My mercy that your heart has come unto Me and that you have heard My call unto your heart, for is this not evidence of which I speak? Is this not a knowledge of truth and the heart of My love for My children? Is this not a witness of which is to come? Prepare ye for that which will flood the Earth as I have spoken. This is the way that will begin the reign of the heart, even so I have spoken it and so it will be.”
February 23, 2013 Saturday (6:30 am)
I just woke up and didn’t hear the words to write, but as I was up and about I heard, “Write.” I questioned and heard again, “Write.”, I questioned again and heard, “You know My voice.”
So ready with pen …
“The voice of the Lord callth forth for all who will hear, for the love cometh from Him to be felt and heard that those that will hear His call might come unto Him. Remember My son, for that which I have spoken is about to come/roll forth that the hearts might come unto Me and remember/know that in that first call will be to all peoples everywhere and in the following call will be to those that will gather unto one place. This call will be to those who will govern My body, and these will be those with gifts talents and those whom already lead My people. For what purpose is this gathering? That the Lord God might come and give witness of Himself, the Lord of All Creation. That the hands might feel, touch and know with a surety of Me. That the knee shall bow and know with a pure knowledge to the heart that He that lived, lives and has come once more to claim that which was said from the beginning of time … Oh son trust, trust the words that are whispered to you, trust that this might be written and that My word might go forth through those to whom I have chosen to whisper and bear witness of Me. I can hear of your mind and know of your heart and know of your concerns and questionings. You wonder of what purpose these writings if they are meant just for your ears and your heart and I say unto you that this is meant for you to know and bear witness of which has been spoken, it is also meant for the ears of those around you that will hear of My words. But also this is an exercise that you might first trust and once the heart trusts, the mind and the heart, they will become one unto Me. And it is then that word of My heart will be bound to thy heart and that which is of My desire might flow forth that the voice of God be heard. I hear you and you ask of My prophet which leads and his role as My mouthpiece to My people? That you do not want to be in conflict of him and I say unto you that there is one to lead and there are others that will bear My word for the use of My purpose and will, trust My son for the knowledge will be of another time. The time of this day is to prepare the mind and heart, that the mind will kneel to the heart and submit even as you are learning to submit to Me. Line upon line and all will come to your understanding.
As I was saying, that this second call will be for My servants whom will serve Me in My word/command, that the will of the people might know and it will be another test of faith for at this time I will not show myself yet to all peoples and those that have been gathered will know of Me and will speak My will to the masses, even as it is now. But I will be with them in the flesh and walk with them in the flesh that My will and their hearts will be one and the true Zion will reign. Fear not My words son, for those that hear of this first call will be of such a mind and heart that their will, will be golden and as a pure white fruit within, that is why you must prepare the mind and heart in this day to purge the undesirable, do not trifle with the things of this world and think that you will clean the house tomorrow, for tomorrow is almost nigh and the heart will not be prepared to receive Me. You are asking how to purge the mind and heart and I say unto you, the mind is crafty in thought for it holds the programming of this world and the will for survival, but focus on the heart, attune to the heart and it is there that you will find Me and it is there that I will speak and it is there that you will know Me. For the mind will run you in circles of questionings, but the heart will bear witness to the mind and it is then that the mind will kneel in submission and begin to be of one path unto Me. So My son, focus on your heart and you will know Me.
As far as purging the world from thee, watch what you feed your mind. Just as you are coming unto Me in body and desiring to nurture your body with good and wholesome foods, so it is with the mind. For He that thwarts to destroy My will knows of the mind and knows that if a seed is planted in the mind it will grow. For the mind is like fertile soil and what is planted will take root. So feed the mind only those things that will be in one accord with the heart, and in so doing remember also your words that you speak. In your world you have learned to relate through the suggestive and being jovial of things that are sacred and I say unto you, begin now to withdraw from those conversations and words, participate not in the words of jovial nature which mean no harm but continue to pollute the mind and set it on course of creative and cunning ways of expression. As you begin to withdraw from the ways of the past, others will take note and may even buck up against thee. But hold strong and know that your new ways are of Me and if followed will bring you unto your heart and that which will bring you to Me. So My son, prepare your mind and heart that your ways are My ways that you might come unto Me, that you might know Me.”
February 25, 2013 Monday
“The words of your prayer are weak and unfocused, because of your lack of a formal attitude and presence. I appreciate and accept all prayers and hearts turned unto Me. But it is a struggle for you to maintain in the same posture as your sleep, where the body wants to sleep and therefore the mind starts to drift and focus is lost. To prevent your feelings of slothfulness you might consider a more formal position such as kneeling or as you are now on your elbows, because it brings the body out of the sleep conditioning and into a focused manner. Come unto Me in all ways, but this is so that you will not move into feelings of less than, which you then tend to feel bad about yourself and negates the progress of self-worth and value. Remember these things and know that our love is upon you and the love of the Heavens is waiting to bless all that come unto Me. Blessings this day.”
Thank you for all of your words of wisdom and counsel of love, Thank You.
February 26, 2013 Tuesday
Waking out of a deep sleep and giving thanks for the rest my body needed, and hear an immediate response, “Good, then write.”
Pen in hand…
“The will of the Lord is that all things of that which is of the world be taken in moderation. As you have witnessed since our conversation of your return, that the world has changed its views of what is appropriate in its entertainment and lifestyle, even now you see through new eyes and that which was acceptable is now worrisome to the mind. For in this new vision is the way of the Lord and in that which was of the past is and was the way of the world. For when this divide is broadened it will surprise you to the length of which the world has taken its views from Me. And how the advisory has influenced the societies of the world into accepting that which turneth the heart away from Me and My ways, even as you accepted those ways and looked to them as natural to man and creative in nature. But I say unto you, ‘That the mind can easily be polluted and taken from Me in the most subtle of ways.’ Be of a watch and safeguard of the mind and the heart, for that which is planted shall surely grow and when the eyes are not aware the weeds of disbelief and a hardening of heart will begin to sprout in the garden of the mind. And when these weeds of corruption are rooted, the roots spread and permeate all that is good and of Me. I hear of your thinking of what is good and this division and your concerns of returning to a puritanical way of thinking. And I say unto you, ‘That I cannot and will not tarry in the presence of that which is unclean.’ For that which is natural is in its innocence, but that which is of natural man has been polluted by the deception of what is pure and good. For the world says, ‘It is natural, a part of life and all parts of life should be viewed to depict life as it is.’ And I say unto you, ‘Are not these even your words and thinking of the things of the world and was not this even of your belief?’ And I say unto you now, ‘That the ways of God are not the ways of man’. And that which is said to be natural is not natural, but is woven with the treads of the advisory to incite people with contention and lust, with a heart of pollution that cannot hear My voice and My call unto them. For My words of love are considered boring to the natural man who has hardened his way to Me and who has shut out his connection to his Mother (Earth) by the deafening sound of modern life and his technologies. For what man or woman can hear My voice amongst all the transmission of sound and energy that has now surrounded him? Remember My son, that these ways of relating are not wrong, but it is how they are flooding your world that makes it difficult to have any connection to Spirit. Do you not see that the mind is over exercised and gives no worry to the heart? Can you not see that the mind is the source of all stimulation and is confused now with the desire of the heart? For the heart speaks of Me and the Mother of your Creation. As you walk, as you partake, as you do everything… where is the silence for the Spirit to be heard? Silence now to an over stimulated world is now boring, the subtle ways of connection is now unexciting. But can you not even witness that even just a taste of the things of the Spirit is so joy filled that it is most delightsome and desirable, that the spirit or soul of man is in a starving state of that which is of Me. Can you now see clearly with eyes wide open and seeing through the ways of the Lord? This is why the Angels plead and are ready, because never in the history of this world has man been so deceived. Never before has he been so separated by the craftiness of he that thwarts against Me. For surely the mists of Lehi have blinded the sight and deafened the ears and hearts, of Me. But I say unto you, ‘My beloved that wait to cleanse the Mother of her iniquitous ways, that She might be free from that which grieves Her, and that She might not be made to carry the burden of such weight.’ For when My voice has been heard, and the sifting out has taken place, and those that are lost found, then and only at My command will the cleansing of the world take place. For many of you will think it is nature, but oh My children know of your hearts that it is of Me. Know of your hearts that I have relinquished the Angels of Heaven to begin that which has been spoken from the beginning. Oh son, know of which I speak and prepare the heart and mind, tend to the garden of your mind and soul that you might know of Me and hear Me in your heart, that you might come unto Me. That even as your heart has turned unto Me, you might not be deceived in the blindings of the world. Cleave unto Me, cleave unto the heart and know of which I speak. Oh Children, My children come unto Me.”
I am tearful as I can feel of His love, the depth and feeling of His call for us to come unto Him. These feelings touch me and speak to my heart of His love for each of us. In feeling this love it makes me want to be a better person and speak of His love to others. I give thanks for this lesson of love and awakening my eyes to His love, concerns and even pleadings for our hearts.
February 28,2013 Thursday (3:00 am)
I’m woken up, as I glance over at the clock and it was three o’clock straight up and then hear,
“I would like to speak with you.” And then began to hear, “There is so much confusion in your mind what to share and what is of Me.”
“The Lord God saith unto you, ‘Lo behold that which has been written of Me and He that dwelleth on high, even My Father, which is in Heaven, which commands all things within and without. For
let it be known that He is the Supreme of All Creation. And this I say unto you that you might know once and for all that it is He and only He that commendeth that these words be written, not only for your sake and well being, but also for the sake of His high purpose, to bring to pass the immortality of man, His creation. Do you not know now of which I speak? Do you not know of a surety of the words, which you write? Yes, I can hear your wondering… “Is this an abnormal creation in personality of the mind?” And I say unto you with all love that is for you, ‘That your continued questioning of this matter is now an offense unto Him.’ For can you not see all that has been skillfully crafted to bring you to this place? For what creation of the mind could manipulate not only your internal nature and world, but also bend the will that exists from without, to bring you to this perfect place? Can you not see this with a clarity of mind? For if you cannot then there is surely not a God of which commandeth all things of Heaven, Earth and beyond! Oh My son, question not the will of He that commandeth all things. Your mind only wants to know, and let now know (a large energy jolt started to build at the base of my spine and shot up through my body) the body, and now know the heart and let them now bear witness to the mind to relieve the mind of these continued questionings. For if your purpose was not of value and importance, the Lord God would have you with Him, even now in spirit. For how many times have We set you upon your feet and preserved your life for this very day? Question not the life that has been given to you and the path of excellence that is before you. I now know that I have been very clear in My words, that there can be no wiggle for the mind to create any confusion of which I speak. And now to relieve the questioning mind, of to Him who is speaking. For this has been a well crafted plan from the beginning unto the end and let Me now make it clearly be known, that from the beginning even until now, it has been the will of the Father that you should come back unto Him and all that enter unto Him must come through Me, even Lord God Jesus Christ, whom is the Savior and Redeemer of all that bear My mark and name. For one might have My name upon his or her lips, but not have My mark. For My mark is upon you that there is no question, to them that serve Me, of which I speak. For it is that you and others, My son have this… write these words for I can feel your mind shying away for what the mind does not want to hear… mark of the heart, because of your heart that is of Me and carries My touch that it is a witness of those that bear My name… write… upon their soul that they might command all things that which is before them. Yes, your mind is flooded with questionings of such words and purpose. Oh My son, calm and bring that which serveth the soul, to the command of the heart. Yes, command from the heart and the mind will surrender to the knee. Let it be known that you are worthy of these words that have been written and spoken, for if it were not so I would not be before you now. The mark is a mark of passage that is respected amongst the Heavens and it will allow you the passage of spirit, heart and mind for he/she that carries such a gift is known of Me and all that serve Me, that brings unto them the forces of He that commands the affairs of this world. For the Lord of all Creation, our Supreme Father hath given this unto you that the Heavens would…’ Oh please forgive me, please forgive my weakness but I feel so weak to write these words and feel so weak at this very minute that I don’t know if I can carry this, for it seems very grandiose and beyond my belief of self and worthiness. For the mind has a strangle hold on me and I will surely bring your wrath upon me in my disbelief. For I want to hide and disappear, it takes every ounce of will to still hold onto the pen and at the very same time afraid that You will cut me off, which at this point would be worse than death for me. My mind is overwhelmed and I feel as if I am drowning in my own mind, and in my own thinking; I feel so broken and confused right now.
“My son, My son, take a moment and come unto Me, breathe unto Me and calm the storm that is within you… rest My son, rest unto Me and let the mind rest. We will continue after you have rested unto Me… with the love that you need and will be given…rest.”
It is now morning and I have slept, my mind is calm and the storm within me is quieted, but now I am in fear that I have offended the Heavens, my God and Jesus Christ. Please forgive me of my weakness, that I could not take the things being spoken of me. I am so so sorry that I have not lived up to your will. I pray that you might forgive me and continue with me. I pray that I might be strong enough to hear your will of me and that I might have the courage and strength to hear of your will and be able to act upon it. It hurts me, that I am a disappointment to you and it hurts my heart that I am weak before you. The desire of my heart is to be able to kneel before you as a strong warrior for Thy will and what you should desire, to know with a surety that your desire will be lived out. Oh Father, Jesus, Masters of my soul, please help me to be strong, create within me the fire of desire and strength of the sword, that every word that is spoken of Thee will fall upon fertile soil of my heart and that my word might be your word, that we might be one in will, purpose and deed. Please my Heavens, forsake me not but hear my pleas for forgiveness of my weakness.
“My son, My son, know and remember what has been spoken thus far and know of our great love for You that You should come before Us in such a state of humility. You have no time for Us to continue because of your work day obligations. But know now that Our hearts are full of only love for you; look and see of your love for Us. Could you conceive of this desire a short time ago? You now kneel and plead for the bridle, saddle and to be ridden! Oh how sweet the fruit of Our patient labors. Oh how sweet is thy heart. Blessed are you My son, go forth this day and know of Our love for you, and know that you are the warrior that you plead to be, blessed are you among men.”
March 1, 2013 Friday (5:30 am)
I just got home from visiting with Dad, because he wasn’t feeling well enough to go to church. As I am in the kitchen preparing something to eat, I hear, “Write.” I question, it is not as clear as just being waken of out of sleep, because it is mixed with my everyday thoughts. I can feel my crown chakra and third eye chakra activating with energy sensations.
Pen now in hand…
The time is at hand when the blessings will impart and the love of the Lord will fall upon you with the will of He that commandeth all things. Come unto Me, that the blessings might flow and that the body might know of which it receives the outpouring of love. Yes My son, when the Lord commands the will is made known and the promise of love is fulfilled. Remember to call upon Me and as you do, the fire of love will fill your heart and you will be blessed with the knowledge of which you should act. Blessed is the day when the heart and the mind become one and the heart and mind of God revealed. The Lord is well pleased with the tasks at hand and the desire to accomplish that, which is commanded. Worry not My son, that the strength to endure will be there and the mindset of change will be on this path as you continue to grow and overcome.
Rest My son, you are at a place of exhaustion, your body needs to rejuvenate and that is the purpose of the silence for that last couple of days. Relax and rest the body unto Me. Blessings to you.”
March 2, 2013 Saturday (6:40 am)
I wake up and hear, “Would you like to write?” I replied, “Yes.”
Pen in hand…
“The Lord God is pleased that you are aware of your conversations, words and thoughts. For thoughts and awareness is the first step of change and creation. For in the desire to create, the thinking of the heart of desire is the place to begin, and in the desire of the heart is the intention of the desired outcome. This is the natural order of things, that man might first become aware of himself through desire. Secondly, is the intention of the heart that is then planted in fertile soil of the mind with thought. That is why it is so important to garnish your thought of desire. When a thought comes into focus of an undesirable out come, it is then and there that you have a choice in action and creation. For when the thought is given the water of another thought or energy of desire, it is there that the activation has begun and it is there that the life form is created into existence. So My son, remember these things, garnish your mind and thought, for that which is given is to help you in bridging the relationship of mind and heart, that is imperative for the development of the natural to be made spiritual to be able to come unto Me. For when the time cometh for the mind to hear My call of creation it is in that day that the order of the mind is understood and that the ability to create is brought forth out of the desire of one heart. This is the first principle of understanding, that the mind and heart might begin to understand their relationship and interplay. For continue to concentrate on the heart/mind connection, continue to feel with the heart, to listen with the heart and know with an assuredness of My words to the heart. Yes, My son, just as you made the shift/focus from the mind as you hear the words that you are writing, shift to the heart as you hear the words. In the past you have focused your point of energy on the mind and focused on the head or upper energy centers of the body, but as you just became aware, bring the focus of energy to the heart. So, in training will be a natural response to go to the head and replacing this response to, focus on the heart. Practice, take this principle and work on it, play with it, exercise and manipulate it in different forms and ways that you might begin to understand more fully the scope of this relationship and form of creation.
Peace unto you, My son, as you begin this day of creation and know that our love is with you.”
March 3, 2013 Sunday (6:00 am)
Waking up and hearing, “Write. My words will be sweet.”
Pen in hand…
“The Lord God, Jesus Christ has been…”
Last night I took Advil PM because of a root canal and abyss dental work and it is affecting the flow. I can’t seem to keep a focused mental flow; my ability keeps flowing in and out… hmmm I thought I would be able to be clear, a lesson learned and lost.
March 4, 2013 Monday (6:45 am)
I am waking and not hearing to write, but being pulled in the desire. I ask, “Lord do you want me to write?” and hear back immediately, “ I always want you to write.”
Pen in hand…
“The time is coming when the lion and the lamb will lie together which was spoken…
(I am having a hard time, it seems like the connection isn’t flowing as clear and with the ease of a couple days ago. Asking why and what do I need to do?)
“I, the Lord of God am well pleased that the desire to be with Me is present, but there are many things that are coming into focus of the interference of the desired effect. One interference is the pain of the dental work and the medication that deadened the pain; they are having an effect on the flow of information, because of the deadening effect on the receptors. Another is the caution of thinking of what is going to be spoken and your sensory attitude of the information. Your concerns and desires of wanting the information to match your ideas of what is appropriate. Your wonderings, ‘Will the information make sense? Will it be of God and not of self? Will it make you and others feel uncomfortable? Will others think that I am egocentric?’, and the questionings, concerns and issues continue. But I say unto you, that this is not about others and what they will think, but this is about the relationship between mind and heart and the relationship of heart to Heart. This is that you might come unto Me and that you might begin to trust once more. For your life has been filled with issues of non-trust and the mind has been made guardant because of your youth, but it is time to put away the things of the past and come unto Me. It is time to come unto Me with a humbled heart and a will that is focused unto Me. And in so doing, I will pour out the blessings of continuous love and in that love will be the word spoken of the heart. The mind must submit to the heart, as I have been speaking, in order for your progress and for the information to flow with more ease. Begin to continue to exercise your focus by bringing the desire from the mind and into the heart. Begin to think through your heart. Yes, My son, there are some ways to bring this into focus and to achieve your desired outcome. The way that you think or approach is important. You approach something new, that is different or what might be perceived as difficult with the same caution. One is out of caution, fear of what might be and the other is a fear of what will not be. And so how can one win the mind is causing a situation of such concern? How can one act or do with these opposing thoughts? For the mind wants to know before it acts, to be ‘safe’, to make the most ‘safe’ decisions. And I say unto you, ‘When the thinking is brought through the heart, the heart is connected to Me, and in that connection is the safety to act.’ For what would be the purpose to cause a way that is not safe for the will of God? Even now your thinking is wavering and the transmission (or process is flowing through), but if brought through the heart one would not be tossed about like a ship on storm driven waters.
Remember My son, the heart is the way/passage to Me and it is the way to receive the gifts that await. Practice, feel the difference between heart thinking and mind thinking, when the energy is pulled through the heart. As you begin to focus more and more through your heart, you will begin to be free of the uncertainty of the mind that is created by your guardant thinking. Take time and put these things in practice and you will be pleased with what will come forth, and the mind will be kneeling to the heart.”
March 5, 2013 Tuesday (5:00 am)
I am woken up and hear, “Write, the Lord is upon you.”
Pen in hand…
“The Lord is upon you that you might know that the love abounds and that His will is to be known among men, that the day shall come when all will know of the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ. That all will come unto Him and worship the marks in His hands and in His feet, that all will know of which the law cometh. But until that day cometh, the Lord God requireth the hearts of man to come unto Him in faith and understanding. That all, will be judged by the same law and thus the word of His truth must go forth among man. That the opportunity be given to all to be able to hear His call unto them. Until that day, of His coming, it is said, ‘That the Lord will fall upon the hearts of men, that they might come unto Him. And I say, ‘That the Lord God hath set His plan into motion and given the word through His holy Prophet, that the youth of the church might come unto Me and go forth in righteousness.”
(And of what I just experienced, I have been commanded/told not to write, but I am able to say that the Prophet Joseph Smith wrote about it and it is spoken of in the scriptures. But I was weak in my experience of it, because of my undisciplined mind and focus to be able to hold the experience, which is of mind and heart.)
“Of these things I speak, to hold true to the rod or word and know that in time all things will be revealed and in time all things will be held in the heart and mind. And that as you grow, so will your ability to hold and sustain that, which is given. As I have been instructing, begin to hold the mind and the heart as one, and you will grow in your strength of perception and your sustainability. Oh My son, for all will come to this place upon each and every time, that is in each and one’s growth. For it is given, as all will be given, unto those that seek Me.
Yes My son, the veil was pierced and that which was given was given at the hand of which is of Me, in Me and even all that I Am, love. You see My son, that I truly am the God of Love that you seek and that I am the Father that is willing to provide all for My children and creation. If they will only come unto Me upon bended knee and willing to take upon My will and My mercy. To bring the mind and heart as an offering, that all might be made whole. Come unto Me continually and the Heavens will be yours and the love of My heart will be the beating of your heart, for we shall be one in every way. Blessings of love and blessings of mercy are upon you and My grace has been upon you to show you such things. Peace to your mind, My son, ponder and know.”
My third eye has been so active lately and it is pulsing and active during this writing. I am filled with a love and peace. A suredness is the best description of my emotional state at this time. I give thanks to the Heavens and my Father of Love, which in His mercy has shown to me His
Love. I think I needed this experience to balance out all the writings of wrath and cleansing, to show me the balance of His desire for us, His love and compassion for all of His children. My heart is in a quiet peace and gratitude, Thank You.
March 6, 2013 Wednesday (5:30 am)
Waking up early and hear, “Write My son, write.”
“The Lord is well pleased that the ego of man is in the heart’s love, that the survival of the mind is in God’s love. (Look unto Me for the words to write and all will be well.) For the love of God is upon those that follow the word that is spoken upon the heart and the will of the one who follows the path to true freedom. For the path of God is in the heart and the path of man is of the mind, without the presence of the heart. For when the will of God is given it is through the heart and then with the mind. And this is the order of things to come for when the heart leads then the ego is in the will of the heart and the wild controls of the ego are in check or control of the heart. So, much is spoken on this, because it is the primary response or way unto Me. Remember My son, to come unto Me through the heart, focus on the heart when you begin your prayers, when you give thanks, when you come unto Me in your questionings and askings. For this is the way unto Me. You often think you are in your heart when you are still in your mind. I hear of your question, of how to come unto Me in heart? And I say unto you, that the mind will follow intention. Intend the heart, bring your energy of thinking down to the heart from the head, as you pray and receive, and then the path unto Me will be made known. Then the way unto Me will open and there, is where you will find Me.
Oh My children, this is the first and only principle that governs that which you call ego and mind. For the ego is centered in the ‘I’ and the path of the heart is centered in the ‘We’. It is through the ‘We’ that you will find My love and My purpose for the ‘I’. For have I not said, ‘To serve one another?’ Have I said, ‘To help your fellow man?’ Have I not shown the way to God? Have I not told you so that you might come unto Me through the heart? For this is the gate unto All That Is and the way unto Me. So, when I say, ‘Come unto me continually.’, is meant by this, to focus there and you will be with Me and begin to understand of which I speak. For this will keep you out of the judgments and levity of the mind that is seeking connection at other’s expense. That is continually comparing and judging others to compete for the position of the ego. To be better than them, better looking than, to be smarter than, to be stronger than, to be whatever is better. In this way you achieve, but it is in the ego’s mind and way. It is of the natural man, which is the way of the world. But I say unto you, ‘There is another way, it is the way of the heart and the way of Me.’ For it is not the competitive mind to win over others, but it is to be the best you can be for My will and My purpose. It is the way of submission and in this way the winner is still in humbleness, not puffed up in his mind, and is in this the love of self and of God. For when one is puffed up in the pride of self, it is then that the path of the heart is forgotten. So remember, that the way of the heart is still to win, but to win in Me. And when you are the best you can be, you come unto Me, with that which is given in love and it is then that the love of God is upon you and will grant that which is given. For peoples cry out unto Me from their mind’s desire without giving Me the heart and their best. Give Me your best and it is then that I will grant unto your desires. For when the desires come through the heart and is for the best for you and your growth, why would I not grant your desire? But remember to come unto Me in your heart for it is there that you will know of which I speak. And it is there that you will know of what to ask for your good. Come unto Me continually that you might be of the heart and the way be made clear unto Me.”
March 8, 2013 Friday (2:45 am)
Wake up and hear, “ Write. My son write, it will be short.”
Pen in hand…
“The Lord God is well pleased and is asking for the love of the heart of those who are willing to come unto Me in love. I am asking for the heart, those that are willing to offer the love of self unto Me. To come unto Me with a heart full of compassion, tenderness and a willingness to be filled with the word of the Lord God. For son I say unto you, ‘That the word is going forth from My lips and is falling upon those that are willing to hear with their hearts that which cometh for man to receive.’ Come unto Me and know the will that cometh with the time of day, the time of hour and the time of Spirit, know that which is and that which is to come. Bring your hearts unto Me and hear, that My love might fall upon you to know. Come unto Me and know. Rest My son, and rest in the knowledge.”
March 9, 2013 Saturday (6:30 am)
I woken up an hour before my alarm and hear, “The Lord God commands thee to write.”
Shaking off the sleep, with pen in hand… (My crown and third eye chakras are wide open with physical and strong pulsing sensations)
“The Lord God commands thee to write the will of He that has brought/spoken the word from the beginning of time until now and will continue to speak until the end of times, which is a reality of new beginnings. I call unto all peoples to ‘Come unto Me’ and to turn their hearts and minds unto the will of the Father that they might come back unto Me. For the hearts of the loved ones have wandered off unto their own choosing and have forgotten the ways of Lord God and His Son, the Creator of All Things of this world and beyond. For the time is at hand that all will be made known, that those who have fallen in disbelief will turn their hearts unto Me or perish, as the stubble is burnt off from the wheat stocks. And I cry out in vain to all peoples for they still see the world, her shiftings and her weathers, as separate from Me. And I say unto you that there is no separation in what is in her and what is in Me. For when you do one thing unto her you do it unto Me. And when the hearts are of greed for the betterment of self, it is then that My wrath is kindled and My flame of desire to cleanse that which slitherth as he that deceived man in the beginning of time. For he that continues to dwell, for this purpose to fight against the will of God of the Heavens, that he might have his pleasures made known and doth not even try to hide his intentions and deceptions, for it is he that also callth out and turns the hearts from Me, and divides the love of self and the love of God. For does not the ego of man think that it cannot be destroyed with just one wave of My hand? And just one blink of My eye and the Armies of Heaven will fall upon you with vengeances, because of their love for Me and the love of their Mother, which birthed them even in the beginning of times. For their love of the ways of God burnth brightly and their hearts are one with Me.
Yes, I can hear your ego mind, the mind of man wanting those things that have not been spoken to show proof of this of which I speak and I say unto you, what more do you need than My word and My love? Doth not My teachings of clear understanding say what is important for the world and the ears of My children to hear? Are not these words proof enough of My love for you and the children of man? For My heart weeps at the loss of love and focused heart and mind. That the children, My children, turnth from Me and My ways. For it has been this from even the beginning, that when the hearts are full of self that it is then that they turn from Me. It is then that My wrath is kindled unto a flame and it is soon that I will let My Angels have the desire of their hearts. Oh My son, do you not see My love even in My wrath? Do you not see the love in My cry even unto you? For the heart of Heaven is one and the will of the Heavens is attuned to the One who is called the Creator of All, even My son in whom you call Jesus Christ. For is not this the Son, the Son that shines above all things, is this not My right hand and is He not the love of My heart? For it is because of His love, that is My love, that the time of reckoning is not at this very moment. For He cries to the hearts of the many to find the one, as He has called out unto you. Are you not My proof that the heart of the Heavens which is one in Love? Are you not enough to prove unto yourself and the many of which I speak? For I say unto you, ‘What mystery could say what is before Me at this very time with pen attuned to My will and heart?’ For is this not proof enough? Is this not convincing enough to the mind of man, what more is needed? And I say unto you, ‘No, for this is proof enough!’ For what man would not believe if he saw from and through the eyes of belief and knowledge, but it is not that of which I seek, but it is the heart that I seek, for that is My treasure and it is that, that fills My storehouse of wealth. For what more have or give? For what more is there? And now My son, you have heard My will and My desires of My heart. And I ask you what more is there to do? What more is to be given? And I say unto you, ‘That I have your heart and it is now that I want your mind, that there is no separation from Me and as we become one heart, your will and My will shall be of one beat and of one breath. It is in that day that your reward will be felt and it is in that day you will come unto Me and say, ‘Father, why did I resist Thy will and why did I not bow with Thy word?’ And I will say unto you, ‘Because of Love.’ Because of My love to let them find Me and to search for Me, for the freedom to be of two hearts that seek to be one. For it is in the desiring that shows the love and it is in the seeking that My love is called forth. For when I hear the cries unto Me, how My heart melts unto tears of joy and the songs of the Heavens are heard in love and resounding joy. And the Angels rejoice in just the one heart that comes unto Me. Oh My children, can you not feel and know My love? For it is now that I ask and call out for your hearts, that you might not know My wrath for just as that day cometh that many will wonder, ‘Where is the love of God?’ and they will fall upon their knees out of fear and I ask you, ‘Is it not better to fall unto your knees in love?’ Oh My children come unto Me, hear My voice, which cries out for you to come unto Him. And it is in these words and deeds that you will be judged and it is then that all will be made whole. Let the truth of My word seal you to Me in love, which no man or power can break, even so My children and son, come unto Me in one heart and mind.”
March 10, 2013 Sunday (7:00 am)
I woke up earlier and heard, “I command thee to write.” And then fell back asleep. My alarm just went off and heard again, “I command thee to write.”
Pen in hand…
“I command thee to write to say unto you that all men will not receive My word and it is in those ears, that the will of he that shuts off his heart and mind to My ways, that will perish. For those that mock Me are to be made as stubble, useless and left for the summer fire that burns off that which is left. But those that hear My word and the words that serve Me will be as a grain that is cast upon the earth for seed. For in that which is cast, some will prosper and take root and some wither and die out. Oh My children, hear My words and come unto Me that I might bless you in the ways of the Lord and that I might spare that which is soon upon you. For even in that day people will come unto Me and then will their hearts soften in the face of that which is upon them. Oh peoples of the Earth, listen to the words of My servants and save that which needs to be saved in the mighty winds that cometh unto you. It is not the things of the Earth, but is the things of Me; bring Me your heart that needs to be gathered unto your arms, in your efforts to save yourself. For those that hear My words and bring forth their heart unto Me, I say unto you, ‘That it is in that day that the Angels of Heaven will call upon Me and it is in their word and His name, even Jesus, that the hand of God will not smite thee. ‘Oh that My children would come unto Me and prepare their hearts, that they will hear upon their heart that which is for their good and the good of their loved ones.
And it is for this cause that you share with those around you with open hearts might hear and come unto Me. My son, it is with those that you share that might mock your words and not soften will be sorely sorry when the heart is not prepared for what is to come. And it is in that day they will cry out unto Me for forgiveness, and My sorrow will be their sorrow. And in that day the word will be at a door of an empty house. For why would one harden the heart, not to hear that which is good for their soul? And I say unto you,‘That even those that count themselves among Me will not listen, for in their love of self and the things of their world. Oh My son, you will need to be strong in your love to suffer these things, even as I. For the love of Me will see you through unto the end, that you might endure all things that is put upon you and to bear the weight of those that cast upon you their disbelief. My son, keep your heart upon Me and My ways and you will hear My voice and know that which is to share and that which is of My will. Come unto Me and be of good cheer, that your heart is with Me and that you will see Me in that day.”
March 11, 2013 Monday (morning)
Just waking up on my day off and upon waking hear, “I will show you the world of men.”
Pen in hand…
“Yes My son, I will show you that which man cannot see that has been hidden from the beginning until now, that which is only revealed upon those that are upon the path of excellence and All That Is. It is the keystone of life and it is the foundation principle of the world and in it is the beginning and the end. It is in this that all was created and all will be destroyed. And it is in this that I will come, for he that receiveth this gift of love, is in the heart of God. For from the beginning of time it has been of great worth unto those that are seeking Me and those that have found Me and in it I dwell with them. Yes, I can feel your anticipation and concern, but mostly I can feel more strength in your trust; for the only fear that is present, is that of if you will be able to perceive it. And I say unto you, ‘That is the concern of most who come unto Me and become of this place.’ So what I will show you will be given to show the love and mercy of He that has and creates all things. Know… your concerns are growing and I say unto you, ‘Believe upon My word and you will know of which I speak and I say unto you, receive’…
A blessing and vision recieved.
…bearing My word unto all peoples of the Earth that it will be known unto all peoples that I cometh and that I am the Lord of All Creation. Oh peoples, hear My word that you might understand the call which is before you, that your hearts might become My heart and that the truth of the beginning until the end might be known unto you. The Heavens will open and reveal that which is coming and that which will be. The Lord God of All Creation has humbled the hearts of men to accept that which seems to the world unacceptable, but I say unto you that the world must come once more into the heart and hear My word that the truth might be known of that which will be and that which is coming that they might be as one unto Me. For when the lion and the lamb lie together it is because the law has been fulfilled and the reign of peace will begin. That all will come unto Me and know the love that abounds in all the Heavens and the Earth, that the world might be saved from that which destroyth other worlds, that this progression principle might be one in Me. Trust My son, the writing is coming forth but you are moving into fear of what is being said, because of your fear of it not being understood. You want the mysteries, but then fear them. Why then do you ask when the heart is not ready? Why do you come unto Me in understanding and not hear My words? Oh ye of little faith, why would I tell that which is not to be heard? Come unto Me in love and you will receive love, come unto Me in understanding and you will receive understanding. But My patience is long in My love and the words are upon you today or tomorrow. So come unto Me that I might bless you and that you might hear that which is spoken. Yes, you can feel the energy center of the crown and forehead or third eye, as it has been named, and they are active with My word and understanding. Come unto Me that all might be revealed and that My word is heard upon your heart, for it is then that the love of God will surely be yours. Come unto Me and know.”
March 13, 2013 (Wednesday am)
“I will speak, if you write.”
“In answer to your prayers of what to speak unto My servants and I say unto you, you know of your heart, speak your heart and you will speak of Me. And as you share I will bear witness of thy word and My Spirit will fall upon them and they will know that you come in My name. Let your mind be at ease and let your heart rejoice in the joy of the Heavens, that our brother and son cometh once more unto us. ‘Let your word be My word and My word will be thy word,’ saith the Lord God of love. Now be of cheer and know that I am with thee. Your gratitude is heard and felt. Blessings My son blessings.”
Continued, later in the day…
I Just came home from the High Council meeting and I have officially been welcomed back into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. So, it is now an official green light to be baptized. My body feels like a ton of bricks have been lifted off of me. That part of the process, which was the most intimidating for me, and now it is behind me. I am so grateful to the Heavens for it was truly a loving experience. My Stake President handled it in the most loving attitude and displayed the leadership of a true servant of the Lord.
In fact, the earlier writing of this day was in response to my concerns of speaking to the gathered High Council. In this meeting, I was to petition these leaders that are called to lead and serve over several congregations, that comprise a Stake. As I officially left the Church nearly thirty years ago it is now that I was required to present myself formally and request reentrance through being baptized again. I have shared this process with some and they could not understand why men would be given such power over a relationship, between myself and God. I know and have experienced that my relationship with God is not governed by man. But I do know that God is a God of order, as you can experience as you look at the stars in the evening sky. And so this is my beginning lessons of submission and obedience. The same lesson, that John the Baptist cried, of repentance, to return home. As I shared my words with these twelve men I felt a love as I told of my life and the new witness that I have of Jesus Christ. I could feel the energy in the room lift and as they gave me the vote of return, there was an energy of such love and public acceptance, as I have never received. There were tears shared by them and by me and I felt truly welcomed with open arms for who I was, a prodigal son.
March 14, 2013 Thursday (3:30 am)
I fell asleep while reading with all the lights on, and have been laying here offering prayers of thanksgiving and pondering the events of the High Council meeting. With feelings of love and gratitude for my Bishop and Stake President, and thinking of how the event went and as I was doing so, I heard a soft, “Write.” It was not as strong as when I immediately wake up, so I questioned again and heard, “ The love that is felt.” and hear again, “Write.”
“The Love that is felt is of God and the expression of love in the meeting was of Me. And as I had spoken, I fell upon their hearts and bore witness to that which they felt, and it is of Me that the love was carried forth. For it has been My hand from the beginning until now, that has set you upon your feet and poured the love of the Heavens into you and it has been My will to bring you to this day, that you might humble yourself before Me and offer yourself before My servants. For it is the way that they might bear testimony of thee, that the doors of All That Is might be opened unto thee. That the will of the Heavens might be made known and that the floodgates of the Heavens might begin to be opened unto you. For this next step will begin the outpouring of that which is for you and My love will be not withheld, and completely fall upon you in complete love and with a fullness that few have known. Your abundance will be made whole. And you will now begin to serve Me completely with your house not divided. There will be one Master and one will. And in that day that you come unto Me completely, My love will fall upon you and you will know that I am well pleased. For it was within My mind from the beginning that this would be your choice and your way that you would come unto Me. That your heart would be one with Me and in so doing I cannot withhold that which is Mine and you will be one in all that I have.
Even so My son, Let the heart cleave unto Me and let thy thoughts be unto Me, and I will continue to guide you in love and understanding. That you will be My voice and servant and that your words will be My words that you might be an influence and witness of love, of Me and upon doing My bidding, I will give you inheritance to all that I have and there shall be no thing that shall not be yours. Come unto Me and know of My love, come unto Me and dwell in My heart, and feel the love of the Father that knows your heart and it is that which I know that will bring you unto Me. Peace My son, rest and know that My heart is upon you. Rest in Me.”
March 15, 2013 Friday (4:15 am)
I woke up in a cloudy state of mind and slow to hear, “Write.” Slow to respond and question, and hear again, “Yes, write.” Again slow to respond… in an apologetic state.
Pen in hand…
“The Lord God is well pleased with the attitude of those that served at the High Council. For their minds are pondering the words and experiences of the one before Me and it was well that you spoke with frankness and a state of assuredness. For it has caused their hearts to turn unto Me and for their minds to question. For when the mind and heart question then the state of openness is available to receive My word and My witness. Oh My children, it is not My desire to prejudice, but it is My desire for love and obedience. For how can I say unto one generation, ‘Yes’ and unto one generation, ‘No.’ For it is My will to be a fair and just God and to be a God that hears the will and love of His children. But I say unto you that the time is not here and ready for the desires of change, but the love is extended and a place of refuge is offered for those who come unto Me in any state of mind that is troubled and in need of comfort and rest. For I say unto you that it is in a troubled mind and heart that you will find the ability to open unto love for if the unease was not present then the state of openness and receptivity would not exist for My love and comfort to be felt. For yes son, I can hear your many questions and your desires around this matter of sexual desire. And I say unto you, ‘That as My heart is with you, it is not My will, for that which has been the standard and law from the beginning until now.’ For I am a God of consistency and order. And just because of the desire for change does not always warrant the law to change, because of the whim of desire. For one must look at the whole and one must look forward and back at the residual of change. For it is not a matter of love, but a matter of judgment and outcome. For if I change one law to provide desire for one and then changed another law for the desire of another, how would the order of existence continue and how would I be called a fair and just God? For it is not My will to cause pain and suffering, but it is My will to let the existence of life take a course and to help the one on that course to come unto love. For in all circumstances if one will come unto Me with a heart turned unto Me, it is then I will turn unto them and it is then that I will exceed the expectations of the one with an outpouring of love that will bring the blessings of change, change of the heart and change of the mind that will give the peace of both that is needed to be of one heart and one mind. For when there is no divide then the soul can rest in love and understanding. You question and press for understanding and I say unto you, that the mind is not willing or ready to hear what I have to say in regards to this understanding. So it will remain a matter of faith and fortitude. For the will of God is not obliged to show all mystery and it is My will for you to trust and in time all things will be made whole. Yes My son, let the mind be quieted and let the love stream through you in a state of trust. Trust in My wisdom and trust in My love. Let your heart and mind know that My back is not turned, but even as I called unto you it was in a state of love. For were you not living under the law, but not in compliance to the law? Were you not desiring My love and were you not desiring Me? Oh My son, it is because of this desire that My love for you has brought you to this place and to this desire to return and to come unto Me. For it is in this state that I can offer you all that I have, if you come under the law and trust in My wisdom and counsel. For My son, the mind is having a hard time not to press the issue of understanding and I say unto you, this is for now a matter of trust and it is in this trust that you will find My love of comfort. Be strong My son and return to rest and let My love wash your troubled mind with love.”
March 16, 2013 Saturday (5:35 am)
Again, I wake and hear, “Yes, I would like you to write.” I’m exhausted, but am always willing. As I ask, “May I have a clear mind Father.” And hear an immediate reply, “I am with thee.”
Pen in hand…
“I, Lord God, am pleased that the souls of those whom call you to them, are of a questioning mind. Yes, those of the High Council and of the range of influence will be reaching out to you. Yes, I am speaking from that which will be and that which I know, from My knowledge of what is. For in My holy state of existence My knowledge holds the existence of all things and of all times, it is a fullness of All That Is. My son, in time you too will know of this fullness upon the path of excellence that you are now upon. Cleave to Me and My word and the fullness of all will be given to you and in that fullness is the knowledge of all things that have, does, and will exist. Yes, My son you always have choice upon this plane of physical, but it is of this knowledge that I know of your choosings. In time My son, precept and principle upon precept and all will be added unto you. Oh My son, that you may and will know My joy and My love that radiates out from My holy place, that was shown unto you, that you might know that which sustains all creation and is the breath of life in all forms and of all intelligence. Yes, for everything physical and nonphysical is of intelligence and in My time you will begin to see and know as I even see and know. Rest My son and know that I am well pleased upon this course and am well pleased upon your continued progress, that you are striving to make the changes necessary to accomplish that which is before you. For as you know, your realm of influence will be great and it is upon your return to Me, and just in that action alone will have a rippling of energy and affect that will be a force of change for many. The love of God floweth forth and in that love is the continuation of all. Love Me, as I even love you and in that love is that which you seek, nothing more and nothing less, the All That Is. Even so My son, I Am.”
(Continued in the pm)
I fell asleep while reading and was in a deep sleep As I was waking up very foggy and hear, “Write.”
I am still very foggy, but with the pen in my hand …
“The Lord God is very pleased with the letter and the … (My mind is struggling with focus and I am still falling asleep.)
“Take three deep breaths to help clear the mind.”
“Yes My son, welcome back…
I am pleased that the heart was made manifest through the letter to you that you might see through the words, as others see you. (I keep falling asleep, I am so sorry Father.) My son the body is exhausted but the heart is willing, rest and we will speak after the body is rested.”
(Still falling asleep)
Feeling some guilt, a little more awake now, let me ask…
“The timing is always at hand to share with you, that which is to be spoken and the words to be written. For I am well pleased with all hearts that have turned unto Me. For as I was speaking of others, but it is now that I speak of you. I am pleased that thou has kept thy commitment to Me and your heart is turned to Me, even in your exhaustion. For it would have been very easy to say, ‘But my Father said to rest and to go back into your slumber.’ But I have grown in strength in your heart and it is in this strength that you will be blessed. For it is in this type of strength that will bring forth that which cannot be kept from thee, that the blessings will flow abundantly of the pure grit of will. So My son, know that the hearts of My council are still turned and the words of the Lord God are being heard and the servants will now serve in their desire to come unto Me. Another testimony of that which was spoken; that when you speak, I will speak and it is in this way, the word of My will. So rest My son and know that I am with you, even so.”
This writing was in response to a letter that I received several days after my visit with the High Council. In this letter, the High Councilmen, shared that he could not sleep all night thinking of my words to them. A further witness of the wisdom of the Heavens!
March 17, 2013 Sunday ( am)
Going to get ready for church and hear, “Write.” I question and hear, “Yes, write.”
Pen in hand…
“The time is at hand when you will begin to feel and sense that which will begin to come forth from the Heavens in a new way, a way in which is different from the way of the past, a way that is more refined in nature. I will begin in your heart and radiate out to then be sensed in your body. We will begin to use this new course so that you will be able to know with a surety of our connection. For you will need this as time draws near when your communication to us will be more vital to yourself and others around you. Remember to use your sense and begin to trust that which you know. Go forth My son and know that the Heavens will be upon you with your actions and feelings/sensing. Peace to you, as you raise your thoughts to Us this day.”
March 25, 2013 Monday (4:30am)
I wake up and hear “Write”. Shaking off a deep sleep and having some concern because of my baptism is just a few days away and I can feel a sore throat and feel like I am … changing my words and applying my recent readings of Joel Osteen and declaring my health in the Lord!
“Write.” Pen now ready…
“My beloved son, the time is at hand to learn the way to My heart is through the thoughts and thinking of those that have been with Me …”Breathe”…” Your mind is unfocused and wandering because of your fear and a feeling of expectancy.” I’m very confused because I have been tired in the past and still have been able to focus and move through it, but this morning my drifting and wandering is without any control or discipline. Even now I am drifting off into dream-like states and cannot focus. “Calm yourself, put the pen down and breathe.”
March 27, 2013 Wednesday (5:55 am)
Waking out of a deep sleep and hear, “Write My son, write.” I respond, “ I love my sleep and bed, but I love You more!”
Pen in hand…
“I the Lord God of All Creation, am well pleased. That the light of man has been in the hearts of those that seek Him and that the love of the Heavens is upon thee. I bid thee to write, that the love and the promise might be fulfilled, that you might come to know that which is, that which is a knowledge for some. That you might know the keys of the kingdom. My blessing and grace are upon thee to receive the keys of baptism and My Gift, unto all whom take upon them My name and My glory, that you might have My guidance at all times and in all ways, that you might know the mind of God. That as you come unto Me in mighty prayer and supplication that you might know with a surety that the mind and heart of the Lord are upon you and that the honor of the grace of God might be heard. For it is through this gift that I have directed My people from the beginning of this dispensation that they might know of which I speak, that they might know My will and My mind, and it is through this act that they will feel My love. For if the love of God falls upon them, it is then that we are one and it is then that we are one in mind, body and love and in that holy union all will be made known unto you, that you might bear witness of that which is and that which is to come. That the word of God be heard and a witness be in the hearts of those that hear. Oh My son, remember to stay close to Me, wander not with your heart and mind; continue to supplicate thyself that you might truly know that which the Lord God commandeth of thee and thy will. Know these things that the love of Him that is from the beginning might be upon you and that His grace might be thy peace. Ponder and know of that which is spoken and you will know My love and the heart will overflow with joy, and the Heavens rejoice in your delight. Come unto Me.”
March 28, 2013 Thursday (6:00 am)
Waking to my alarm and hear, “Write.” I question and hear, “Yes write.”
Pen in hand…
“The time is at hand when the truth of that which is known will come forth for all to hear and that which is known of the heart revealed so that the wisdom of He, who reigns, will come forth to create a new way for the truth to come forth, even that which was known in the beginning of times and that which was taken from the earth in sacredness. Yes My son, this sounds like a mystery but to those that know this key of wisdom, know of its understanding and know of its worth. For in this key of wisdom is the knowledge of creation and unlocking the wisdom and understanding of manifestation. For have I not marked your heart and is this mark not a key? For as you begin to understand this knowledge, you will begin to understand Me and in this is the wisdom of the ages. Ponder the key that is more than a symbol and you will hear My teaching of this truth, which will come precept upon precept unto full understanding. And in that day of understanding, you will know of which I speak and you will know that this knowledge is of Me. But as of now, ponder and know that I am upon you and that the wisdom is within Me that this key be upon you. Go forth into this day with My love and blessings.”
Thank You to the Heavens for Your truth and faith, I pray that I might be worthy of such trust. Thank You.
March 29, 2013 Friday (7:30 am)
Waking naturally, after having a good night sleep. Upon waking I begin to ask, “Father is there anything you would like of me, to help prepare me for tomorrow, my baptism.”
I hear, “Write.” I question to make sure that it is not coming from my own desire and I hear again, “Write and I will talk to thee.”
Pen now ready…
“I, the Lord of All Creation, have come to speak with thee concerning this day and that day of which is of Me. I am well pleased that My servant is asking of what to prepare and of what to do. And I say unto you, stay close to Me in thought and deed, as you scurry about and do your bidding to make special that day. Think of Me in your doing, ponder the power of My atonement, think of the ways your life will change and has changed. Think upon those things in your heart and I will be with thee to bear witness of the truths to be witnessed and known. Ask and you shall receive in My name. Did you not ask for the weather to circle your event and did not the forecast change to rain before and after? Why doubt your word and why doubt My power?
Oh My son, can you not see that I am upon thee and can you not know that when your heart is in My heart and My heart in thine, that our will, will become one and that power over all things is in your bidding, if it is for the good of self and others. For why and how could you be in My heart and your desires not be pure? Know My son, that the way before you is made clear for your righteous desires and know that I am upon thee. And now My son, concerning the intentions of this day, again stay close to Me and know that all is well in your preparations and when you work, work for Me. When you play, play for Me. When you laugh, laugh for Me and know that I am with thee and for thee. And remember that the perfection is for the self and not in the event. The heart unto Me is perfect, the will that is Mine is perfect, and the words and thoughts unto Me are perfect. Therefore, what more is needed? But let your desires be of Me and I will come unto you, even as you have come unto Me. Oh My son, can you not see how perfect the way before you, as you think of what was and what is! Can you not see My love for you and can you not feel of the love of the Heavens? For what joy in the day that you manifest your love, unto the waters of baptism and as you are taken under, your will is relinquished to My will and you willingly give yourself unto Me and in so doing you once more take upon thee My name and become one in Me. Can you not see the power and love in this very act of love? Can you see the love in this, My ordinance, and know that even as you come forth that the ways of the past are released unto what was and you become whole unto what is, and am I not All That Is? Am I not the Beginning and the End, the Alpha and Omega, Lord of All Creation and your Brother, Father and Friend? Know My son, that I am with thee and My love is upon thee in this very act and in this you will receive the Fire that is My gift for the submission and offering of self. For even as I offered Myself for you and now you offer yourself this day, that day unto… and in so doing your reward will be the Gift of Fire, the Gift of Love that will burn within thee and guide thee and let you know of that which is. Oh My son, can you not feel of Our love? For what is greater than this day? What is greater than your act of submission unto All That Is? And in this the love will burn within as never before and your heart will carry My love. Come unto Me and I will come unto you, as you ponder and think of what was and what is. Do in My name this day and I will do unto you in that day. Peace My son, peace.”
March 31, 3013 Sunday (6:45 am)
Just woke to my alarm and heard, “Write.” … “Yes My son, write.”
Pen in hand and waiting…
“Yes My son, I am well pleased in the act of ordinance, the ordinance of water, and I sent upon thee the Fire of Love and in Him you will find the peace of mind and heart. For no longer do you ask and hope, for now it is your right to receive, it is your duty to receive and it is your honor to receive, which is promised. For in the naming of the act by My power and priesthood, it is now given upon you to ask and receive, for with this gift you will be given the right of revelation, the right of knowledge and the right of wisdom. Yes, knowledge in action. My son not only know but act, use your wisdom, use this gift and use your will. Ask and it will be given. Use your voice. Use your voice with a spoken confidence and be not afraid to ask with authority, in the love of God and in the name of My Beloved and you will receive that which has been promised, receive the love of the Heavens. Yes My son, you will feel the way of knowledge through the heart and in this witness you will feel as you have, through the sensations of wisdom in the forehead and crown, and with the warmth that radiates. Remember My son, the heart is the center of receiving, not the mind. Remember, to come into your heart and then you will come unto Me in the wisdom of love and in the action of God. Use your will to act, for you may act with confidence and in the name of love and His holy name. You are wondering the difference of taking action of love and asking in My name and in My priesthood. And I say unto you, that in asking in My name you are using your wisdom of love, but in using My priesthood you are sealing the powers of Heaven and Earth. You are speaking in the power of God and in that power is the authority to command the armies of Heaven, the Angels of Mercy and the Angels of Fire. For when you use this power it is in the words that create the bond of power and in this bond, all Heaven and Earth are subject. Fear not My son of this power, for in this is a safeguard and those that use the power in wisdom it will be blessed and manifested, but those that use it unknowingly and not in wisdom will wonder of what will come and those that abuse the will of God and use the power in arrogance and pride will know the fire not of love, but of My wrath, and the Heavens will fall upon them and they will not realize My favor, but My wrath. So son, use this time wisely, learn to ask and learn to obey, learn to speak and learn to listen, learn to love and in your loving you will find Me. And in finding Me you will find the strength and peace that is yours, upon this path. Oh My son, can you not see My love and wisdom? Can you not see the love of the Heavens made manifest in you. Ponder these things and listen with your heart and you will know of a surety of this new Gift of Love. Seek me in this and I will send forth the wisdom and clarity that you seek.”
April 3, 2013 Wednesday (5:40 am)
Woken up before my alarm and told to, “Write.” Yes, Father I desire to write for Thee…
“My son, My son the time cometh when the mind of man will be needed to be the mind of God, when all things will be of Him and for Him, when Heaven and Earth will be one. And in that day the mind of man that is crafty and cunning will be no more. The mind that is seeking the wealth of the world will be no more. For in that day all will be provided and in that day the law of mercy will be and will show the love of God. For all will exist as under a cloud of peace and the rain that fallth will be the good of all and the Earth will be fed as her hungry soul soaks in that which she is needing and in this day of peace will be much learning and instruction, that all of man might know the ways of truth and understanding. For in this day, the jaws of he who has deceived My children will be bound and there will be no contentions and buffetings of greed and there will be no want or need left for desire. And when that day cometh the love of God will be the breath of the air and all will rejoice and rest. Much praise and thanksgiving will be offered up unto the Father and all will know of that which has been hidden and veiled from the mind of man.
You are wondering for what purpose and what cause and duty this reign of peace? And I say unto you that it will be like a small heaven without the glory and without the permanency. For in this peace will be a time for all to rest and receive that which all have long awaited, the administering of angels and the learning of God. For just as that day cometh, so cometh the day of much turmoil and strife in which he that fighth against Me will push with all of his might to bring down the will of God. For just as he will push with all of his might, the Heavens will stand alongside those buffetings and the true battle of wills will be fought with much force and he that standeth against the forces of evil will be counted among those that are victorious and the rest of all will be welcomed as this day of peace reigns. So My son, you wonder why this concerns you? Because the mind of man must merge with the heart and both must be one, even as the husband and wife cleave unto one another, so the heart and mind must cleave to be one. What this means to you is that the strivings of the mind must submit to the heart. For the heart carries the will and love of God, but the mind is as a wild horse that has run free and has done his bidding. But the time has come to listen to the whispers of the Master and let the wild one know the love and will of He that commands. And as the will of the wild one is given over to the will of the Master, the wild one will become one, as the wild one feels the loving whisper and touch, and trusts the loving hand that provideth the grace of fortune and betterment. For as the wild one roamed and wandered looking for the daily need, it is now in the care of the Master where all needs are provided. Therefore the only will that is needed is the will to be one, and to serve the will of the Master. And in that day that all desire is unto the Master, it is then that what was the wild one will be called the son of peace, even as if he were his Master. And in that day the joy of All That Is will pour forth and the will, will be open to receive the reward of love. But until that day strive to be one, strive to bring the mind unto the heart and strive to bring the mind unto Me.
You ask how? And I say unto you line upon line and deed upon deed, as you inch forth with determination you will see over time great changes in the mind of self. Love the wild one, whisper to it, caress it, let it know of your wants and let it know of your trust. And when the love is felt it is then that the willingness to submit is desired. But it is only in that day that the love is brought unto the mind in great measure that the mind will begin to give up the desire to provide and then will begin to move into rest and peace. Ponder these things, experiment with these things and more will be added upon you with will and technique. Ponder, My son ponder.”
April 5, 2013 Friday (6:30 am)
I was woken up from a deep sleep after getting to bed after 1:30 am and hear, “Oh My son, write.”
“Oh My son, I am well pleased with your desire of your heart. To share the witness that burns in your bosom, and is a witness of that which thou has been made aware, as your heart is in My heart. Yes My son, you still have a ways to go to completely come unto Me, to have a singleness of both heart and mind. For that which has been your past still lingers in your present and he that fights against Me uses his buffetings to make it more difficult, to come unto Me completely. But worry not My son, for I know your heart and in time your mind and heart will be one unto Me and your buffetings will become as folly, and your desire to be of Me will outweigh any desires or thoughts of the past. Yes My son, continue to make great efforts to train the mind to new ways and be forgiving with yourself even as I am forgiving of thee. Oh My son, even as My Spirit of Witness is upon you sharing the light of love for your fellow man, let that love continue to burn and grow in it’s brightness and desire and you will soon be ready to have the desire that is of Me, to be a witness of Me and all that has come before you. That you might bear a witness of love, that when the children of men hear your words they will know that they are of Me, and their hearts will fill with joy that comes when the truth of the Heavens is known.
For even as you desire to share unto others, it is in their hearts that My Spirit is even now preparing them to hear and in that hearing you will bring them unto My call and you will be My words unto them, even as My Joseph was My words unto you. Fear not My son, fear not your doubtings of confidence and fear not your understandings of that which has been written, for have I not even come unto you with clear understanding and not even a verse was heard? But My Spirit hath prepared your heart, even as it goeth forth before you now. Be not afraid of the minds of others for some will think strange things of you and will question your motives and desires, but oh My son, when you flow with My words the sound of your voice will be as clear and plain as a tinkling bell in the midst of a storm. The sound will be clear, pure and strange to the mind of others, for how can something so small be heard with such purity in a mighty wind? And even when they question you, be strong and do not let the sounds of their minds detour the desire of that which is of Me.
Yes My son, breathe and bring your focus from your distractions back unto Me and the pen…
Yes, you are back, see the ease of intention? See how you can direct and control the mind, it is all about desire, intention and desired focus. Oh My son, how My love flows forth to you, that you might know of/with a clear understanding the desire of My heart which is of love. That even as My love cometh unto you that you might carry that same love unto your brothers and sisters. That they also might hear My call and turn unto Me once more.
Oh My children, come unto Me that I might send forth the Angels to administer to your needs, that the beauty and abundance of the Heavens might flow forth unto you. That even as My love is for you that you might open your hearts and minds and let that which flows so freely into you once more. That you might soften your hurts (Yes, hurts) and let that which was shed for you back into your lives once more. That the law might bow unto love and that the law might know the pureness of heart that causes the knee to bend once more. For I know of your pains and I know of your wounds and I know how you act them out, but still I come unto you in love that you might return to Me. Even as he who bears witness has come unto Me.
Oh My son, let your voice be heard and be not afraid of the judgments of men and your joy and their joy will be great. Let this My Spirit of Light and Truth be your guide and in that you will know and be directed. As I have counseled, it is now your right. So use it wisely and with the confidence of your calling. Oh My son, your joy is My joy and soon you will know that My joy is your heart. Let this be yours and you shall not want, even so I have spoken this promise unto you.”
April 6, 2013 Saturday (7:10 am)
“Write.” … “History is repeating…”
Pen in hand and waiting…
“Oh My son, the same that has been is coming once more, when man and Heaven will be as one and in that day the children of man will come unto Me and the will of the Father will be amongst all peoples and the Lord God will reign. The cause for to write these things is that one must prepare to receive before that day cometh. For before that day there will be many calamities and in that hour, which no man knoweth, the Earth will shake and the oceans will rise and all manner of destruction will befall My people. But those who are of one heart, and know the will of the Father will know where to turn, where to hide and where to run to receive the blessings of the Angels that cometh. For as they release the powers of Heaven, even so they will have the power to save. As one man may stand, the same will be that one man fallth. And in that day one must be ready to receive the will of the Lord of Heaven in the heart. That as the will is spoken to the heart some will question and wonder and not trust themselves and the message to their heart and in that questioning will be the moment of life and death. Even so these things are spoken not to put fear into you, but to say,’ Today is the day to prepare for that which is to come. Today is the day to begin to listen to your hearts, to listen and to know the will of the Heavens’.
Yes, I hear your questionings as to how one might begin to listen to the will of the Heavens in the heart? And I say unto you,’That it is through that which has been given, My Messenger of Spirit and Love, through He that speaketh My word that man might knoweth all things, that part of Me that serves all of man, that you know as the Holy Spirit of God.’ And I say unto you, ‘That as you begin to tune out the things of the world, it is then that you can tune unto Him.’ When one begins to come unto Me continually with a heart single unto Me, it is then that the Spirit of Truth can dwell in your heart. And it is then that the mind will be prepared sufficiently enough to be quieted enough to hear that which the heart speaketh. Some say that these words are figurative or a metaphor and I say unto you, ‘Nay’, that these are not words of a story, but the words of truth. That you must be attuned to the heart, listen through the heart and it is in that hearing that the mind will perceive that which is spoken to the heart. The mind questions in the ‘how’ because man operates primarily from the mind. And I say unto you, ‘Bring forth your thinkings from the heart, bring forth your focus to the heart, for prepare and discipline the mind to kneel to the heart. For in that day that cometh, the heart will be your guide and as the heart leads even then the will of the Lord God will lead you to that which is to be known for your safety and the safety of your loved ones. For all must come unto Me and be of one heart that the will, will be heard.”
April 8, 2013 Monday (10:15 pm)
I’m hearing to, “Write.” I question and hear again, “Yes, write”
“Oh My son, the hosts of Heaven pour out the blessings of songs of praise and joy upon the requests of the multitudes of gatherings that convened this conference gathering. For My children gathered unto themselves around the Earth and upon every land, that they might come unto Me and in this intention I have let the floodgates of Heaven pour forth the blessings of love and upon every heart that cometh unto Me. I cry out unto them, ‘Oh children, oh children hear My words of love and offer up your hearts unto Me, as the offerings of old. And let thy bosom be filled with the love of God. That I might send forth mine messenger and that He might dwell within thee and bear witness of all things spoken of My servants. And I say unto you, ‘That when My Spirit is upon My servants it is the same as if My very lips have spoken.’ And I say unto you, receive My joy and know the peace that is of Me, that you might be one in Me. As I am one with My Son, and one with all those that seek Me in humility. Oh My son, did your bosom not even burn as you heard My servant and son, whom I have called to lead My people. For did not your bosom burn and did not your body experience the witness of Spirit? Oh yes My son, your heart was full and the waters of Spirit poured forth with these glad tidings of love. For let your heart hear My words and call unto your mind to follow. For one cannot lead without the other, for when the mind is present there also goes the heart. Oh My children let your hearts be full of great joy as you come unto Me. For let your hearts sing a praise of joy and in that praise shall My gift be unto you. Oh My son, remember these things that I have spoken that the witness might be complete and it is upon these witnesses that all will be judged. So come unto Me that My Messenger might seek thee out and say,’ For behold, do you not know, do you not feel my message of love and my witness of the Father?’ And now I say unto you, ‘Behold My love and in that is the witness of He (Jesus Christ) that reigns of the Father.’ Witness these things and know of which I speak. And so My son upon these witnesses that fall upon My children shall bring much joy and thanksgiving in their hearts and minds, as they turn unto Me. Even so the floodgates of Heaven wash over them and you, receive.”
April 9, 2013 Tuesday (6:18 am)
I was praying and heard, “Oh My son, write.”
Pen now waiting …
“Oh My son, I say unto you that in thy desire is thy will and in thy will is all answers and all knowledge that pertains to those things before you. Come unto Me, in humble and mighty prayer with a heart asking and how can My love be withheld? How can My mind turn not to thee in loving grace and how can My favor not fall upon thee? For in the love and asking is all that you seek. For all that you seek is already. Yes, this sounds like a mystery to the mind of man, but it is the nature of God. For that which you seek already is, then one must realize this truth and the one must claim that which is, even as you have been reading, even as you have been asking, ‘ If speaking with determination and declaration is an offense unto Me?’ And I say unto thee that it is an honor to see My children know who they are. To know their value and then with a heart tuned unto Me in a state of love and humility, then to hear the words of fortitude, strength and honor to declare and claim even who and what is. Claim thy strength, claim thy victory and claim thy blessings in love and His holy name and how cannot the Heaven’s withstand thy words? How cannot the floodgates to All That Is not be opened unto thee in thy declaration and honor? You continue to question the word ‘honor’, for it is new to you because of your past has not been filled with self worth, but when the self is valued, when the eyes are awakened and truly sees light and truth, it is then that value and honor are seen with clear understanding. Remember, this is not a pride of the puffed up self, but a true understanding of self, a clear understanding and knowledge of the heart. That things are seen as they are. And it is in this clear witness of what is, for if it already is and exists, why not claim it as is your right and honor. For when the heart and mind are one with Me why would you not claim what is already yours? As you can see there is no need to withhold, for the safeguard is in the oneness of the heart. Be of one heart, be of Me and All That Is will be yours and is yours. Yes, that is the key of all the doors of all that seek, is to come unto Me, All That Is. For how can I withhold My love and understanding from he who is at My door seeking? Seek ye in love and all understanding is yours. Peace to you My son. Peace unto you, now.”
“Oh My son, I am well pleased, for even in your buffetings you still be.”
April 15, 2013 Monday (7:15 am)
I’m waking up in a state of grogginess, because of pain medication for my sciatica, and hear, “Oh My son write.”
I breathe into my heart…
“Oh My son, the time is coming to prepare for that which is to come. For the children of men will need to know of which I speak and in these words are the foundational truths of All That Is. For in these truths is that which laid the foundations of this world. For he that knows them, knows of Me. And he that uses them knows of My word. It is as simple and as complex as one wishes to perceive. The first of this foundational knowledge is in the word, love; for if you know love, you know Me. Love is the basis of all, within this element is the foundation codes of all creation.
Love is not just a feeling, it is a force of energy that gives life to all creation. …Trust My son trust… follow Me and I will show you the way to your freedom, that is so very important to you. Yes, love is the foundation of all and it is in the life force that flows freely as the energy that you call light. For in light is the element of creation; within the light of love is the elemental knowledge of everything that is. You keep imaging in your mind the experience that was given to you from Me of My world and the energy flowing forth. Yes, the light of love that giveth life unto all worlds that sustain life. For many worlds without number exist on many planes of vibrational reality, which man has not yet learned to perceive. You ask why I give such knowledge to you? Because you are a seeker of truth. For is not this quality what brought you to Me? I give this unto you because when you begin to understand the basic fundamental truths, then you begin to understand all of creation. So My son, the light of love is the first building block of creation and upon this all else rests. Ponder this element and you will discover more and the depth, even within this one truth. Ponder, My son ponder.”
April 17, 2013 Wednesday (1:05 am)
Turning off the lights after falling asleep reading and hear, “ Write and I will bless thee.”
Pen now ready…
“Write and I will bless thee saith the Lord God of All Creation, and with that promise are My words unto you that even as the Lord hath promised unto thee, that thy seeking My word is now in your heart as you have come unto Me, your heart is now of Me and I am now of thee. Continue to write and I will bless thee, for I the Lord of All Creation have spoken so and thus shall it be. The words of light and love are continued, as you begin to understand the principles of all creation. For when one understands these principles, then and only then is the truth free to be used and applied with understanding. Remember My son, when much is given much is expected in return. So come unto Me continually that you might remain in My favor and as I turn to thee in favor, My blessings flow abundantly unto you. Oh My son, seek Me as you come unto Me, and in thy desires of thy heart are the answers already. For do you not think that you who are of Me are not already programmed with the codes of success and do you not know that you are the past, present and future at this very moment and in this very moment, that is the definition of All That Is, is this not of thee and in thee as we speak. The mystery is in this very moment and the mysteries are only for those with eyes and hearts awakened. Oh My son, come unto Me in desire and it is then that all that I have shall be yours, for the asking of a pure heart. Therefore be wise and cleanse thyself in the understanding of forgiveness and love, and all will be added upon you. Ponder these words and the doors of the heart will be opened unto thee. Rest My son and be of Me, even so.”
April 18, 2013 Thursday (11:17 pm)
I was reading in the Book of Mormon and heard a quiet “Write.” I questioned, because only a few minutes earlier I was thinking that it seemed like I have been having a break from the writings, when I heard again, “Write.” I questioned again if it was of my own creation and heard, “Oh My son, write.” And with those words, not questioning and ready to listen and write…
“Oh My son, when the heart is ready the pen will write, that which should be spoken. And in that time the Heavens will bow and behold the Lamb of God. And All of Creation will honor He whom you call Jesus Christ, the Father and the Son, for this cause that the Heavens bear witness of that which was in the beginning even until now. For when that time cometh, the heart will know of which I speak and the song of freedom will be heard through and from the heart. For when the heart is ready the time of transformation will occur, when all will come to pass for the good of the all, and in this knowledge the mind will release the ego mind willingly for the good of the all. And in this no man will utter the things of this world, but hold the truth of that which is to come.”
(April 20 … I have been asking forgiveness because I fell asleep as I was writing the above … the Heavens are continuing a couple of days later…)
“For in this day the Lord of All Creation will show Himself unto the world and in this day His glory will shine forth above all things and the world that knew Him not will bow and say, ‘Father of All Creation, why did we not know thee?’ And the Lord of All will say, ‘For what purpose was the Lamb sacrificed upon the altar?’ And then the minds of all will understand that the Lord of All Creation, the Son of the Holy One and Lamb of the World, even Jesus Christ laid down his life willingly that all might journey to Him once more. And in this day, all will cry out with exceeding joy of the love that they behold and that pourth out unto the world, and the sons of man and all will bow with prayers of thanksgiving and praise. For in this day the hearts and minds will begin to be one as the joy is felt and the pain of what was is filled with great joy. And the hearts will turn to each other in love and the things of the mind that divided the world will come together as one and the world of men will receive her glory. And in that day the world, Mother of all, will shine as never before and her children will behold Her true nature and their hearts will hold a new love, for they knew Her not. And it is in this day that the lion and the lamb will come together for good and even all beings will be in a state of peace and rest. For the ego mind will vanish with him that prayed on the dividing of heart and mind and delighted in the ways of the world, which are not the ways of God. For he that delights in the fighting against God will be cast out by the Glory of Man and will submit to the will of the Father and no more in this day will the mind and hearts of man be tormented with the buffetings of evil. But all will praise the glory and love of the Lamb of God. For in this day the world will be no more as it was and the reign of the true God of all will be given His glory and the will of the Father will be made known and in this day all will rejoice in His love, even so as it has been told and written of My prophets of old even until now. For behold, is this day not near? And that is the will of the Heavens that all might turn to Him and let the love of their hearts be as one in this day that the Lord of All will know them in that day. For is it not better to know Him now before the last great divide? And I say unto you, yes! Turn your hearts to the Lord of All Creation and come unto Me.”
April 21, 2013 Sunday
I woke up and the very first thought kept repeating, “With hands and feet nailed let the remembrance of Him be made”.
Continued to flow…
“Then the truth of all things will be opened up to you and in this truth the vision of the world will be clear and the heart will know all things that are of Him. Come unto Me and you will know that which is important for your return and the truth of all things will be opened up to you. Be free My son be free!”
April 22, 2013 Monday
Waking up after falling asleep with all the lights on and after turning them off I hear, “Write.” I question, never wanting to assume and have it become automatic and as I am thinking these things hear a stronger, “Write.”
Pen in hand…
“The truth is that all things come from Him if the heart is of desire and of the true peace of Spirit; meaning that if the heart is of the pure desire of Him, all things will work to thy favor in time. Be patient My son with thyself and remember that the ways of God are not the ways of man. And as you become use to the desires of the Heavens then the mind will begin to not question as much of which way is the ‘right’ way, but the heart will lead and the heart will follow. Relax into the desires of the heart, remember to listen to the heart and as you relax into the desire you will begin to know the peace of Spirit, and it is this peace that will lead you. Yes, I can hear your mind questioning the new sensations of the body and I say unto you that it is of Me and it is He whom you have been promised, that which comes to bear witness of Me and My ways. When one feels of such clarity it is then that one needs to act, for when the Spirit, My Spirit of Peace, is present it is He that is bearing witness of My way and My truth. Listen at that time not to the wonderings of the mind, but bring thy focus and listen to the heart. Yes My son, He hears your request and invitation to be as a friend and companion, and it is in this desire that allows His presence. And when the desire is of the heart it is then that all things will be made manifest in due time. And as you are able and ready to receive, question not that the time is now, but question the time of when. ‘When?’ is that of the perfect knowledge of all things? ‘When?’ is the assurance of that which is given and it is ‘when?’ that set up the timing to receive. For all is your birthright and in this word is the pure intention of assuredness that comes with the knowledge of who one is, and who one is becoming. For the Lord God loves not a commanding mind, but an assured intention as it is aligned with the purpose of Me. So come unto Me in the pure intention of assuredness and watch what will happen to the soul worthy, watch what will happen to the confidence of self to act in the right action and will, know with a assuredness of what is to be done. Yes, come unto Me in assuredness of peace and you will truly know My peace. I can hear your concerns of ego and I say unto you, that when the intention is of the heart there is no ego, for the ego is of the mind, for the survival of man and the natural man; but when the natural man comes into submission to the heart, he then owns his true nature which is of Me. And it is then that he truly begins to be one with Me and becomes his birthright which is of God. So know thyself, know of the heart and you will know Me, and you will know the peace that is of Me, and that is Me. So My son, come unto Me.”
“Yes, My son I can hear your gratitude and know that when the desire of the heart is of Me, the words of counsel and love will open freely unto you, peace My son, peace. Let your intentions be of Me and all will be made known.”
April 24, 2013 Wednesday (6:40 am)
I woke up out of a dream; I was doing missionary work, and as I woke heard…
“The time will come when the Lord God of All Creation will ask that those who have the will of Him, to come to Him. To come unto Him with purpose and take up the till and plow, the axe and whatever manner of tool and put thy talents of work into action for Him, and of Him, that the purpose of His command might be fulfilled. For as a man and woman take their will and work with their might for the Lord, it is then that the blessings of the Lord will pour forth unto him that labors for the purpose of the command. For the world of man has forgotten the importance of labor of the sweat of the brow and has forgotten that as a job of labor and effort is completed, the satisfaction of the goal completed, the satisfaction of the service for the good of the whole and the…
(I’m struggling in this writing it just isn’t flowing and I wonder about the content, it seems dated and I’m in judgment and pausing a lot. I am sorry and I mean no offense, just being real. I often wonder if those working with me are not the direct source, as in God, the Father or Christ, but who are in Their authority to speak of and for Them. I am disappointed in myself because of my judgments and the connection doesn’t seem strong and the flow doesn’t seem to be there. I know it is me, but I am not sure why. What is the difference? I heard softly but clear “Write”. I had no question about that but every word seemed to be a struggle… hmmm not sure what to do, let me ask…)
“Because you were trying to control the words and phrasing to match your ideas, thinking with judgment that is an outdated image and subject, your own mind became the interference that made the struggle for word and concept to flow smoothly and with ease. Oh My son, it is in the submission of the self that one learns the law, and it is in the learning of the law that one learns the lesson behind every law and concept. For what was being taught was the law of obedience and the work that is asked is not always with ease and the task laborious, but when the task is complete the labor is then sweet to the satisfaction of the task accomplished. For when one is in the middle of the task, of focused labor, one does not see the completed whole of the effort and it is in the completion that the self is fed with the …(I am struggling again.) … You are tired and the mind is having a hard time keeping the focus. Is this not even the lesson? Is this not even the meaning of the writing made physical? Judge not yourself, but take the message to heart and ponder.”
April 26, 2013 Friday (6:30 am)
Waking up to my alarm and hearing, “Write.”
“Yes My son, take some breaths and connect to your heart. Can you feel the difference?”
Yes, if I were to put a visual to it, the visual that came with the feeling was as if you were in a royal court, like a church of old, large and spacious, with it was a floating feeling.
“The visuals and feelings will help define the moving into the heart, because it has been difficult for you up until now to sense being in your heart. The creative mind can sense and use this sensory to enhance an experience. This is not a negative, but a positive. That is why your meditation group has shown such promise in your efforts of connection and this is what we have been speaking of that it is through the creative mind that gives you the ability to move beyond the restrictions of your physical world reality and into the realm of Spirit. As long as you realize that the visuals are not always a reality of truth, but help lead to the feeling and when coupled with the totality it is then that you are able to be free to sense and know. So breathe into your heart and sense again … yes, continue to define this feeling.”
Oh Father, I tend to want the creative to be a firm reality. Does this mean the visions of my past and what I have seen are not true?
“Yes My son, they are based on the reality of information received, but all of reality of the vision may not be as important as what you give heedance and then you… yes, I can hear your question of it’s validity. And son I say unto you, ‘Question not your experience of Spirit and truth.’ For the information is given in a sensory form and this has been the case of all My visionary servants. Do you really think that Elijah/ Enoch were lifted off into the Heavens in a chariot of fire? Do you think that it was a real snake that spoke to Eve? And do you think when I have used descriptive words, such as ‘slitherth’, that I am speaking of a real situation? No My son, all words do is convey a feeling and in that feeling are the sensory images and feelings of the true reality of Spirit. Man is in a physical form of limitations and so all is defined by these limitations and with this ‘reality’ mentally there are restrictions and limitations, whereas with the freedom of what is termed, world of Spirit, there is much more freedom in our creation, feeling and sensory. You are still physical even in Spirit, all is physical. All is energy at different vibration levels, all is the same energy, which is of Me. Even these words are used just to convey the sensory feelings of what I say, for the mind to hold an experience of truth. Oh My son, realize the rigidity of the mind and its grasping reality, for has not what you have termed ‘thought form’ taught you the expanded form of communication and information given in just one image, phrase, or word? Yes My son, the reality is in the sensory feeling and truth of the experience. For Lehi’s dream was full of images to teach and it is on those images that the principles of teaching was given and yet it is scripture which man holds as literal. Free your mind, free your restrictions of truth and reality. As you will learn when you release the body, and experience the new birth, back into what Is, Spirit a different vibrational reality. Oh My son, relax your restrictions of experience and let yourself flow with the beauty of life and with this new marriage, of Spirit and physical, being of one heart in this physical plane of existence. Be not afraid of your creative mind and be not afraid of all realities, for is not everything of Me? Is not all existence of Me, what you term positive and negative? Yes My son, you must move into your day, but this has been a necessary lesson for you to be truly free. Our love to you as you journey this physical reality of experience, which is no different than what we journey in Spirit, all is reality! Peace to your mind and heart My son, peace.”
May 3, 2013 Friday (4:28 am)
Have been sick with a fiery sore throat the last couple of days. Upon waking I thought about the ‘Writings’ and prayed aloud, “Father I never want to force the Writings.” And with those words immediately heard, “Then write.”
Pen now waiting…
“Oh dear son, the Lord God of All Creation is upon you and your body in this time of wellbeing. Yes, I say well being because you are not your sickness, for you are beyond the body. I hear the clamoring of thoughts, expounding their excitement of connection. But as I say unto you, ‘you are not your body’, for the body is the expression of the thoughts, beliefs and programming. Once you understand this, then the path to clear creation will be understood and realized. The mind of man has a very hard time accepting this concept/truth, because the physicalness exclaims belief, but the belief is not rooted in the mind, but in the heart. For when one is rooted in the heart it is there and at that point of creation that the will can be expressed. For the will is connected to intention and intention is a energy of the heart and not the mind. Yes, people create mental intention, but the intention of the mind is a progressive intention or energy. Where as when the intention is of the heart there are no limits because one is then connected to Me. And when one is of one heart, is there nothing I cannot do? Oh My son, see not My desire for the heart? See not My pleadings to, ‘Come unto Me’? It is not that for the claiming that which is Mine, but it is that one might claim all that I have to freely give. Choose health My son, choose My love and be healed!
Ah, but can you hear the mind’s struggle for the power of reality, the power of ‘Truth’ because the physicalness is the fruit of your reality. But I say unto you, nay… truth is not manifested in the world around you, but truth is in the heart’s connection to the reality of Me. Do you not think that the wave of My hand can free any situation …’breathe’… from the reality of physical creation? But if I removed every situation where would the lesson be learned? Where would the learning to apply one’s will come into your mind’s reality? It would just breed dependence of the mind and all learnings of discipline of thinking would be lost, for those truths are the forerunners of true connection and oneness of heart. The mind cannot conceive the reality of self-creation when connected to the Source of All That Is. Oh My children, Come unto Me that the wisdom of the Heavens might fall upon you with the truth of all things. Fear not thy heart, and fear not the holy connection that is the true reality and the door to All That Is. Knock My children, knock that My heart may be opened and our hearts be as one, even so.”
Thank you, Father.
“Fear not My love.”
May 6, 2013 Monday (5:40 am)
I woke up out of a deep sleep, in some grogginess and hear, “Write.”
“The love in you is of Me and through Me, and the love that is to come is by Me. For the Spirit has gone before you that you might speak My truth, and in My words that you speak is the message from My heart. For those whom you bear witness, the words will carry the seed of love and the seed may fall upon barren ground, but know My son that My Spirit is with you and hath gone forth before you that the soil of the hearts might be prepared and that the truth of My words spoken by My servants will be to bless the lives of all who hear. Remember My son, that this is a process of love and long suffering of patience, that the hearts of man take time to mature and grow. That is even with you, did it not take year upon year for your heart to be ready to take the seed, and then to nurture and nourish that which hath taken germination until even now that the Root of All That Is coming forth unto the world of men? Oh My son, how My heart weeps in joy as We watch the root of thy heart move into your life and it is now that the heart is ready to bear witness unto the world of the Root of all mankind, even Me. May the world know of My love and My Spirit that beareth the truth of all things. Oh My son, in your excitement to bear witness remember to come into your heart and speak from your heart and let the words of My Spirit come through you and that the love of the Heavens be spoken to the hearts of the many. Oh My children come unto Me, that I might open the floodgates of Heaven and pour out the blessings of My love. Come unto Me, Come unto Me, My children of the earth of men.”
Waiting to see if there is more to come and hear, “That is enough.”
May 8, 2013 Wednesday (5:20 am)
Waking up before my alarm and immediately hear, “Oh My son, write.” I drift a little back into sleep and then muster my will to serve and obey.
Breathing into my heart and the pen is ready to receive …
“Yes, oh yes My son may the gift of He who blesses your life with the witness of light and love be with you this day, that the love might be felt as the words of truth pour forth to you. For this is the cause of all creation, that He might make it known unto all peoples that the love of God abounds, and that the will of God is to be heard and known that all peoples might come unto Me, and be of one heart and one mind. Yes My son, the words of truth pour into you not only for you, but for those that might receive My word as you feel you should share the love of God and the will to heed His call to return to the heart. Oh My children, that you might hear My words and My call that you might know of My love for each and all. For he that speaketh the love of the Heavens shall be blessed and he that hears the words of love and opens the heart unto My will, will know the rapture of My joy. Fear not My children of the concerns of the world, but turn your hearts unto Me that you might live. That you might know the truth of all things and that you might receive Him that is My gift unto you. Even My Holy Spirit, that dwelleth in the hearts that turn unto Me and enter into the waters of My name, that they might come unto Me and be made clean again. Yes, this has been the massage since the beginning of times when all was known even until now, that ye should turn unto the Lord God of All Creation and receive the love of He, who knows your woes and knows your joys. For when the heart is turned unto Me, it is then that My angels of love and mercy might administer even greater blessings unto you, that ye might know of My love and grace. Blessings upon you My son and all that share of this call and My love. Be not afraid to bear witness in My name of these things for this is My will and My command that once a heart is full, then the love might overflow unto others that the joy of All That Is might consume the world of men. And that they might be ready to receive Me even in that day that no man knoweth, when the veil of love will be parted and all will then know of which I speak. But until that day, that no man knoweth, be in My love and blessings, even so that My Spirit might be upon you and prepare the way before you that you might know the joy of the harvest and the joy of Me. Witness in My name and receive that which is yours.”
“Oh My son, I can hear your concerns of knowledge of the scriptures and writings of truth. And I say unto you, that what more is needed than a heart full and lips willing to utter the voice of love that is one with Me? So be of good cheer and know that My love is in you. Be still and know.”
Thank you, Father, for your love and faith in me.
May 14, 2013 Tuesday (6:00 am)
Waking up on my own and as I was contemplating the day I hear, “Write.”
“The Lord God is pleased at the speed of change and the rate of change that your life has taken. This is a difficult time for you, your work on disciplining the mind and the heart to Me. The mind of man is programmed for the cause of this course and what it is programmed by, experience. It is then set into motion with the repetition of that experience. So it takes time to reprogram the pathways that have been set into play. You question your worthiness of change and if the Heavens of patience are still upon you, and if Our love is with your heart. Oh My son, the patience of change is steeped in love. For it is not only based on the desire of the heart, but on the desire of spirit, dedication of self and fortitude of the soul. Yes, I can hear your thoughts of disappointment and yes there are times that more discipline could be used and more will could be mustered, but what has been done is wonderful to the eye of Heaven, and what has changed would be termed a miracle. For be soft with thyself and keep the balance and measure of change in the forefront of thought. For it is not about the immediate perfection of the process, but in the learning process of perfection. Remember, that Our love is not based on the rate of change, but on the desire to change, and even in that the love is constant. Your mind is based on the desire to please and wants the immediate effect to happen, when it is the heart that should have the focus in change. For how can the mind effectively change itself when the heart is still in desire of that which is still in remembrance and desire? So change the desire and it is then that the mind will open to new pathways of thought. You are thinking again that the mind is independent from the heart, when in reality the oneness is in effect, and the cause for change is causing the appearance of separation. But take a close examination of the heart, and as you know, there is still desire that is not of Me. Oh My son, this is a natural state, this push and pull state between Heaven and Earth, between the natural and the Spiritual realm of love. For have you not even quoted for years an inspired truth, ‘Love brings up anything unlike itself?’ Have you not taught love and patience with the self as this natural process is occurring? Oh My son, be loving during this time of discipline and change. Fear not Our love for you, but let this, Our love and patience, not keep you in the unsure place of complacency. Yes, you have watched on your television the things that are not of Me, and yes, you have feed the natural being of the physical by doing so. But I am still with thee because I know that all is not lost in a moment as you say of relaxation of mind, and tuning out the world and exhaustion, by losing oneself in the dramas and stories of another. But as in all things, beware, that the road to excellence is lost, by a slight error upon slight error of decision-making, which slowly leads the heart away from that which is pure and good. For he that fights against Me has made insidious headway into your medias to plant the seeds of corruption and to lead the mind and heart away from Me. So use caution in what decisions are made in your relaxation of mind. For remember, what you program the mind or sow into it will be what will grow. For in this time of change, is the time to be on guard, to nurture the delicate seedlings of Spirit. And as you do so you will see the mighty change of love and you will wonder at its growth and strength. So yes My son, be mindful and watch with your heart all things that come before you in asking, ‘Of what will it serve, the Heavens of light or the natural man of desires? Will it bring you into oneness in Me or will it give you separation of heart?’ And in asking these things in a truthful heart you will know of what is food for the mighty change that is occurring. Fear not Our love, only fear that which is of the choosing. Oh My son, love thyself into these times of growth and change. For can you not still see the protective veil of love that has been placed upon you, because of your desire of love to come unto Me? For can you not still feel your heart of love that is fighting the world of man in this battle of wills? And can you not see the valiant warrior of love that you are and the servant of man that you are becoming? Be not fearful of the choices that are before you, choose in love and choose in confidence that the Heavens are with you in every choice and in every action that is of Me, for Me, and in My name. Therefore My son, come unto Me continually that you might know of our love. Blessings upon you this day as you remember Our love.”
May 22, 2013 Wednesday (4:00 am)
I was woken up before my alarm and wondered, and in my wondering heard a soft, “Write.”
Pen in hand…
“I am disappointed in your lack of desire to come unto Me and with your desire to numb yourself with the television. Yes, your work schedule has been exhausting to your physical body and mind, but do you not think that in your exhaustion that I could comfort you more? Do you not think that the ways of man could be softened by your attention to Me? And in doing so, I can feel again your guilt and avoidance of Me. Even as others have spoken in shame, it is your heart that I hear that is not uttered by the lips. Oh My son, I do commend that even in your numbing, your choices are not the choices of the past. Look and see how your choices have matured and are more of a standard of Me. Oh My son, can you not see the battle of wills and the forces of erosion are at hand? For on such a course you will begin to, slowly over time compromise by compromise, see the foundation that is suring you up, slowly be eaten away until your sure footing is unstable? Can you not see the subtle workings of desire creeping into your mind and do you not know that this is the way of he, who is insidious before Me, even he who fights for your will? Yes My son, you are still in My heart, but can you not see that this is the trappings of he who fights for your will? For he delights in bringing even My most brightest of lights unto him. But beware of the slow and crafty mind of his workings. Beware of those feelings of guilt that build into feelings of unworthiness and then build into feelings of lack, and the way is lost because the heart is not of Me. Beware, My son beware! For can you not feel My love for you even in these words? Can you not hear My call of warning as you wander on the edge of the mists that have become the snare of trappings? Yes, I can hear of your things of this path, which is a hard path, and that the path of excellence is one of great discipline, and a hard climb for the weary. And when the weary turn even then their heart and mind unto Me, it is then that My angels can sure you up in the asking. But it is in the way of the many to turn to exhaustion and shame, and feel the unworthiness to ask. Ask My son, ask! And in My love, My heart will not turn but I will send forth My angels of love to sure you up, to carry that which is too heavy. For was not this the promise of Joseph, whom is of My heart and voice, and is this not the words of love that were spoken to you? But in your exhaustion you wanted to turn to what you have known to comfort you of the past, when you were hiding from Me and lost in the thickets of your own pain. Oh My son, why choose the burden of pain and suffering over the joy of love? Oh mankind, can you not see the love that awaits you if you only come unto Me? Can you not feel the light of love, if you but only turn to face the light of love? I cry out, but many lose their way because of the ease of the path of denial. Deny not your worth and deny not your value to Me, My children. For once you have grasped My heart of love hold tightly and fear not your birthright.
Oh children of worthiness, come unto Me in strength and honor and I will awaken the flame that flickers and the heart that needs to be filled. Oh My children of love, fear not My love and come unto Me. You see My son, the Love that calls out to you that is your beacon of strength when you become weary. Choose not the path of your past, of the road of unworthiness, but choose to walk the path of joy. Call upon Me to sure you up and feel the burden become lighter in the love of Him that calls forth unto you, even Christ Jesus, who has walked before you to show the path, and lights the way for all to see. Come unto Me, oh My children of love and seek once more that which you know. Ponder now the call and feel the love, My son.”
May 23, 2013 Thursday (2:15 am)
Waking up and told to write, “Write My son.”
“Yes, I have asked the one to write the words of the pen. That all might know, that the Lord God of the Heavens has spoken, that the Heavens have been heard. Remember My son, that the time cometh unto you, we will need to be of one heart and mind for today is the day to prepare for that which is and that which surely cometh. Oh children of the world, prepare ye, prepare ye that the Lord God of All Creation might speak, and that your hearts will be of Me, and that you might hear My words. Oh My son, count yourself blessed that the voice of the Lord is heard and that your heart is of Me. Rest My son, and know that I am here.”
May 26, 2013 Sunday (11:50 pm)
Just climbing into bed after inputting the writings into the computer and a long full day, as I settle into bed I hear “Write.”
“Oh My son of My heart, seek ye Me first and then all things will be added upon thee. The weeping of joy is heard around you, for what love is held from one who has sought Me in the wilds of … (I keep falling asleep, not out of disrespect but out of pure exhaustion. I’m not feeling very good about myself right now…)
May 29, 2013 Wednesday (2:50 am)
I woke up and clearly hear, “Write, My son.”
Pen in hand…
“The will of the Lord God is that you should be with pen, and hear My word. Oh children of the Lord, hear My word of truth and glory, hear My word of strength and love, for this is the time to prepare for that which is to come. That day surely cometh when every knee shall bow in honor and fear. For those that know My voice in their heart will kneel in love and honor, for they will know of this day and welcome the horrific change that will proceed My coming. But those who know Me not will be trembling in fear and wonder as the Lord of All Creation is unveiled as if on the mountaintops, and will be seen as if the sun shineth twice. And the wonder of man will know for a surety as the Holy Spirit of Truth washes over the world in witness of the Holy One that was promised from the beginning of time, even the Lamb of God. For in that day the Lord of Hosts will be seen and the veil will be drawn and Heaven and Earth will be as one. And that which was hidden from the world of man will be made known and all glory will be beheld in this glorious day. For the hearts of man will be full and will overflow with the love of God and there will be great rejoicing heard from Heaven to mankind and then from mankind to the Heavens. And love will be as the rhythm of the tides of the oceans and the energy of rapture will cause men to weep as children, and children to shout in joy. For the world will know their Brother God of Love once more. Oh My children, prepare ye this day to have My voice in your hearts, that you will survive the glorious preparations of that day. For this day is truly the day to prepare your hearts to hear the voice, My voice of love, that will guide all who know My voice. Know My voice, and know even so.”
May 30, 2013 Thursday (6:10 am)
I just woke up to my alarm and heard, “Write My son.”
(Woke up naturally during the night and questioned if I was to write, but was told, no to rest)
“The time will come when the Lord God will require that all of His children that hear the voice of the Heavens in their hearts to come unto Him. And in that day of gathering, will be a sound of great rejoicing in so much as the Heavens of love will part and all will be made known of what is. The children of My voice will mingle with the realm of Spirit and the Angles of Light will come forth and bear witness of the love of the Heavens. And in this day the children of love will come together and weeping of joy will be great. In this day, the day of rapture, the Heavens will bear witness of those things that have been spoken from the beginning of times, that the truth of all things will be made known and the prophets of old whom spoke of this will have their words fulfilled. I share this with you, so that My children might know that I am a God of love and that the tribulations of the future are but a moment to carry, for the rewards of great joy that await. So hold true and be strong, keep My counsels of endurance and your commitments of honor and the Lord God will bless you beyond measure. Come unto Me continually that the way might be made known and that your heart might be as one. Blessed are those hearts that become one in My name and purpose for their joy shall be great. Be strong My son, hold tight to that which has been revealed, for the buffetings are with thee to let you know that there are forces that might rob you of this very joy, if you let the ways of man be your ways. So I say unto you, choose the ways of the Lord that are not the ways of man that your joy shall be great and your heart full. Be of good cheer and carry My name in love in all that you do and your joy shall be great. Even so, come unto Me and all will be made known of that which is and that which will be. Peace My son and know that I am with thee this day.”
May 31, 2013 Friday (4:35 am)
Out of a deep sleep and awakened, feeling groggy, exhausted and hear, “Write, the Lord asks thee.”
“The Lord asks thee to write and hear the words of love that you might know of the compassion of the Heavens and the great love that is held to he that endureth all things and to he that endureth the buffetings of he that fights for the will of the Lord. Oh My son, great worth is in the battle being fought for your salvation. Be strong, be wise and choose the ways of God and great shall be your reward. The buffetings of the lowly one is tossing your mind as a ship upon the ocean, and I can feel your discouragement and concern. Be strong My son, be strong and hold to the rod of love and know that I am with thee and have not forsaken thee in this hour. For it is not the will of the Heavens that you should endure more hardship but the pace for…” (next page missing will add when I find it)
June 2, 2013 Sunday (2:50 pm)
I Just came home after church and visiting with Dad, laid down for a break, read and take a nap. As I was settling into my comfortable bed I heard, “Write.” I questioned and heard, “Yes, My son, write. It is not in the doing, but what is in your heart.”
“The doing is of the body, but what is of the Spirit is the heart. For when one forsakes the body and the natural man, it is then that one must focus upon the things of the heart. And son when the heart is pure, then the spirit is one with Me. But when there is still corruption in the mind and heart, then one must work to root out the cause of such a divide. For when the heart is still attached to the ways of man it becomes more difficult to justify the roads that lead to many pleasures and it then leads away from the road to excellence and Me. Come unto Me, in all that you do and I will bless thee.”
“Endurance has been stepped up and it is not that the Heavens have lifted that which was given to protect thee and your burden has not fallen back upon thee, but the Heavens continue to watch, even as he continues to press down upon thee. Remember My son, that the love of God is upon you and that the hand of God is with you, but you must choose your way through this battle of mind and thought. For when you choose the way of God you will feel the mighty pull lessen and have peace for a time. Remember to call and use My name in all things and to cast out and forth, he that is as stubble beneath My feet, and remember that My love will fall upon thee. Stand strong, for your strength is being tested and I cannot or will not take the battle from thee, but will stand beside him that fights for My will and his very salvation. Stand strong and fight with all thy might and be the warrior of love that you are, and all will be well. Be strong and know that the love of God is upon thee in this and every hour. Blessings of love and strength are yours… be strong and come unto Me.”
Thank you Father, I needed to know of your love and these words of encouragement. Thank you.
June 4, 2013 Tuesday (5:15 am)
Woke up in clarity and heard, “Write.”
“The Lord of All Creation is with/upon thee and is blessing thee with clearness of thinking as asked, because of thy faithfulness and desire. When one chooses the Lord over the desires, of the ways of man, the Heavens are turned to that one and the storehouses of All That Is are opened unto them. Choose you this day the Lord and all blessings will be added upon you so that the wants of the spiritual self will be filled and in so doing the desires of the natural man will be fulfilled. Be strong My son, for the buffetings are upon you, and the heart of the one fights against Me, rages with desire to bring thee down that the Heavens will be of less light and love. So safeguard thy thoughts and intentions and know that Mine angels of mercy and love are surrounding you and waiting to do your bidding. As you have witnessed, last night with your emotions. For you were on a spiral downward, but you softened your heart and called upon the Heavens and in those words of weakness and asking, could you not feel the suring up in desire and the change of thought/spirit? For My son, when the issues of life are upon thee, the weight of life, and buffetings of the one is heavy, call upon the Heavens in My name and the angels of love, who are waiting to serve will be able then and only then to do their bidding as the Lord God has decreed, because of the agency of love and freedom. Therefore one must ask, in My name, seals the will of both Heaven and Earth. Remember My son, that the name of the Beloved of God, even Jesus, is the key to he that has taken on My name and has chosen to serve only the Heavens of love and understanding. For when the heart is low, cry out in My name. When the heart is hardening with desire, cry out in My name. And it is then that the Heavens will fall upon you as you ask, for your wellbeing. Do not doubt this power and the love of the Heavens will be proven. So seek Me and continually call upon Me in prayer and see the love of Me, that is the Creator and author of All That Is, and the floodgates will be opened to you. Doubt not your understandings and doubt not thy purpose. For when the heart is ready all will be made known unto you. Be of good cheer and breathe in the love that is yours. Blessings this day, My son, blessings.”
Thank you Father; I need your love.
June 6, 2013 Thursday (5:45 am)
In waking heard, “Write, the danger of transgression is before thee.”
Pen in hand…
“The danger of transgression is before thee upon this path of mental unrest and emotional defiance. You are in a state of uncertainty and your questioning mind of obedience is a dangerous path to tread. The frustrations and buffeting of the wicked one is upon you and in those buffetings he is working you into frustration and working to weaken your hold to the rod of obedience and self worth. For he knows that if you feel badly about yourself, then your pattern is to withdraw from Me and in so doing the cycle of disobedience will be in effect. Oh My son, be strong on all levels, let the mind be single to Me, let the heart be single to love, let the workings of the wicked one be of no worth and in so doing the temperance of self will show him no value and the workings upon you will lessen over time. Endure to the end and your blessings will be great. These words are out of warning, because of your mental state and your emotional state are in a weakened place. For the buffetings are upon you and those around you. Can you not see the distractions of life that is working against thee? But hold strong to those things that you know and in so doing all things will work for thy favor. You see My son, the Heavens are not willing to control your environment to protect thee from all suffering, but you are always sured up with the love of God. For if there were no opposition or resistance in energies, where would the lessons be and how would one find his or her strength, worth and value? So be glad in thy buffetings, welcome the contentions of the world and in taking upon you this attitude of mind you will find a change of mental ability to handle all that comes your way. Do not taunt or beckon, which is not your nature, but act in self-assurance that all is working for your well favor. Be strong and in so doing the mental and emotional selves will follow. And again My son, know that I am upon thee and know that your worth is in the transition to love in all things, hold steady and do not let the emotional states around you cause you to be unsure of yourself and your way. Hold steady in the turbulence of life and you will not loose thy way. Peace unto you My son, peace.”
June 9, 2013 Sunday (6:10 am)
Waking to the alarm, and hearing a faint, “Write.” I dose off and when I come back into the waking world I wonder about the “Write” and I hear again, “You can see the value … yes, write.”
“You can see the value in staying close to the heart and keeping your heart tuned to Me. For you can feel the change in heart, mind and spirit when you have been away. For My son, you hide because of your guilt of turning from your studies and numbing the world of man with the television. You know the wisdom of choice and you know the feeling of distance from Me. Only you can decide the way before you. For when choice after choice is made, so the way changes before you and your way is not far from Me, but the course slightly altered has a profound effect of the final destination. Oh My son, My love is still upon thee and I can see the natural man wanting to numb the emotions and pulls of the world of work, employees, troubled relations, the stresses of life, all of which exhausts the mind and body, so you choose food and television to hide from them and in hiding from them, the world of pain, you then hide from Me. And even now you can feel a difference in your writing and the flow. For is it I that have turned from thee? Is it I that have cut you off because of your mind and heart? And I say unto you, ‘nay’, for as you have been told over the course of this time, that the Heavens are as constant as the Sun. And My son, My love is with you and My wreath is slow to kindle as you find your way through the freedom to choose. Can you not see the wisdom of discipline and the heart that is attuned to Me? My son, you know what is before you. You know how the pattern of television disturbs your attunement to Me and the Spirit. I can hear your questioning mind about relaxation, and I challenge that what you have chosen as relaxation or numbing, that which you are wanting to avoid. Do you not think that man rested before television? Do you not think that man rested before the light bulb? Oh My son, the world of man has many wonders that have blessed the quality of life of man, but it is a unwise man that chooses to work without rest, because he now has eternal light. And it is a lack of wisdom that cannot see the course of all roads that are of choice. Choose wisely My son, and know that which is before you. For is constant light the same as eternal light? I say unto you, ‘nay’, come unto Me and I will show you that which is beyond the realities of man. The true world is not seen, but the world of man has the imitations of that which is the true nature of God. For if it were not so, it would not exist except because of the glimpses of inspired men into the realm of God and inspired by the Spirit of God. Oh My son, choose wisely and come unto Me. Do you think that a course of numbing and hiding from discomfort will give thee a heart attuned to me? Do you not see the wisdom of coming unto Me continually that your mind might be expanded beyond, that which is of man, and your heart pure and of Me? Every choice brings with it an outcome, therefore choose with wisdom your path and choose wisely your life. Our love is upon you even as you learn these lessons of life. Peace unto your mind and heart, and know of My love. Oh My son, hear My continual call to come unto Me.”
June 10, 2013 Monday (6:30 am)
It’s my day off from work and laying in bed contemplating. I went to make some notes for a project that I am working on and heard a faint, “Write.” I questioned, because not wanting the writings to be just an automatic response whenever I have pen and paper before me. And then I heard again a clear, “Yes My son, write.”
Pen now ready…
“The time is coming when the need for your strength and valor in the mind, as well as the heart. For when the mind and heart is based in Me, the strength will be. But if they are not completely of Me, it will be difficult to be clear in thinking and direction. And the judgments of others will sway the mind not planted in the heart. Oh My son, fear not this day, but prepare with wisdom for this day, be of Me, come unto Me, know Me and My ways that the mind and heart might know of a clarity of when I speak, and when I speak it will be through the heart. Know that you are worthy even in your buffetings and choices. Know that My hand is still upon thee, as a marker to the Heavens of whom and what I have chosen to be. Oh My son, choose wisely the way before you, that you might have counsel in the Heavens, that the love of All might flow freely to thee and that the heart might be as a beautiful garden for all to see. Witness My word and know that which is to come, for in that day which is to come belongs the reckoning and the Host of Heaven. Prepare ye, prepare ye least the soul of man fallth into the realm of disbelief and slothfulness with not a heart unto Me. Come My way and know of the fruit that is sweet to the taste, for sweet above all else and know that this is the light and truth of God which is sweet and pure. That carries the wrath of pure judgment of what is and what will be, the truth and command of God. Remember that the honor of God is in the command followed, and the glory of God is in the command completed to the very end. Keep My commands that the floodgates of Heaven might be freed and the blessings of every law might be flowed upon you. Remember that every blessing has a law, and every law has a blessing, it is written into the foundations of this world and so it is the law of this world. Come unto Me and be of one heart, that all might flow freely from Me unto you. Oh My children, repent and come unto Me in love and My love shall not be turned, but flow as a mighty river into your lives to bless not only one, but all who receive Me and My name. Remember to come unto Me, in the holy name of the Lamb and the promise of love will be upon thee to bless thee with the wisdom to follow. Come unto Me, oh come unto Me, even so.”
June 13, 2013 Thursday (5:25 am)
I woke up this morning before my alarm and heard a soft, “Write.” I questioned and hear, “Yes write and I will speak with thee”.
Pen in hand…
“Oh My son, the hour of your relief is near when the pulls of the wicked one will find relief and the desire of the heart will be felt once more. For your mind is asking, ‘Of what will change?’ And I say unto thee, ‘That the relentless buffetings are of no value and the focus of the wicked one is not sown with long suffering and patience and want only instant gratification and results, because they are not based on the ideals of Heaven. But only the carnal pleasures of the now and are not focused with patience and love, but are in a temporal state of immediacy. So be strong My son and hold to that which you know, keep the faith of love and all will work for thy good. Be patient and see the love of the Heavens around you and see the forces of good that stand beside you and who sure you up in these hours of need. Know My son, the love that is for you and know you are never alone in your fight for your salvation and worth.
Breathe My son and come back to Me…
Become one in My heart and the love of the Heavens will be felt in thy bosom and the spirit of mercy and love will be fanned into a mighty flame for all to see and know, for here is a man of God. So son come unto Me and know of thy worth and know of My love that you might know the worth of thy soul and the knowing of this time of battle for thy will. Choose Me and choose the Heavens and all glory will be added upon you. Choose you this day and know.”
June 14, 2013 Friday (4:41 am)
Waking early and hearing a clear, “Oh My son, hear My words of love and understanding.”
“Oh My son, the love of God is upon thee and the wisdom of choice was made and can you not feel the change? For the mind is clear and the feelings of worth and value are in thee as you are willing to be before Me to receive the love of God. Correct thinking and a heart of Me allows the Spirit to flow freely, and it is then that the wisdom and understanding of the heart is heard freely. Oh My son, I have waxed strong in My patience with the mind of desires that pulls thee and fights for thy heart and attention. But in your decision to avoid the ease of choice, you choose to stay with Me, even in the strong pulls of desire to do which comes with ease. Oh My son, with every choice of love is a reward of intention and honor. Yes, My son, with every act and deed. So consider the path before thee and know that the way is paved with your actions and in every action your way is manifested to that choice/decision. So literally your choices are your building blocks of creation; so choose wisely and choose from thy heart, and know that the love of all understanding is yours as you choose that which is of Me. Oh My son, be not of fear as you project of a life dedicated to Me, in questioning your strength to choose day after day the way of God, but see only the choice of today and let the choice of tomorrow be of tomorrow. Be of good cheer and be not of fear, for even those thoughts are building that which is before you. So see and understand, literally every thought and action taken is an act of creation. So garnish thy thoughts with truth and love and it is then that all understanding will be made known unto you. Peace unto thee and know the Heavens are upon thee and be of love. Blessings this day as you choose your tomorrow. Peace.”
June 17, 2013 Monday (8:50 am)
Woke up late, letting myself sleep in on my day off. I’m feeling groggy after watching some television while going to bed and then waking to it in the middle of the night. As I’m now wondering what time it is, I hear a soft, “Write.”, mixed in with my thoughts. So I question and hear,“Yes, why would I not want to talk to you? You can see and feel the difference.”
Pen in hand…
“Yes My son, you can feel the change in clarity, as you wake after a night of dosing and waking throughout your sleep-time with the television. And in this we have created a cycle of guilt in which you now feel unworthy as you pursue that which you desire over Me. I understand your need to relax the mind and body, but the body does not find true relaxation as you sleep and wake throughout the sleep cycle, but this is something to find for yourself and in finding you will be choosing your way before you and upon choosing you will know the path of which you are on. Yes, there was a glimpse just now of the fear of the path to Me and what is required of you and in that fear is the, ‘why’, that you have been struggling and hiding from Me. There is a part of you that chooses to stay away out of fear, that chooses to sabotage the knowing because of fear. You have even felt a change in your desire to share your witness of knowing and truth, as you pondered meeting with My servants (the missionaries). You can feel the subtle shifts, and it is because of your attunement to Me, and your own feelings of worthiness as you come before Me.
Oh My son, can you not see that it is not I that have moved My heart, but it is in your choices that your heart moves from Me? Can you not see that as you choose to be apart, it is in these choices that drive a wedge of worthiness between your heart and mine? There, that is the truth within you!
Can you hear that small voice of doubt? Can you hear that small cry out in fear and pain, of feelings of worth and the inability to do as you have been commanded? For it is within that small voice within that cries out in fear and weakness, that doubts his ability to be and do all that has been asked/commanded. And it is this same small voice of doubt and fear that is driving the wedge of desire and sabotage between us. Oh My son, can you not feel that part that cries out as a child that waits to be seen and coddled as a mother would coddle and nurture a wounded suckling? Fear not My son, and take time to address this part of you that fears life and the command of God, that chooses to run and hide in fear and shame. Be with this part of your psyche that cries out and hides in the pain of doubt and disbelief in self… take time now.”
Wow, it is now two hours later and it seems like only minutes, and I feel the need to record my experience before I loose the details. As I was told, to be in the process of retrieval of this wounded part within myself. It was as if I could hear this part immerge from the depths within as I was recording the words of my writing. The voice was one that was wounded and it was crying out, “I can’t, it’s too hard, I can’t!” It was this voice that the Lord referred to and instructed me to take the time to process. And in His wisdom, I set the pen down and laid back on my bed, I called forth in prayer that I might have the support of Elizabeth and my Angels of light and love to support me in my process. A process that I am very familiar with, a process of Soul Retrieval/Rebirthing that Elizabeth facilitated here in her life before her death, her life work that brought me to her, that she trained me in. In which I have worked for several years in helping others recover and heal those parts of themselves, like this one, which is before me now. As I called out for help I could hear Elizabeth’s so familiar voice whisper to me, “W’ do what you know, breathe.” So I began to do my conscious breathing and as I did I could quickly feel the layers peeling back. I could see and feel my infant self in the hospital as a newborn and hearing my internal voice at that time,“ It’s too hard here, no one loves me, let me return.” And it is in this voice that my first core belief about life began, a voice that I have heard before in my previous work with Elizabeth. My newborn self in the incubator (being a ‘blue’ baby) and not feeling the touch of love, so desperately needed and feeling all alone, needing to be touched, loved and coddled. As I continued to breathe I could still hear the small voice saying, “It’s too hard here, let me return” and my breath took me to another image that is hard to describe, it was like several images in sequence and yet seemed as one image. It appeared to be like a crust of the earth crumbling away, an erosion of a covering, almost in the same image like a glacier that is in the process of erosion with large chunks breaking off. As this crumbling was taking place, what I saw beyond the image was my newborn self at birth and as I reached out it became a fetus, like a fetus in utero. I drew back and flashing back onto a previous process or session with Elizabeth and I recalled the experience that I had many years ago where I was able to go past my birth, into utero and even past to experience my pre-birth awareness. It was in this experience that I became aware that I agreed to absorb some of my mother’s pain, in order for us both to survive. It was in her own pain of life that she wasn’t sure she could handle another child, with all the added concerns of the financial, emotional and physical that it would take for us both to survive. And it was in this, that I choose to take on her issues of pain so that we could make it through and I could be born. So as I saw the fetus self before me I wasn’t sure what to do, it looked so fragile. It was then that I was instructed to pick up the fetus and to coddle it, as was spoken and described by the Lord earlier, and as I reached out to hold this part of myself I heard, “Oh My son, remember who thou art.” This phrase from God kept repeating over and over as I placed the pre-birth self next to my chest and at my heart. It was then again I could hear the belief of “Life is too hard.”, “I can’t do it here.”, as I coddled this part of myself and surrounded it in love. It was then that I asked, “What should I do now?” Feeling inspired, I started to bless this part of myself, in the name of Christ, to me healed. And it was then that ‘I’ came into my view from my right, seeing myself dressed in white robes. And with this came full understanding that this was my ‘future self’ who held the priesthood of God and it was he/me that took the pre-birth self and in his hands gave it a priesthood blessing in the name and with the authority of Christ. He blessed this part of myself to heal and to be free/release this belief of the past and when it was complete he handed me the newly blessed self where I placed this part of self into my heart to continue the nurturing that it needs to become one with me. And it was in this that I heard, “Arise My son, arise and know who thou art.”, which continued to repeat. It was then that I felt like I went through image after image of dream-like situations as I continued to find my way back. I was told that I was in the dream realm of the psyche and it felt like it was a layer of images that I had to journey through to get back to my conscious self laying on the bed. The conscious maneuvering through this dream realm was a first for me, as I moved so consciously and clearly through it, getting caught up from time to time with focusing on some of the imagery. As I came forth in my breath I heard again, “Rise forth and know whom thou art, My son.”
And now it has been nearly three hours since I started writing with pen in hand about my being in unworthiness and shame. And hear, “Yes My son, I have been waiting for thee. Now you can fully see the wisdom to carry and move through to the end. To continue to hold to the rod of truth and all will be revealed. As I have said and will continue to promise, ‘That if you hold true to the truth and stay in My heart, all will be made known of All That Is.’ Be strong and hold true that you might stay close and continue to have My hand upon you, that the Heavens might bring forth that which is yours. You wonder about the ‘future self’ of priesthood and wonder if you have choice and I say unto you, ‘yes.’ And now you know what you choose, oh My son, rejoice and know what is yours!”
“I give thanks, oh Father for Thy patience and Thy mercy. May I stop my childish ways and come unto Thee in complete love and submission that all understanding might open to me. And that in this understanding might flow the strength to serve Thee with all of my will, might, and strength. That I might put away my childish ways and come back unto Thee in love. Oh Father, bless me with the strength of the Heavens to sure me up in my weakness and doubt, sure me up, sure me up, oh sure me up I pray in Jesus name!”
Something of interest, after writing this I put on a CD of the Mormon Tabernacle Choir’s, ‘This Is The Christ’ and laid back on my leather chase in my living room. And as I lay there my energy went through several mudras and as My hands ended up on my solar plexus, and it was then that I felt that I was holding my very own sword with the hilt at my heart and with the blade pointing above my head. As I was holding this sword, something touched the tip of the blade and it changed into a blade of flaming energy, an energy that was white and bright, and I wept in the joy of the Heavens.
June 18, 2013 Tuesday (6:20 am)
Waking to my alarm after just a few hours sleep, because of in-putting the writings from yesterday. In waking, out of a deep sleep, I hear, “Write.” I pull myself away from my sleep to write.
Pen in hand…
“The choices before you are paving that which is to come, and in those choices is the opportunity to be free from guilt and the feeling of unworthiness. The choices and experiences of yesterday opened up a new way and is bringing about that which is, as you know from seeing your ‘future self’. And yet that was based on the choice that was made in yesterday’s experience and so it is experience and choice, built upon each other, pave the way to that which is to come. Simply put, but oh so true. And yet mankind does not grasp or act with the motivation of this truth. Again, choice upon choice builds the reality of your tomorrows. This is truly a creative plane, yet because of the physicalness, the rule of manifestation is slower for those without the keys to this plane and therefore the speed of vibrational change makes it appear to be slow. Therefore mankind does not perceive the creative nature, but it is lost in the existence and survival experience. But in truth it is all creative, and it all is built upon the basic freedom of choice. Therefore choose you this day whom you will choose, and tomorrow becomes a new reality. Oh My son, it is so simply beautiful that man cannot see the impact and the wide scope of his behavior of choice. A simple truth and lesson that is a fundamental building block of this existence. And remember that the creative is multidimensional as you consider the other planes of mental, emotional and of course the spiritual. And more that are so subtle that man has not chosen to consider, such as light and vibrational. Even, what could be termed as the subatomic, the influences and connectiveness of all these realities are more complex than man perceives. But at the very basic level, that today’s choice of this moment is shaping the next, is the truth in it’s simplest and purest form. So ponder these things, as you have your freedom to choose, choose wisely My son, and the way will become as a path of truth and light. My love is with you as you choose. Peace is upon you this day.”
June 20, 2013 Thursday (5:10 am)
Waking up early and hear, “Write.”
Pen in Hand…
“The Lord God is well pleased with the choices of the past several days. For when one considers the past and compares the existence of the presence, look at the progress of change and of the outlook of the mind. The changes have been increased and the next phase of existence will show even more growth as you continue to choose to be in the heart and to dwell in the house of the Lord, of the body. For when you dwell in the heart, you are one with Me and in this union all will work for thy good. And any opposition is viewed as an opportunity and the mind shifts to a place of positive reception of all that comes before you. Oh My son, look at what has been accomplished, rejoice and give thanks for the work that has and will take place in thee. Come to thy heart and know of the good, know of that which is to come and the joy that awaits and is yours. It is time to count and take inventory of thy blessings and of the good that is before thee, and in so doing the mind will see and the heart rejoice in the love of God. Oh My son, be of good cheer and know that thy will is in Me and the Hand of the Lord God is upon thee to bless thee in strength and love. Ponder these things and see the love upon thee and know.
Yes My son, I will give thee guidance in thy questionings upon that which you have asked of the influence of the wicked one in the lives of My children. Know My son, that the strength of he who looks to destroy My work is in thy mind and it is in the mind that the battle of wills is fought. For when the mind is fertile and given seed of love and good, you will see the bounty of that which has been planted, but when the mind is seeded with those things that are of the world of the natural man, it is that which will sprout and grow. So it is in that which is given to the mind that will be produced, and in this work is the will tested. For when the advisory sees the garden of love it is then he is ever so subtle in his work of placing his seed of contention, of disharmony and it is in this way that he works to disturb the natural balance of things. Your questionings of his power of influence in the physical and the mental realms is now addressed. Yes, his influence is in both for he is given the power over many things of this world and his influence is vast. For he can influence others with the planting of ideas and ways which will then influence another which then cause a disruption of balance in thy life. For his influence/power is on a finer or more subtle level, just as our influence and power appears to be subtle, because of the laws that where set into place in the foundations of the world. For in this physical plan of mortality, the energy of influence is for the allowing of agency, and in this freedom of choice is the ability to create by those choices. For the physical realm is governed in a slower rate than other realms of creation, because of the density of matter and the vibrational rate of change. Oh My son trust and know, for the mind is the battlefield of he who wishes to thwart My plan and My will. So it is in this that the heart and mind must become one in Me and in thy doings. I will keep it simple for thee. It is as a garden and tending this garden, continually weeding out that which is undesirable. For this is the real power of influence in the lives of My children. For the physical influence is a test, but it is in the mind that the finer realities of the battle are fought. When one considers that the power of creation of the physical is first seeded in intention, and so it is here that the beginning of all creation is held. So therefore My son, garnish thy thoughts, simply weed out the garden with intention and will. Yes, there will be the undesirable that might sprout, but it is in thy choice to nurture or destroy that is in thy power. Cast out that which produces not the good and love of God, and thy garden will be one of beauty. So son, fear not the workings of him that has been from the beginning, but simply give him no heed and cast out that which is not from the heart of love and the heart that is in Me. Choose thy will accordingly and all will be for thy good.”
June 23, 2013 Sunday (6:30 am)
Just waking up as I open my eyes I hear immediately, “Oh My son, My heart is saddened at the lose of love and temperance of will.”
It’s been a few days since my last writing and I have been feeling some depression about some of my life circumstances of work, my personal and spiritual life. I have been allowing myself to numb with the television.
“Yes, My son I will speak My heart and tell thee that the Heavens rejoice in love, and weep with the loss of devotion and love. Oh My son, come unto Me and let the Heavens have thy heart and let thy wounds of the mind and heart be of Me. Let your afflictions be Mine, and let your heart that is heavy with burden be with Mine, and I will lift thee up in spirit and light. And the love of all will give thee hope again to continue on your path of purpose and love. Oh My son, I can hear your pains and troubled heart and in thy questions and suffering is thy answers that lay hidden amongst your troubles, but because of your focus of fear and your feelings of inadequacy you turn from that which you know and love… you turn from Me. And I say unto you, ‘Fear not and loathe not thyself into a depression state, because of your thoughts, inabilities and fears of what has not even come. For tomorrow will take care of itself, when you chose of today. When you choose the love of the Heavens all will work for thy favor, even in the midst of your doubts, fears and troubles.’ For this is your nature to feel badly about your situation, to feelings of overwhelm, to numb with the television for days and then to hit bottom. It is here in your past that your heart is full of pain, and it is here that your heart is softened. It is at this place of desperation that the Heavens have picked you up and given you hope, even before you were conscious of our love and devotion to you. But I say unto you now, ‘Why wait until you get to this level of pain for thy softening? Why wait and suffer? Lift thine eyes to the Heavens, lift thy voice to the Heavens and open thy heart unto Me and I will bless thee with the love that is yours, that awaits thee. And in this love is the key to your many concerns and burdens.’ Oh My son, fear not in thy doubtings of what is, and fear not your abilities to carry forward that which is before thee. For thy heart knows the way, and thy mind is the distraction to your devotion. You know of Our love, you know of My heart. Now choose thee this day and lay your burdened heart and mind at My feet and I will lift thee up again, and you will shine bright in light and love. The will of the Heavens, the will of the Father which is the will of all, is to come unto Me and in this will is the hope of all things and the hope of all nations. Oh My son, as you come unto Me the hope of all things begin to work for thy good and the flow of the Heavens will pave the path and way before you once more. Fear not thyself and come unto Me in heart, mind and body and let thy bosom be filled with the light of what is. Be of good cheer and cast thine eyes upon Me and doubt not thy worthiness of love and the way before thee. Oh My son, the Heavens flow with or without thy devotion, so why not cast thy burdens down and rejoice in the flow of love and thanksgiving? Be of good cheer and come unto Me, My son.”
June 25, 2013 Tuesday (4:25 am)
Waking from a dream and trying to make some sense of it, as I hear, “The voice of God is within. Yes My son, write.”
Pen waiting and breathing into my heart…
“Yes, the voice of God is within and I will speak to thee concerning those things that are to come, and those things that are here. In this day is a space to prepare the heart for that day which is to come, and in so doing remember the importance of knowledge in those things that pertain to the scriptures concerning My coming and in the prophecies of old, of the promise of a great redeemer. For when one is able to bear witness in will, be it of these things, that have been a promise from the beginning of times. And yes My son, for when it is time to receive Me, in the temples of thy choosing, learn the ordinance therein that you might know of which I speak and know what is expected of thee as I cometh. For when that day cometh, the great divide will come and in so doing the angels of God will come forth, and in so doing you will be asked of which I stand to receive the passing from this station into the next and in that passing is the promise that is made unto you, that all things shall come to pass. Oh My son, question not but in time all will be made known, and will come into your understanding. Therefore study and cleave to the scriptures of the past and know them that they might be of a clear understanding, that the knowledge of God will be within thee. That the Spirit of God might use thee for good, and that you might be a bold servant in that day. Follow thy heart, and I will lead thee. Listen to thy heart, and I will speak to thee. And love in thy heart, and I am with thee. Peace unto you this day, My son.”
June 26, 2013 Wednesday (6:40 am)
My alarm has gone off and I keep falling asleep after only a few hours of sleep because of a sleepless night of reading and mostly television watching. Upon waking I hear, “Write.” several times as I fade in and out of a morning stupor.
Pen in hand…
“Oh My son the Heavens are of judgment and disappointment in thy choices, for can you not see the effects of a night sleepless upon your body and character? Can you not feel the shift in desire and feelings of worth? For if I, the Lord God, was not a patient God of purpose the wrath of judgment would fall upon thee, but because of My love and compassion for the human condition. I have given thee My hand in long suffering that the way might be not changed, but that you might come unto Me in a heart of forgiveness and remorse. I can hear and feel your thinking and I am concerned for thy future and well being. For surely you know of My judgments that can come quickly upon thee?”
Yes Father, I am concerned with even myself and am in fear of my own stubbornness of heart and thinking. For why would my desire not be of Thee and why do I feel the bucking of the maverick in this area? And after You have given me so much patience, so many wonderful gifts and words of love? Why am I not able …Oh Father, please have mercy on me, for it feels as if there are several desires within my mind and heart. There is the part that is in question and also this part that can see the error of my ways and yet there is the part that is defiant; that acts out, not out of hate but out of feelings of low self worth that is sabotaging my salvation. This part that thinks that there is no hope or chance to keep on this path of commitment and therefore desires to numb myself in hiding behind and in the shadows of the television. Almost the same feelings of an alcoholic with his drink. What is the answer, and what do I do with this aspect of myself that I might come before Thee with a heart of full commitment?
“Oh My son, it is in this attitude that slows My wrath to kindle, but is able to be with thee in compassion and it is these thoughts of the mind that bring Me the most concern, as I can hear the rumblings of the mind. A mind of exhaustion that is not in a state to receive My word and is in a state of instability and therefore I will release thee to thy day and to thyself to ponder, question and decide what is the true desire of your heart, and your course before you.”
I am so foolish! I think I deserve His wrath, because of my thoughts of disbelief! I am so upset with myself because as He was speaking to me a part of my mind began to question the reality of all of this and His very existence. Why would such thinking come up unless I am either in the strong buffetings of Satan, am experiencing some part of myself in resistance or just damn foolish! Ahhh, I am so upset that I am so stupid and weak in my desire and will … Uggghhh! I need to get ready for work, I am already going to be late and I have a full day ahead.
June 28, 2013 Friday (3:25 am)
Waking out of a deep sleep of dreaming, as I wake I wonder and hear, “Write.” Pulling myself from sleep with the pen now ready…
“Oh My son, the Lord of All Creation is well pleased with the will of love and the work of devotion in your readings and studies. The time has come to say to you, ‘Know thyself and hence be true.’ Oh son, of what purpose would I bring you to this place and then you know not and have not the will for devotion? For what purpose would the love of God, in an empty purpose? For those that serve Me and know, let them come unto Me in continual prayer and supplication, that the hand of God might guide their every move, that the hearts might become one in will and purpose. That the love of all creation might flow through you and that the journey of strength might begin. Oh My son, your thinking humors Me in your thought of, ‘This is how the serial killers and bombers begin’, I can feel your half humor and half fear in thy sarcasm. And I say unto you, ‘That were not all of My devoted people of the scriptures, supposed by the peoples of their times, to be crazy and beyond the realities of the peoples of their generation?’ But I say unto you, ‘Even they could not doubt the purpose of will and knowledge as it came upon them and it is now falling upon you.’ Be strong My son, and know that My hand is upon thee and that is why the patience of Heaven and hell is upon thee and this is the very purpose of the many and mighty buffetings of he who fights against My very purpose. For he does not have the knowledge of what is to come, but he can read the light of love and devotion that is upon you. For would the Heavens spend so much energy and wax strong in patience and long suffering for one who was not to succeed in purpose and love? Would one such as thee have a gift, if it were not to be shown and in that showing be as My servants of the past, loved and hated? And would I speak with thee time and again, if the favor and purpose of God were not upon thee? Fear not the judgments of men, but fear the judgments of self and the Heavens, if this purpose of devotion is to be brought into fruition and service rendered. You can feel the mounting anxious expectation within your mind, but can you feel the calm within your heart and body? This is the gift of all who know of the purpose of God, for it is a gift of My Messenger and He who serves the world of man. For in this peace of heart and body is the knowledge and the resolve. For in this peace is My love and devotion made known and in this peace is the comfort that you will need as time comes to them that serve with purpose. Fear not thy call and fear not the Lord of Wills. Let thy mind be as thy heart, and know peace. Yes, let the peace of the heart be as a gift to the mind that you might have some relief. Yes, the wave of peace is upon you that you might be in the knowledge of God and know of My will. For to love God is to love thyself, and in so doing is the service of man brought forth into the plane of creation. For the gift of peace quiets all, that so you might be of sound mind of peace. The service of man is in thy heart and has been since your beginning, that is why you love to give to those in true need and purpose. Do you think all would create a side business with the desire to serve his fellow man? And I say unto you, ‘No.’ For thy mind and heart is turned to your neighbor and it is in this that you have known thy heart and it is in this that the Heavens have known thee. Kneel before me and know.” … A blessing given.
Praying for My sister and myself to be taught and turning our lives around, that she might be blessed with health to see her life change from being a victim to owning her power again…
“Command not which you know nothing about. The Heavens of God are opened and see the desires of your heart, the love and concern that floweth. Be very focused on the desires of love and let the path flow from the Heavens, let the way be of God, and the asking be of man. For who knows the hearts and pains more than a loving parent that stands in wait to help the struggling child? The soul is built within the struggle and the fight to make right. For your very life shows the lesson of struggle and strength. Come unto Me in love and let the path be brought from the Heavens, keep a spirit of humility and love and the floodgates of Heaven will be opened unto you. Blessed is your heart and blessed is your love. The wisdom is to be shared that others might learn from you in the lesson. I will bless your endeavors as you listen to My voice and heed the promptings of your heart. Blessed is your heart for it carries the finger mark of God and knows the intent therein.”
June 29,2013 Saturday (11:07 pm)
I came home after a long day of work and errands, as I walked through the door of my home my first thought and desires were to watch some television and relax, to escape the hectic day. But instead of plopping myself on my bed I kept moving until my desire came naturally to me to study. And so I’ve been reading for a couple of hours and it feels good. I am continually whining
about relaxing and how study is more mental work, but as I am seeking knowledge this evening it is seems to be relaxing and productive at the same time.
I was told to ‘Write’, and have the pen ready as I breathe into my heart…
“Oh My son, My heart is full of only love for thy heart is of Me, and thy mind is of Me, and thy spirit is of Me. Oh son of My heart, receive Me and know of My will. Receive Me and know of what is to come. For thou art of My heart and all things that are of Me begin in this place of holiness. Yes holiness, for when the will of he who seeks Me is in this place, it is sacred ground in which the Heavens will bless with the presence of Spirit and all whom see and know of this sacred place and union will be of a prayerful heart as the Heavens of Spirit bless and become one in love and purpose with their brothers of love. Be open and know of these words of that which I know and speak. Blessed is this day and blessed is you to come before Me with thy seeking heart of love.
Oh My children seek Me in all things, that I might bless thee with the love that awaits, as blessings of Heaven, that are waiting to befall you even as the manna of old fell from the Heavens. And so it is today that the very blessings are waiting to feed thee. Seek Me, seek Me in mighty prayer with a heart single to thy heart and My love, and in this connection of love and union all will be added upon you. For you will be blessed with My will, for you to bless yourself and the lives of others. Therefore seek Me first and then all things will be added upon thee for thy good and well being. Oh My son, the Heavens are with thee and as you seek in a prepared mind and heart all blessings of this day will be added upon thee. Seek and know, and all will be for thy good. Blessings await therefore seek!”
“Thank you Father, for giving Me the sound mind to record, Thy words of love, for it flowed just as smooth and effortlessly as if I had to not even pay attention … Thank you!”
June 30, 2013 Sunday (5:30 am)
I woke up before my alarm and heard, “Read My scripture, read of My coming in Isaiah.” I needed to go out to my car to get my scriptures and as I was slipping on my flip flops it repeated in my mind again, “Read of My coming in Isaiah.” And when I heard it this second time a hair rising tingle of Spirit went through my body. I now sit with Isaiah open…
July 3, 2013 Wednesday (4:00 am)
I woke up, and have been lying in bed pondering the last few days and last night’s conversation of light that I had with my sister. As I have been lying here going over in my mind the concepts and my struggles of the last few days and even weeks I hear, “Write.”, I question and hear in response to my questioning, “Oh ye of little faith, write.”
Pen in hand and feeling a little sheepish as if waiting to be chastised …
“Oh ye, oh ye that comes to Me in supplication and fear, like a child that knows he has done wrong but thinks that hiding from his parent will stay his punishment. But I say unto you, ‘That this parent is a parent of love and the punishment is left for thyself. For why would a parent of love punish when the child is of low self-esteem, and punishes himself?’ Oh My son, come forth from the shadows of hiding and come forth from the hiding of your television and receive My love. Doth thou not believe of My love, that the love of your Father might stay His wrath? Oh My son, if you doubt this then you don’t know He that has loved you from the beginning even until the end. For have you not even seen with your own eyes the will of God made perfect in seeing your ‘future self’? You hide from yourself. Oh My son, begin to believe, begin to have hope, begin to open your heart to the truth of who you are, for yes, you hide from yourself. You are a child of fear and I say unto you, ‘Come forth, come forth oh servant of My bosom and rise from the child of fear and be the warrior that you are.’ Doth thou not see the wisdom of the Heavens, that would bend down to pick thee up time and again to have thee come forth in this day to be a warrior of love in this battle of life? Oh My son, hear My words with not thy ears, but with thy heart. Receive the wisdom of the Heavens once more and know of our love for you even when it is hard to love thyself. ‘Be ye perfect’ is a concept or goal for those that strive, fail and then hide. Oh My son, know of our love, open up your heart and forgive thyself. For you punish yourself, so why would there be a need for more punishment? For My wrath and punishment is only for those of a hardened heart, a defiled heart and mind with no conscience of self. Oh My son, you steal My power, for I cannot even punish you (spoken with a sense of humor). Yes, for even a God has a side of lightness of heart. Oh hear Me My son, remember this love and know that the will of the Father is one of love and in this, My love, you will find all things. So rise up My son, My warrior and be of love. Come forth as the man and lay down the ways of the child, and fear not the world, For I am with thee and for thee and will be thy guide and thy sword. So come unto love and be whom thou art!”
July 8, 2013 Monday (8:30 am)
Praying and seeking answers for my life choices and hear, “Write.”
Pen in hand…
“Yes son, breathe into thy heart and hear My words that are spoken upon thy heart, for thou hast prayed concerning your mind and the choice of action that have and do lay before thee. For in your prayers comes before Me your heart, of the servant and the heart of the server, and the heart of the seeker. For if thy will is of Me and My will within thy heart and mind for in these things is the answer of he who has transgressed the laws of which I have commanded, for the mind has deceived thee and in that deception is also My forgiveness, for your desire was of a heart to follow Me. And in this desire of My law is the forgiveness that you seek. For what purpose of the law if the follower is in question of the permanency of the law? For he that questions the mind of deception, and I say unto you, that in all things the Lord of All Creation has commanded thee to protect thy heart and to know the love that floweth from on High. And I say unto you, ‘That the law is one of obedience and it is I who can offer the forgiveness of any transgressions and it I who have given thee the lightness of the burden of life and even told My servant Joseph to offer the yoke of lightness that thy will would be taken on thee and the angels of love that surround thee.’ Oh My son, know that My will is in thy heart and always seek ye first thy heart to know and in this knowing you will be guided to the choices of love and understanding. Yes, I can hear your questionings of the mind. But take care of your physical needs of business for the needs of your counsels are divided by the phone call before you. Return with a heart unto Me and I will tell thee of the wisdom of heart and mind.”
(I have been waiting all weekend to make a business phone call and have just come back after prayers to the Father to return to Him with my concerns of the mind/heart relationship and pray for clarity.)
“Oh My son, you ponder the relationship of heart and mind. And I say unto thee, ‘That the suredness of the heart is in the mind, but the mind is not in the heart. For it is upon the mind that the heart speaks, so it is through the heart that one must open to the mind and then the mind will bear witness of the heart. For most do not have this understanding and come unto Me in the mind. And I say now, ‘That the heart/mind connection is a subtle field of energy to navigate for those beginning to open to such possibilities, that is why the will of forgiveness comes so easily to those of a humble spirit of openness and seeking.’ So My son, seek ye first the heart and when the heart is felt, let the mind bear witness of that spoken and written upon the heart. There is no deception in the heart, but of the mind there is a craftiness that causes one to doubt and question the whisperings of the heart. For the Heavens will always seek the heart and the forces of evil will seek the mind. For in the beginning of creation the realm of influence was set with limits and it is these limits that the forces for good and evil operate their influences and workings. For if the world were without such safeguards the agency of man would be of little use and the choices before him of little worth. For how could one choose if there was no choice and within the choosing of life is the limits of influence.
Yes, I can hear your flooding questionings of how much influence the adversary has, and how much influence into your minds of the physical plane of man? And I say unto you, ‘That the influences of control is one of the mind. For first there is the seed of thought and within this seed is the influence determined. For as it has been spoken, if the person of influence waters and nurtures the seed with more thought it is then that the seed becomes a sprout and from a sprout to a seedling and it is at this point that the thought of influence then takes root in the garden of the mind.’
Therefore My son and all those who hear My words of love, seek ye first to protect the mind and heart and nurture only that which will bear the fruit of your desires. For if thou desireth the fruit of the Tree of Life, that is sweet above all other fruit, safeguard thy mind with a diligence that is of a mother’s firstborn: watch, listen, and constantly with ear and attention of the needs of one so helpless and of need. Yes, it is with this alertness that one must watch and safeguard the mind and heart. Yes, you question the heart and it’s safety and I say unto you, ‘The heart carries the Light of Life or what is called the Light of Christ, that all are born, which bears witness of the goodness of life and which will never leave thee, even as the heart is in a hardened state.’ For without this light all would not exist, and even the most vile of actions will not distinguish this light. For without this light there would be no measure for judgment and no reward. For how can I be a fair God if there is no choice or polarity to one’s nature? Therefore, oh ye My children, choose wisely the dealings of the mind and heart, and know it is through the mind that the influences of the world can affect the dealings of the heart. It is only choice upon choice of the mind, that then influences the heart unto that which will give thee life and joy. And that which will burden the heart with the weight of the thinking of the world and lead to a hardening of the heart. Oh My children of love, seek ye the heart in all that you do, and safeguard the mind with continual watch and care, that your garden might be one of beauty. That the influences for good will bring forth the fruit that is of most desire, the fruit of pure joy, of God your Father. Come unto Me, and through Me taste the sweetness of love.”
I just knelt in a prayer of thanksgiving and seeking forgiveness for my slothfulness and as I was seeking this forgiveness I heard, “Why seekest thou forgiveness when there is no sin?” And with this statement came a clear understanding, that when the Heavens forgive it truly is wiped clean and they remember it no more. What a loving Heaven that bears the weight of man, thank you!
July 14, 2013 Sunday (6:10 am)
I woke up early before my alarm, lying in bed, and pondering about cherubim. I went to dinner last night with a friend, and the experience of several years back came up where I had a negative experience of the adversary and woke in the middle of the night with four angles at the corners of my bed, standing watch over me and as I woke and took in the sight I heard, “Cherubim.” Even now as I think again of the experience it leaves me in awe. Last night my friend had asked me of their likeness and this morning as I was pondering them I heard, “Write.” A little anxiousness came over me because of my struggles as of late and I heard again, “Yes, write.”
Pen now ready…
“The Lord of All Creation has commanded thee to write for the time is soon coming when all will need to know for whom they stand, for whom they serve, and for to whom they will surrender their will. For in that day the tempest of emotions will swell within the bosom and fear will overcome many to reject even that which they love and hold strong to. Therefore the messages of love to come unto Me, to build the foundations of love and so when that day cometh when the mighty winds blow, that the house of the Lord will stand strong on it’s foundations of love. That the will, will bow to the forces of love and not to the forces of the world and he who will stir the hearts of many against thee. For can you not even now see the craftiness, in the comments of humor, of those that call you friend? Can you not see how an ember of envy could light a fire of desire to hurt and which in turn could be fanned into a wildfire of hate in the hearts of whom bow to the world and he who fights against the plan of My designs? For thou has come unto Me and it is now the time to sure up the foundations of love and understanding, that you might stand strong as the mighty winds blow and the fires of envy rage against thee. Fear not My son, for I have not led you thus far in love, and have not dressed and cared for thy wounds, and am I not even healing that which has conflicted you since thy youth? Have I not called forth the warrior and spoken for that which is known to come forth from the shadows of fear and hiding, to come forth in the light of love to be strong and once more in its/his natural nature? Yes My son, be whom thou art. Be the warrior that you know you are, and be the servant of love still. For the warrior can still have a heart of love and it is My warrior that serves in love and from the heart. For when the heart is opened unto Me and the mind is bent unto the heart, it is then that the warrior is of Me and the angels of Heaven will do thy bidding and the forces of He who has created all things will call forth the sound of the trumpet; that of the victory charge of love will wash over the world. And all men, women and children will know of that which will come and that which will be. For their hearts will speak of the fear of God and their knee shall bow unto that which shall befall them in that day. And in that day their hearts will cry out unto Me to save them. And the warriors of light and love will then know of which I speak, of which I cry out, for this is the day to garnish thy mind and heart in the desires of He whom has called you forth and whom has called you unto Him, to call you son. For have you not heard the call? Have you not heard the promptings and even warnings, and still you wonder and kick against the picks of love. But I say unto thee, concern yourself not with the fears of what was but concern yourself with what will be and even is at this very moment upon thee. For it is now to prepare the heart and it is now to sure up your foundations. For surely that day of which has been spoken will come and the hope of the Heavens is that the love of God will be carried in the hearts of many to hold true to that which they know and witness to be true. For fear not the craftiness of men and the guiles of the hearts of the few, but turn your thoughts unto love and unto the Heavens, for there you will find the peace of mind and heart that you seekth. Know Me and know love, know Me and know peace, know Me and know the joy of the world, know Me and know that which man knoweth not. Yes My son, come unto Me.”
July 22, 2013 Monday (1:20 pm)
Just returned home from taking my father on his weekly errands and while I was settling in, I heard, “Write.”, in questioning I heard again, “Yes son, write.”
Pen now waiting as I breathe into my heart…
“Oh My son, hear Me in your heart and know of that which I speak, for thou hast given thy heart unto Me and in this is the blessing of Spirit which thou hast been asking. For in thy heart is the words of praise and in thy heart is the knowledge of understanding. For as thou has knocked and pleaded unto the Heavens, let it be known that the Heavens have heard and it is with a heart of affection that thou hast come before Me and in this is the love of which is held for all the world. For if it were not so I would not be called Father, and thou would not be called son. For as thy heart turns and asks for others, it is in this that is My work and when all hearts turn unto Me, it is that, that day will be My glory. For as even one heart comes unto Me, there is much joy in the worlds of spirit and love, for the heart that is succumb to love is a heart that I must fulfill with My blessings that await. For love begets love and joy begets joy even until the last is taken up in righteous union of the Father, Lord of All and with Me the Son of All Creation. For come unto Me and know of My love, you will know of Me and it is then that all praise and understanding will be given. For the hour is nigh and the time appointed when all will come together for the good of not just the one, but for the all. And even in this day, will be rumored, ‘The works of God hath been restored and he who hast waited has returned.’ And I say unto you, ‘That even in this day that is rumored of Me, know that it is not of that day, but in a time that no man knoweth and as a thief in the night, I will come. And those that have been appointed will come before Me and in that day will the world receive her King, and all who have been anointed, will receive Me. For even as the birds of song sings of the morning, so thus shall I come even as the cock sleeps and the world awaits the first rays of light. For as the light tips over the mountain, cast in shadow, so shall be the coming of My glory, and the song of the Heavens shall burst forth with the praise of those that have waited in patience of what is to come. So know ye this day Me and you will know Me in that day and all will work for thy favor and good. Come forth My son and offer thy heart in continual supplication and know of My love. Be of good cheer and come unto Me in everlasting praise.”
After this writing I laid down and after the following experience, I fell into a deep sleep as I am now refreshed with pen to account the experience…
Then deciding to lie down, and as I did I could feel the angels of light and love surround me and administer to me of love. It is then that I heard, “Oh My children come unto Me that I might send forth the blessings of Heaven, even the administering of angels to dry thy tears, comfort thee, give thee rest and to even lighten thy burden.”
July 24, 2013 Wednesday (6:45 am)
I was lying in bed and contemplating my morning prayer when I heard, “Know thy will.” It was then that I questioned and heard, “I will tell thee.” Should I write or pray? “Both.” So I slid from my bed onto my knees and gave a prayer of thanks and the pen is now ready…
“The Lord of All has commanded thee to write that you might know the will of the Heavens concerning the love of heart and the relationship of the mind. Oh My son, thou hast come unto Me inquiring the will of Me, the Father of All Creation. And I say unto you, ‘That in the heart is the answers, and the body is the will.’ What is spoken by this is that while the body holds the will, it is within the body that holds the programming of your personal DNA or coding that each were given at the time of your creation. And within this coding is the answers that you seek, is the life to be lived and is the truth of all things, but first one must know how to read the code and it is within this that causes the mystery of God. For within all mystery is the truth and within the truth is the light and love of God, the Creator and Author of what Is. For My son, the heart is your own personal Urim and Thummim, in which all is revealed through the will of God and it is in this will, My will, that you are able to perceive all that is allowed as one journeys step upon step unto the will of My love. For when the self is given for the whole, or for the good of others, and the will of self is offered up unto Me, it is then that the heart is opened sufficiently to know of which I speak. For the heart holds the keys to the will of the Creator and within these keys or passages/doors is the will known or discovered, and it is only through the opening of the heart may one pass. Your thinking and asking if this is a figurative concept. And I say unto you, ‘That the mind cannot perceive all that is before you because of the dual purpose of the mind, but the heart is the gate for all to pass and it is the way of all knowledge and understanding.’ So My son, the heart is literally your answer to all and it is the key to all and it is the key to all mysteries. And when Joseph was given the Urim and Thummim it is the imitation of what is truly within each and it is in the will of the Father that the seers within are activated to all understanding. Oh My son, that you might ponder such things and in your pondering the Spirit will direct thee to the way of the Lord God and in this you will learn of what is written upon the heart for thee. And it is in your own personal coding that you will begin to understand your will or purpose. Yes I could tell thee, but what purpose is the mind and heart that is dependent upon the command, when it is in thyself that the maverick can find his freedom. Oh My son, rise forth from your slumber and know who thou art! And yes, your pondering and questioning is correct, for this is for all; for if one truly knew the depth within, they would be surprised at the knowledge of self and the world that they hold. Go forth this day My son and ponder such things and seek ye My will in thy heart and you will discover thy will which is one in Me. Peace unto My son, peace.”
July 26,2013 Wednesday (4:00 am)
Waking to my alarm to fly to Portland for a business meeting, while getting ready I hear, “Write, I will be brief.”
Pen in hand …
“Oh My son, there is too much at stake to begin not trusting the words that are given thee, come unto Me on bended knee that I might speak concerning these things…”
(I am having a very difficult time with focus and the words are feeling scattered and forced. I am not sure what to think … forgive me Father.)
July 31, 2013 Wednesday (3:00 am)
I woke up with the lights on as I had fallen asleep while reading. I had forgotten to pray because of my sleep, so I slid out of bed onto my knees. After talking with the Lord and closing the prayer I heard, “Well done, well done.” It was then that I was told to write and heard, “The Holy One of Love has spoken…”
Pen in hand …
“The Holy One of Love has spoken the words of praise and love, and it is now that the love is felt in words of warning and concern that ye might know of that which is upon you. For you ask of the Lord, but in your heart is still the desire of that which is not of Me, that has come to an abomination to the Spirit. For have you not learned that the love of God cannot dwell in the heart that is divided? That the love of God that dwells with man withdraws it’s precious light when the heart is filled with the desires of the past and when the light is withdrawn it is then that the struggle and the fogs/mists of the world slowly creep in to cover the way and path that was so surly and clearly beheld. Oh My son, the love of the Heavens is upon thee, but remember that the way can easily be lost when the mist of the world is created of desire and a heart of singleness lost. Oh My son of the morning, rise forth from those things that cause the Spirit to withdraw and bring Me thy heart that I might cleanse that which is not seen, that the love of God might dwell with thee once more. Yes My son, offer thy heart unto the altar of love and devotion that the will of God might be made manifest and that those things that thou hast come forth to do might be accomplished with the praise of the Heavens. For the work and the glory is about to roll forth and in this the rock of My foundation hath been laid, before the will of man was made manifest. Oh My son, can you not see that the Heavens are a Heaven of love and that the scales of balance have tipped to bring forth the time of reckoning, when all man will need to know his heart and that which is written therein? Bring forth thy love and offering unto Me, that I might send forth My angels to bless thee once more and that the heart might know of Me again. Oh son, oh son harken unto My words of truth and love, and be of good cheer for the day of love is upon you and the hand of the Lord God will touch thee again. Rest My son and know of My love, even in these words of love and warning. Take heed and know.”
August 4, 2013 Monday (3:45 am)
Waking out of a deep sleep and hear, “The glory of God is upon you.” And I question, “It has been days?”
And I hear immediately in response, “Yes, We have not wanted to overwhelm you and let you assimilate that which already has been given.” (The glory of God keeps repeating in my mind as I have been writing these words.)
Pen now waiting…
“Yes My son, the glory of God is upon you, in so much as you are willing to keep My commandments and continue of this path of excellence and righteousness. For have I not shown the way and given the command of My word to all peoples, and have I not shown the way through the life lived? For what more is there except to come unto Me continually in heart and mind and let the ways of the world flow through the mind and sound the bells of the past, that are tied within the trees of moss. And I say unto you ‘That just as the tickling of the bells sound, so it is that the contrasts of polarity/opposites give light to that which is the ways and commands of the Lord God of All Creation.’ For if these contrasts were not so, then what would exist? What would be and what would shine forth? For if there were not darkness there would be no light. But what is focused upon, what is seen as you think back on seeing My Holy Light? Yes, you focused on the light, the abundant light, the light of love that pourth forth from My holy place/realm. And I say unto you, ‘Where is the darkness of which is present? It is the supporting factor and is this not the equation of all of life? For where is the light of darkness as you perceive the dark? It is the light unseen. As so it is in all of life.’ The contrasts are which give thee pleasure and pain, joy… and the list could continue, but it is in these things that the love and joy of God exist. For as a man thinketh of the world, does not the love of God still exist? Yes, and as the love of God exists does not the ways of the world or opposite of God still not exist? Of course, so it is in this My son, then one must choose and it is this choice that man is given his agency. For yes the truth flowed through my servant to write that which you have recently read. So question not Our love for you and question not the realities of darkness and light. But do question of which will you choose to flow into your consciousness and that which you will therefore build upon. Choose light, love and goodness and your fruit will be sweet. Choose the light of love and the glory of God will be yours. Oh My son, the light of love surrounds you and the glory of God is upon you as the path of excellence leads you to Me. Step upon step upon this path and all will be made known unto you, and all whom follow their hearts unto Me. The love of God flowth, of which will you choose? Oh My children choose that which will bring thee joy, which is sweet above all else, choose you Me.”
August 8, 2013 Thursday (5:40 am)
Woke up before my alarm and having a tug-a-war in my head. I heard a faint, soft, “Write.” But questioning again because I wasn’t sure if it was me just having an automatic response in waking, so I questioned again and now hear, “You have enough to assimilate, don’t write.” This second message seemed a little louder and felt more aligned to my thinking, so here I am saying in my head and asking in my heart, “Father, I am always wanting and willing to write when it is Your command and desire.”
Waiting with breath directed to my heart…
“Yes son, it is I … the will of the heart will always lead you to Me. And the will of the mind is always in a state of questioning, because that is what the brain and mind is designed for. But when you heard and know upon the heart you will always know of My will. The heart will never lead you astray. Yes son, I can hear your continued questionings and desire to have a more distinct difference between the two and I say unto you, there is, but it is with time and continued participation in the process that you will know with a clarity of which I speak. For are they not both within you? The heart will always be the softer and less assuming voice because of the agency of choice. It will always be the mind that is questioning because it is of it’s nature to do so. Therefore My son come unto Me through the heart and know.
“My son, My son the Heavens are in a state of love and understanding as you struggle with the pulls of desire (new cable service and wanting to watch television). And it is of thee that must be able to know, what will build and what is hiding from the world. But do know that the hour is nigh when the Law of Commencement will go forth, which is the final phase of this reign of the world of man, when the events of the prophets will roll forth as a mighty stone in which there is no stopping. For the hour cometh when the lives of man will know change, and that which was will no longer be and that which is to come upon the mind and hearts of man will be of a nature that you have not yet seen. So come unto Me and prepare thyself that the Lord might dwell in your heart and the way before you might not be in question, but be of a clear path of knowingness. For he that questions the heart in that day will cease to exist. For you will need My direction and you will need My guide of Spirit and love to lead thee to that which is a clear and known way for he that followeth the ways of God. For there is but one who can dwell in thy heart and it is He who has prepared the way before Me. And it is He who now prepares you to begin to listen to His promptings and even He who is of Spirit which is of Me.
Oh My children of the world prepare ye, prepare ye that the voice of the Lord might dwell in your hearts and that this voice of Me, the Comforter, might light the way before thee. That the sound of your own voice might not be a sound of fear, but a sound of strength and offering. Oh My children, know of thy heart and you will know of Me. Come unto Me through the heart and you will know of Me. Come unto Me with a heart of gratitude and offering, and you will know of Me. Oh My son your day is upon thee, take this My words into your day and ponder such things and know the depth of which I speak, know of Me.”
August 20, 2013 Tuesday (2:00 am)
Just woke up lying on my bed still in my work clothes as I had fallen asleep after coming home. I came home from work and decided to lay on my bed to check out my ‘new’ bedroom minus the television and all the electrical equipment that surrounded my bed. The air of the room seems so clear, so clean, the quiet and peace stand out. So here it is Two o’clock in the morning and I am shutting off all the lights left on throughout the house and to my surprise, as I was shutting off the light over the island where I sit and input the writings into the computer, I hear “Write.” The sweet, quiet and yet so clear voice of the Heavens. There was no question, no wonder, there was just pure gratitude as I hear, “The love of God is with thee even in your silent heart.”
Pen now ready in a quiet apology for having them be patient …
“The Heavens are upon thee even in your silent heart and voice as the heart of your desires leads you through the human side of your life. Fear not My son, that the Heavens have fallen out of favor with thee because of the ways of the world have occupied your attention with visits and entertaining of family and other distractions of your life existence. Do you still not talk to Me? Do you still not quietly seek Me in your heart? Do you still not send forth the love of your heart in quiet wonderings of self-worth and worthiness? Oh My son, you are in the fogs of Lehi and yet still have the rod firmly grasped even as you move forward and release to only grasp again in your movement forward and with the fog all about you. Know of our love for you and know of the peace of surety, the heart of love surrounds you even in your and our silence. Can you not still feel the love of your God, and Father, on the subtle levels of Spirit of the quiet energy of life’s flow? Yes My son, the flow is for thee and with thee and in our arms you are circled in the protection of love …a chill just came over me that brought goose bumps and a question of what and who is this? And I heard, “ You are one of me.” But the energy feels different; strange it keeps chilling me and making my hairs stand on end in fear. I get a clear mind and command, ‘In the name of Jesus Christ to get thee hence! And I call upon the Angels of Mercy, the Angels of Protection of the burning sword!’ I continue to repeat, ‘For the power of the Heavens and in the name of Jesus Christ to get thee hence!’ And it is then that I feel a burning move through my body and in the familiar burn/chill of the Spirit of the Heavens. And can hear myself asking, ‘Why? Why, would this happen to me even as I am writing? Why would the Lord allow this even in this sacred experience?’ And hear, “Calm thyself. Calm thyself oh son of the morning, calm the mind so that the heart might speak. Yes, you are safe in the love of God.” As I feel my body fill with the warm chill of the Heavens and begin to relax as I breathe into my heart. “Yes My son, the love and protection of the Heavens is with thee and upon thee, even as the darkness of the wicked one was about thee. Now question thyself; would you know the difference without the experience? Would you know the love of God from the ‘imitation’ of God? And I say unto you, ‘Nay.’ No, for if I were to control every aspect of your life existence, where would you grow? Where would you grow and where would you have a choice of that which is the very foundation of this world? Oh My son, fear not the love of God! But fear a life without; a life of emptiness of the existence of the sweetness of this tree, the Tree of Life and of the Heavens. Oh My son, of what worth is the life of sweetness without the bitter, to remind thee of even more the pleasurable palette of God? Oh how sweet is the love of God in this very moment! For as you wonder and release unto Me, how could the love of the Heavens be withheld? How could the love of the Father, not know thy heart? Oh the sweet love of one who is willing to go through the depths of this existence and still choose the love of God; that seeketh Me even in the shadow of light. Oh My son, the love of the Heavens is upon thee and the Spirit of Peace is with thee” (as I feel the warm chill of Spirit).
Father, it still concerns Me that the advisory could feel so similar, and so my mind is wondering in concern.
“Oh My son, let the mind wonder, but let the heart know. Let the heart lead thee. Let the heart show the way and serve thee. And let the mind kneel to the heart, as the love of God is upon thee. Oh My son, let the mind be quieted. Put a stop to the continual circles of thought and fear and let the heart lead thee thru and always bring thee back unto Me. Yes My son, breathe into your heart and know. Yes, know the chill of Spirit is one of warmth and peace and love. Fear not the imitation, but focus on that which is with thee now and let the heart know and lead thee in peace. Oh My son, the light of love is upon thee even in this quiet hour of the morn. Know that the angels of light, truth and mercy are with thee and upon thee that the love of the Heavens might be safe and that the heart might be comforted in this truth and this honor of the order of God. My mind keeps questioning and wondering…“Which is a normal response after being in a state of peril. For the mind is in a state of alertness and in a state of protection, but what of the heart? Yes, it is in a state of peace, a state of knowingness. Cleave unto the heart and you will know Me. Stay in the mind and know the continual questionings of this existence, an existence of trust and non-trust, an existence of polarities that will keep you questioning even your questionings. For it is the purpose of the mind, it is the order of this existence, but it is not the way of the heart. The heart knows Me and the heart will lead thee unto Me. Yes My son, know thy heart and be true unto Me. Rest My son and know that My angels of love are with thee and around thee, even in this time of learning and lessons. A lesson well served and a lesson well learned. Bring forth your heart as you awake and know of Me. Peace My son, peace.”
August 27, 2013 Tuesday (10:00 am)
After waking, studying and reading the scriptures I slid out of bed onto my knees and after giving a prayer of gratitude and seeking guidance I heard, “Oh My son, write. Write the words of God.”
Pen now ready as I breathe into my heart that is already full of the Spirit that is causing the tears to stream…
“Oh My son, the hand of the Lord, thy God, is upon you that you might know the knowledge of He who sits on the throne of God. For what profith a man in isolation? But knowth the abiding love that pourth forth from the bosom of He that has created all things, and that is in all things and that is through all things. Oh My son, lift up thine eyes and see and know the heart of He who knoweth all and receiveth all.
The Lord God is well pleased at the sound of thy voice in holy communion and thy heart seekth the wisdom of the Heavens and the wisdom of this day. For when one seeks the wisdom of the Heavens in his daily efforts, it is then that the Heavens can pour out the blessings of guidance and love. Seek ye first Me, and then I will seek ye therefore first. Oh My son, the love of the Heavens is upon thee to bless thee and sanctify thee for My holy purpose and in the house of the Lord you will be blessed and know thy place, for what hath the Lord of All Creation to bring to pass among man, but if He prepareth not a way for that purpose and it is within thee that I prepareth the will of the Lord God made perfect. Come unto Me in holy communion that we might know one another as a man walketh with a friend with an arm around the shoulder and a word pressed into his ear of his friend. Oh My son, that ye might call Me, Friend and King! Walk with Me and know of My heart and I will bless you among men, that the words of judgment might be as broken arrows in the quivers of the wicked one and the wicked one may not harm thee in any way with thought, deed or action. Come unto Me, that I might bless thee with the love and armor of the Heavens. That is your armor that bears your name that is and has been your birthright from the beginning until this very moment in time. Know whom thou art and be of My love, and the blessings of Heaven will fill your days. Be ye therefore guardant of thought and action. Sanctify thyself unto Me and know that I abound in thee and for thee that My purpose might not be in vain. But might roll forth as a mighty wave that the children of men might know of the love and wrath that is kindled unto them. Oh My son of the morning, come unto Me and receive the blessed name of love that is yours, come unto Me. Yes My son, come unto Me.”
September 8, 2013 Sunday (5:30 am)
Woke up before my alarm and heard… “Write.”
“Yes My son write, for the will of the Lord is that ye should do thy bidding upon the earth, for thy mighty prayers and supplications have been heard and the heart of the Heavens is with thee in thy desires to be the servant of love and in the service of your beloved brother. For when the life is offered for the sake of another, it is in this thing that the Heavens marvel that the heart of man can be so softened to the will of the whole and the greater good of the plan of wisdom and love. For behold the wonder of the Lord of All Creation is at hand and it is a mighty hand that is at work. It is a loving hand that is upon the servant of love and the will of the Lord will go forth as a call to the servant to be of one heart and one love, and the work will go forth as a mighty wind as the Lord that has spoken His will and His command. For in this thing is the command of the Heavens, and in this thing is found the love of the soul and the uniting love of families. For when one is faced with the question of mortality, of continued life, it is then that the senses are sharpened and the will of life is given great respect, and it is in this will and respect that the lessons of love and devotion will be found. It is in this that the love of the Lord God, King of this world of wills and the servant of love will be united to the glory of the Master’s touch, for the love of the Master’s hand. And it is in this touch and this promise that the love of life is found and that the word of promise spoken.
Oh My son, the love of the heart is of great value, that one should be so willing to offer one life for the good of the other and it was in this that the Lord of Heaven and Earth is heard. And it is in this that the love of the Heavens are opened and the mighty hand of God is upon you, and your heart of love is heard evermore. For in this is the will and bidding of he that serveth Me and I command one to another that the will of Him is upon you both and the will of the Heavens will surround you both that a mighty work will go forth and the might of the law of the Heavens might be heard and felt with the lips and hearts attuned to the Lord of All Creation, and the love of the Master of wills and souls. For he that beareth My will is blessed beyond that which is given, and he that serveth with a heart of change and a heart of attunement will be blessed with the mighty hand and will of the God of All Creation. Think ye not that the Mighty Hand of Love cannot stay the hand of the physical and think ye not that the covenant will be heard in the love that is offered? Oh My sons of the morning light of love, can you not know the love that is upon you? Can you not see the hand of thy Lord and Savior? For if the love is carried with valor and the will given unto Me, how could I have not heard the mighty supplication that has come before Me and this love that is carried for the sake of the Heavens will be used for a mighty change. For in this change is the process that is before you. Think ye not that the hand of the Lord cannot stay the will of life and the love of the good of the heart? Think ye again and know that the will of the Lord is at work and His hand is upon His servants of love, for in this is the duty of the Heavens to abide with thee till the hand of the Lord reaches, for as a friend, to bid thee welcome. For the King of All Creation will be with thee as surely that the Lord of that day cometh.”
Just a note, the above writing was given as I was supplicating the Lord, offering my life in exchange for the life of a leader/friend who has shown me so much love and compassion in my returning to the Lord. This fellow servant of the Lord was recently given a diagnosis of a medical condition that could eventually take him from his family. In my feelings of love and compassion I thought that I am alone and the void would be much greater if he were to leave his family, but once again in the wisdom of the Lord, He reminds me of His will and blessing.
September 12, 2013 Thursday (4:30 am)
Woke and heard, “Write.” I am ashamed to say that my reply was less than noteworthy, but if you’ve read this far you pretty much know me, as I replied, “I am so tired.” And immediately heard, “Please write.” Followed by, “The world is at hand when it will know…”
Pen in hand and waiting…
“The world is at hand when the time of wrath will come, when all things will be made known unto those that are watching and waiting for the signs of them that are given the knowledge of the Heavens. For in these signs are the meanings that have been spoken. For in this time the Heavens will allow the forces of nature to take the course of its rumblings and shakings. When the Earth will show her protest and in that protest of what is, she will release her wrath upon her children and in this many will fall and give back that which was of her (death). For in her time is the will of the God of All Creation, that which has been spoken and waiting for all to see. As the words have been spoken, many will think that it is just nature taking its course, But unto those that know of My words and My warnings will know that it is of Me. So My beloved son, remember My name that ye should know that which is to come. And in this thing ye shall be warned and be prepared in the ways of sustaining the body. And in this you will know of the heart that I am a merciful God unto those that have an ear turned unto Me. Heed My call of preparedness and know that these things will be expedient for the counsel of action. Remember unto those that know My heart, is turned in love and warning. Therefore go ye forth and know of My love, and in this ye shall know Me. Yes My son, gather these things that have been pressing you in thought and know of My love.”
September 15, 2013 Sunday (6:30 am)
I just hit the snooze on my alarm, I am exhausted from working with little time off, but as I was in my sleep stupor I heard, “Write.” And then hearing, “The children of Men will …”
Pen now waiting and almost clear minded and hoping…
“The children of men will come to know the wisdom and the wrath of He who sits on the throne of Heaven, of He who commands all things and He who gives all life. For He who is the Creator and Father of All, will see that the children of fathers will be given every chance to come unto Him. Will be given opportunity to receive the will and turn their hearts back unto Him who loves them, blesses them and who sits on the throne of patience. But soon the time will come when the mercy of the Heavens will be met by the judgment of counsels and in this meeting will come the time of self- judgment and self-discipline. For every man, woman and child will know the wrath of their doings and that is in the law, and that which is in the covenant. Even that covenant that was, that was before the world was created, and housed by these the children of men. And it was at that time that all was agreed and all was given, that man might know of what was and is expected to receive every blessing and every judgment. For in every judgment is the oath and the covenant of the Heavens and in every blessing is in this very same oath. For I, the Lord God of All Creation, am bound by these very same laws and oaths and it is in this thing that the Heavens come in wrath and it is this thing that the Heavens wait to flow forth with the love of all loves. For if the children only knew the love that awaits and the glory that surrounds them. It was them that agreed and it is them that it awaits. For with everything there is what you have termed a ‘cause and effect’ with every law a blessing and a judgment, and with everything an order of balance. And it is in this My children and with this that the law is fulfilled. And it is in this that the laws and blessings and judgments are predicated. For when man sins or breaks a law it is this balance that must be kept and it is in this balance that the Heavens are ordered. For the wrath and judgment is truly a wrath and judgment of self and is of self-creation. For what one does adds to the whole, and what the whole of man receives, is received even unto the one. For in this is the law and order of all things pertaining Heaven and Earth and the relationship therein. Oh My children come unto Me, return to your own law that the love and blessings of that law might be fulfilled. For the love of the Father flowth freely but the law, every law, must be fulfilled. Take heed and know of My love and when you know of My love you will know that the hand of judgment and wrath is one of self-creation. You see My son, this truly is a world of creation and it is what is sown, one must reap. Therefore, come unto Me and keep My commandments, the laws that were set before the foundations of the world, in which all was agreed with oath and covenant. And therefore you know that I am a God of love that sits on a throne of love waiting for all to come unto Me. And in this coming forth unto Me, I am waiting with a loving hand to receive thee. Come forth My children and receive the hand that is reached out unto thee, and know the love of God. I plead thee return, return. Return to that which is your birthright and return to that which is a creation of love. Yes, return unto Me.”
September 17, 2013 Tuesday (6:10 am)
I’ve been hitting the snooze on my alarm as I heard, “Write.” I questioned and heard, “Yes write.” But being exhausted from my work schedule I fell back asleep. When I woke up again I questioned again and heard again, “Yes write.”
In apologies, the pen is now waiting…
“Oh My children hear the voice of thy Lord, God of All Creation and repent and come unto Me. For in thy gathering in repentance unto Me is then My wrath given unto patience and mercy shown. For in this is the way of true freedom and peace. And I say unto you that the things of this generation doth cause Me much concern for the dealings of man, one unto another, is an abomination unto Me and in this doth the angels of heaven plead to pull back the veil and to show the wrath that is stirred in the multitudes, to reign down the judgments that man has brought upon himself. And in this wrath will the earth shake and the waters rise and the winds blow and there will rise a great commotion of all manner of calamities. And in this, the ones that know and heed the signs of Me, will know that the Heavens doth prepare for My coming. And in this thing will there be much commotions and disruptions of peoples and governments and the stirrings of he who fights against Me will be held in the hearts of the wicked. And in this thing will cause much affliction upon My beloved ones, but fear not My beloved ones for you are in My heart and in My love. And in this, you will with a surety of which you stand, you will know of which I came unto My own, and in this you will know that I am He whom the prophets have spoken for millennium. For it is I the Lord of Creation and the Savior, that will reign even as My Father reigns and doth command Me. For in this thing hath He commanded that the love and the mercy of the Heavens be withheld unto that day, that the Earth releases her restraints and the peoples of the Earth will hear her moans from deep within her bowels and in this she will begin to shake and throw off that which hath bound her. And she will begin to know the beginnings of change and move into her state of glory for even she hath and doth cry unto Me to come saying, “Oh come my husband of love, come in thy love and receive thy bride, for in this will we become one heart and purpose, and I will give myself unto Thee that thou shalt be one in love and purpose.
Oh My children, hear My pleas and hear My callings that thou shalt come back unto Me before this day of commotions and disturbances doth come. For in that day when the Earth doth release her binds, I will not hear thy cries, for the day of repentance will be past and in this day of reckoning will begin the events that will bring My coming. Come unto Me this day and know who I am, so that you might know in that day that the Lord God cometh. Even so I am at the door, receive Me, receive Me and hear My call unto you.”
September 19, 2013 Thursday (5:46 am)
I was woken up by a buzzing mosquito at about 3:30 am, and as I was awake heard, “Write.” But I unfortunately fell back asleep. Upon waking now I inquired and again heard, “Yes, write My son.”
And again an apologetic hand awaits with pen to flow with His words…
“The time will come when all peoples will begin to sense that the change of the Earth is fast approaching as they will be reading the signs of change… I am having a hard time with the focus. I am willing, but my mental state is all over the place. The mosquito from my earlier awakening returned and so I pursued it with success. In returning, I then had to use the restroom and now feeling disjointed in thought and mixed feelings of guilt of leaving the Heavens waiting and killing one of their creations. So not being able to get a clear focus again and want the writings to come through as clear as possible. I’m willing, but disjointed in my thoughts … let me check in. After kneeling in a prayer of apologies, I was told to continue and my mind would become clear again.
So pen again waiting…
“Yes My son as I was speaking, the peoples of the earth will be reading the signs of change, but will be reading them as earth changes of the physical. It is deeper in her spirit that they will not be knowing, that this is the cause of such change as she awakens to My command and as she awakens to My love. For she that knows My voice, that knows My love will begin to move and change to that which is fast approaching. For it has been long awaited and it is fast approaching the time of union, the time of glory. When the Heavens will be revealed and the earth will receive her state of rest, as My feet walk upon her once more, in My glory, and she and I will be as one. And in this she will be the footstool of God. For in this she will rest, and will be the first phase of receiving her glory. When all things will change and in this she will reign even as the house of God and in this receive her glorified state. But until that day the world of man will be rocked and in this he will ask and wonder in his thinking, about such changes but will be seeing the changes from only his one perspective and in this he will not welcome that which will occur and view them as a negative. But those who are of Me, will praise the Heavens and praise the changes for they will know that the day cometh with My return and they will join in with the praise of earth and Heaven. Oh peoples of the earth, know that I am near and that the day quickly cometh when all will know My name and know that I am He, even the Christ of the World. Therefore, repent and come unto Me that I might receive you as a friend, and the angels of Heaven will know thee and pass by as that day of reckoning will precede Me. Therefore, come unto Me now that the hand of the Lord might be upon thee in that day. Know ye of Me and My heart and I will know ye in that day. Yes, My children come unto Me.”
September 30, 2013 Monday (5:30 am)
I just woke up without my alarm with a thirst that made my throat sore and as I went and got a drink, I heard, “Write.” In hearing I asked, ‘Are you sure, Father?’ And heard an immediate, “Yes, I want to talk with thee.” I responded, “For some reason I am nervous.” And heard, “I love thee.” With these words my concerns eased.
Pen now ready as I breathe into my heart …
“Oh My son, the love of the Heavens is upon you and for you and protecting you, so cast thy fears upon Me, and let the Heavens of light and love have thee and support thee. Dear son of My heart, the world is changing and the hearts of man are far from Me. In this is the anger of the Heavens kindled unto a fire of destruction, for in this anger is My love, but in this love is the desire of My heart to bring My children back unto Me. For you see My son, this has been the way from the beginning even unto this very day. The ebb and flow of creation of man, for it is the nature of this plane and it is the nature of the evolution of man. For when the heart is close to Me the blessings flow and the contentions of the heart will cease, but as the security of the heart is felt and the times are good it is then that mankind forgets his way and his love and his connection in so much as to let the prince of darkness to enter in and it is in this that the desires of the heart wax strong in the enticing of the wicked one. For you have even felt this ebb and flow on a smaller scale with your own heart and it is of this that I speak and it is of this that I know the hearts and devotion of man. And it is of this and the time of this world that has been spoken and it is of this time that I speak. For the hearts of man are far from Me and in this is My wrath kindled unto a flame and it is in this that the love of God burns bright that mankind might not be lost but brought to his knees again and that the wicked one revealed unto the true deceiver and he that leadeth them away from Me. For this has been the plan from the foundations of this world even until now. For in this thing I have heard your questionings and your cries unto Me, ‘Oh Father protect me and rescue me from he who wishes to have me.’ And it is in this cry that draws Me to thee and with this one desire, I bring forth My armies of love to even protect the one that cries out unto Me. For in this the Heavens are softened and the flame of love is turned unto thee. But know My son that the hearts of the most do not cry out and seek Me, but are beguiled and seek unto themselves even in their lust of desires. Yes, desires of every kind that do not lead them back unto Me. For your eye of desire was awakened even yesterday as the commercial drew and enticed in subtle ways and ways of the world, and you were aware of the enticing and ‘sexy’ (a word I used to mentally described what I saw) the nature of the ways that are now enticing and leading even these that claim to be My children of hope. For even in these ways of advertising it draws the heart with desire using enticements of man for image and pleasure that are the ways of the world. And as it led you, for even you could see with an awareness, the chasm of difference between Me and the glories of the world. For in the thinking of man is, ‘what is wrong? We are just seeking some fun,; we are just showing the pleasures of this world in which we live.’ And I say unto you, ‘Know that the pleasures of this world doth fall unto corruption and rust and decay, but the pleasures of My world are set in love and doth not lift thee on the backs of others. But doth lift for all to stand and embrace his true nature, which is beyond the beguiles of the world, but unto a heart that lifts and loves all.’
Oh My children, come unto Me and know of My love, come unto Me and know of the joys of the heart. For they speak of Me, but lift their hearts unto pleasures and not the true joy that hath no corruption and no beguilement, but the joy of everlasting love of the heart of God. I can hear your questioning mind and nature about even My love and anger. And I say unto you, ‘That even as I anger of the ways of the world, it is in this that I truly love and guide and teach.’ For if man were left to his own desires it would not lift him in the ways of love, but unto the pleasures of the physical and in these ways the world has fallen many times and the cries doth come back unto Me to save and rescue. For it is in this that man was created to become, even as I, and it is in this that these realms of creation are explored to further the plan to bring them unto Me. So come My children, come unto Me. Come and receive the love that is yours. For it is this that I have told thee to write and it is in this that I call unto My children, that they might know the true voice of love that will lift them up unto the true reward of the heart. Come back My children, return to the heart of God and know that which is written upon the heart. Come back unto Me.”
(Just a note, I am at a conference in Irvine, California and during the conference they showed a very sleek, modern and ‘sexy’ commercial for an upcoming event in Miami. It wasn’t inappropriate as far as morality, but felt very based in the pleasures of the world.)
October 3, 2013 Thursday (3:30 am)
I’ve been in a soft fading in and out of sleep, when I heard, “Write.”, a while ago and now heard a stronger, “Write My son, I want to speak with thee.”
Pen in hand and breathing as I wait for the flow…
“Yes My son, I want to speak with thee concerning the way things are moving in the state of what is to come. For I have heard your conversations and want to be clear that those things that are and have been spoken are for those whom come unto Me in humility and …(Breathe My son and let it flow freely) … For those who come unto Me in humility and with a seeking heart. For those who are not ready to hear thy words will reject them and cast your words as waste that is meant for garbage. And I say unto you, ‘Fear not the opinion of man, but fear the judgments of thy God.’ Therefore cast not your words of love upon the ears of the deaf and cast not your love upon the loveless. Yes My son, I can hear your questioning as to the meaning of these things when we speak to you, to love one another and to speak even to those who believe not, that they might have a chance of softening of heart. And I say unto you, ‘That the ground is ready for the planting of the seed, only if the ground has been prepared and tilled and care taken provision for the planting. Fear not these words, but it is a caution to waste not the seeds of love upon those not ready to hear the things of God.”
I am so confused. This writing feels like a contradiction to what was expected. Father I mean no disrespect, but I am confused and questioning. I have been having a hard time with the flow and now I am becoming distraught. Father, again I mean no disrespect, but now my mind is cluttered with doubt and things are not flowing freely. Forgive me.
“Rest unto thyself and know that We love thee.”
October 6, 2013 Sunday (6:30 am)
I just woke out of a deep sleep, after sleeping just three and half hours the night before, because of my heavy workload. As I wake this morning I hear, “Write.” I respond, ‘I am afraid.’ And hear a immediate reply, “You must get on it again.” And I am brought into understanding because of my last writing and my struggle with focus and the flow of the writing. As I am writing this preface, I am also hearing the words and begin to write …
“Yes My son, the Lord God is upon thee and asks thee to write and record that which is spoken and in these words are the truths of all things that are, and what is and what will come. For in these words are the things that I should have you know and the things in which you should garnish your life, the truth of all things. Oh My son, the world is far from Me, as you hear of wars and the rumors of wars. And the hearts of man has waxed strong against one another and the hatred for one another and the waste of the wealth that is poured out upon all nations and lands are not given unto all peoples, but only unto a few and in this thing I am not well pleased. My heart is driven to wrath and the cries for My cleansing wrath is heard from all the Heavens, and it is in this that I will cause many things to fall upon the children of man, even My children. That they might remember once more and fall upon their knees in fear and trembling that their hearts might quake, as even the earth. That all devastation might make them remember for which purpose they were created and shake them from the pleasures of the carnal and flesh and back to that which is of the heart.
Yes My son, for even this will bring out the true soul of evil in others as they loot and release the unrest of anger. And yet in all of this it will humble the rich that have turned from Me, and the powerless will rise up and in this there will be much commotion and disruption. And in this is the reign of terror on every level from the buffetings of the wicked one to that which man might fall showing unto all men their true nature. And in bringing forth that which has been spoken and written, even from the beginning of times and in this the words and visions will be fulfilled and in this will be the paving for that which is to follow and for that which the world has been waiting and doubting, My return, and for others My coming. But when the physical is shown all will fall upon bended knee and then will some mourn for what is revealed, and as some tears fall in the pain of heart, even more tears will fall because of the joy of knowing Me, the Savior of the world and Deliverer of bondage, to the source of all freedom. And the fears will fall away, as the chains that bind, and the hearts of many will leap with joy and rejoicing for they will welcome Me as an old friend, in whom they have been waiting. So in this, all the world will know that the Son of Man and the Son of God returneth and hath come. And in this all the world will know that the Lord God cometh to reign and in this all will be given and all will be fulfilled.
My son, I can hear your many wonderings, but it is in these wonderings that the words of the writings will be given and it is now to know that which is now given. For doth it not sufficeth thee that the Lord God speaks of that which is? And doth it not bring your heart unto Me to know that the pen will bear My words? And doth it not bring the mind unto knowledge of the things to come and want to prepare for in the disruptions you will be ready and know and in these things not fear the unrest, but know of which is to come? Oh My son, prepare ye that you might have a heart unto Me and know and hear the words written, there upon that the Source of All Things might dwell in thee. That the mind might not wonder and wander in fear, but that the heart will be with Me and Me in it. The peace of the body will be strong, even unto an unmovable rock in which all the house will stand. Oh My son, stand strong and know whom thou art, in all things, and let the mindless wanderings of thought and desires pass through, like a breeze that doth not linger and let the mighty winds of the Lord God clean the house of the mind. Oh My children, come unto Me and know of which I speak. For some are wanting details to know and hold, but I say unto you, that the details will be revealed even as they come. But it is in the faith of knowing that I ask and in this faith that the lesson of knowing will be revealed. For what good of knowing will cause thee to believe and to return to Me. But all will be revealed and when the revelation cometh the wisdom will be found in the knowing. But first believe and have faith in which hath been spoken thus far and in this the trust of all things will be built. Oh My son, remember these things as more is poured out that the lessons of remembering might come into your heart. Yes, I can see that you are full and that the mind and attention is waning. Therefore, seek ye the knowing of these words that the others might follow. Ponder and know, that the Heavens might continue to pour out upon thee, even so.”
October 13, 2013 Sunday (1:00 am)
I just finished a long difficult work week and in coming home late and I decided to treat myself to some downtime of television, and just finished watching the movie, ‘Lincoln’. And as I knelt at my bedside, for my evening prayer, a solemnness came over me and as I was praying of thanks I was told to “Write.” Without the usual completion to my prayer I now lay on my bed with the pen waiting and still giving thanks in my heart.
“Oh My son, the challenge of life is to be as a man alone unto himself in the throes of opinions, emotions and the rages of outside influences. It is when one can declare for himself his truth on which he stands, it is then that the moral man is born and the man of opinions and influences gives way to this, higher self, that is just a shadow of even the high which is born of Me. Know ye this and you will know the value of strength, the value of fortitude and the value of trials. For when one can pass through the depth of trials and find himself on firm ground and on the ground of honor and strength, it is then that the man knows of himself and of Me. You call upon Me and you call upon My name to bless thee. And I say unto you, ‘That in this humbleness of self it is then that the heart of God is exposed and the numbing effects of the self exposed unto the truths of the glory of God.’
Oh My son, oh My children, come unto Me with a humble heart and stand on this, even the firm ground of God, and know of which I speak. Know that which is housed in the annals of the Most High and know that which is of Me, and that which is offered unto you. The words of truth shall always be offered unto those that are willing to hear and willing to be one in the heart and mind of God. Remember My son, stay near to Me and the doors of Heaven shall be offered to thee. Yes, even in this, which has been shown. Blessings to you and rest your mind and body. Peace My son, peace.”
October 19, 2013 Saturday (5:15 am)
Waking from a dream state of spiritual teachings and phrases being spoken and as I come into the waking world I hear, “Write.” Mixed in with the phasing, as if tracking both worlds at the same time. And then in my waking world I hear a stronger, “I command thee to write.” As I get up and get a pen and paper, I begin to hear, “My son your prayers of humbleness have touched My heart.”
Pen now ready as I breathe and question my clarity after working late with just a few hours of sleep…
“Oh My son, the will of the Father is that ye should humble thyself on bended knee and accept the blessing given. Now…”
With this command I get out of bed and on bended knee the blessing is given. My only wish is that it could have been recorded, for I didn’t know if it was appropriate to write the words as they were spoken and didn’t want to interrupt the flow of what was happening so quickly. After the blessing I was then told to continue to write and He will continue to speak to me.
“Oh you see My son, that the will is upon you and the calling given in My command and as I have spoken it, I will prepare the way before thee that thou shalt know of that which I have spoken, that ye might fulfill My command and have your questions of concern answered. Oh My son, the words will flow and the Spirit will guide thee in that which is commanded. Go forth to the land of My people from the beginning of this time (dispensation and meaning Salt Lake City or Utah) and I will give thee a path that will guide thee in that which I am preparing thee. All will be made known as I give thee command and I require in thee a heart willing to trust and follow that which is given. Trust My son, trust and line upon line will be given for thee to accomplish that which thou hast just been called. Ponder My words and thou shalt receive insight upon insight that ye might know. Receive Me and ponder.”
Just a note, as I pondered the writing I saw myself in Utah and meeting with a church official. It was then that I tried to reason and ask to switch to seeing another official, because I have been drawn to his heart connection and his emotional side while hearing him speak. It was made clear that I should visit with the first general authority that was inspired to see. I am sorry to admit that there is a part of me that is observing all of this, that is questioning, concerned and that is keeping this all grounded and in check… and even questioning my sanity (That I don’t become a raving lunatic! … written in half humor and with some concern.)
October 20, 2013 Sunday (1:45 pm)
I have been pondering yesterday’s experience and even decided to confide in Dad last night as I stopped by for a visit. All day I have returned to the experience over and over in my mind; thinking of what was spoken and how it might fit into the realities of my life. When I had the experience I was in total submersion of Spirit and awe of what was happening and then I was thrown into the other reality of life and work, full of questions and even doubts. I didn’t doubt that I had the experience, but what it means and how I am now to assimilate it into my life and this reality. So after all day of the rumblings within me, I decided to ask Dad for his opinion of what to do and the reality of my experience. For if I turn from this, I turn from the Lord and all I have been given and all that has been built over the last several years. But on the other hand to take this leap, this action of faith is terrifying to one who just wants to disappear into the church pews. So with some difficulty I managed to get out what had transpired, sharing my feelings, concerns and my dilemma. After listening to me share the experience, Dad started to take a safe route as he sidestepped around an opinion. It was then that I asked him as my patriarch, of what to do and how to approach the experience. I then watched him rise in the strength of his calling and he told me that I needed to follow as I was directed to do and as the Lord instructed in His words, “The way would be prepared before you.” Dad then admonished me, not to let my mind question, rationalize and detour me from what the Lord had asked, but to gather my faith and strength and to trust in what had been spoken. Dad then opened up and shared that he doesn’t like to share his experiences because of the opinions of others, he explained, “People then try to pigeon hole my experience into their own reality.” We continued to converse and I could feel my burden begin to lift or at least lighten in it’s weight; and I could see the union of combined effort and support.
Whew, what a full day today has been, from the first day of my new church calling as a ward (congregation) greeter. Yes! The very same one who wants to disappear into the church pews, to now having to meet and greet people. And then to top it off as Dad and I arrived early so I could be in place as the people entered and we both were asked to give the opening and closing prayers of our sacrament meeting. Dad gave an eloquent opening prayer and of course I got choked up with the Spirit and could hardly find my voice as I spoke the words, “call upon the Lord and his angels of mercy and love to administer to the ‘H’ and ‘M’ families with peace and comfort.” As both families are both facing hardships. Even now as I write and think again of beseeching the Heavens I begin to tear up. Yes a full day, because there is even more; after sacrament meeting the Bishop asked if we could meet to discuss a writing that I had shared with him about two months ago. The writing involved both of us and he wanted to get some clarification. There is more I could write about this but want to respect his privacy and have to now run off to participate in a memorial/ birthday celebration for a member of my mediation group, ‘S’, who past just recently of cancer. So all in all, a full day and it is only partially complete!
October 21, 2013 Monday (6:30 am)
I had a restless sleep, waking up often, but not hearing to write. And now that I am fully awake I hear, “Write My son.” Quickly followed by…
“My love is with you as you strive for the path of righteousness, but you must beware as you do so, because there are many realms and many snares that could lead you away from the simple and pure path back to Me. For this is why the path is made simple, because of the complexity of the order of all creation. And that is why the simple path is the sure path and the awareness of all else is good, but do not get lost in the wandering labyrinth of creation. For now you are glimpsing why the world of spirit still is able to have doubt, fear and disbelief. Fear not this which is before thee, but know that the sure path is not the path of complex ideas and notions, but one of simple truths and within those teachings are the glimpse into the complexities of all creation. But follow My teaching and hold true to that which is spoken and taught by My servants of love, whom have been called to lead My flock. And as you do you will know that the worlds of creation are many, but the world of love is of Me and I will lead thee through that which is of the most important for your return and salvation. Remember the way is simple and the peripheral is complex to the view of one not accustomed to such things. The will of the Lord of All Creation is upon thee, so fear not the things that are not seen, but trust in the arm and might of He that has called you forth, and all will be well. Heed these things and the Spirit of Love and Mercy will continue to be your friend. Peace My son, peace.”
October 27, 2013 Sunday (6:00 am)
Waking this morning on my own and hear a soft, “Write.” I reply with “Thank You Father.” And begin to hear, “Yes write, the time is coming when the heart will lead you.”
Pen now waiting…
“Yes My son, the heart will be your connection and your guide, and you will need to be as one with Me, and it is now that is your time to purge that which is within that will not serve and that which is of concern. For the residue of your past, the roots of that which was of your belief and your desires are still rooted in the ways of the world, and it is not the ways of Me. Yes My son, I can hear your questioning mind, about the subject of the influence of the dark one, the one that fights against Me and the spirit nature of his being rooted in you. Yes, what you have been reading has some truth to it, inasmuch as it is a good analogy of how one might exercise the right of passage of he that fights against Me and it is a good guide to how one might fashion one’s life to safeguard against the influences of the dark one. But it is also based in the fear of those religions that are in the fear of God and are in the focus of the evil one and in the fear of his control. I would have thee to focus on the love of God, on the love that I am and on the love to serve Me, on the singleness of mind and heart, for when one is on the watch and guard of fear it is then that the love is missed. For one cannot feel the love of God in the fear of the every move of the wicked one. Oh My son keep your eye on Me, focus your heart on Me and the desires of the mind and past will not serve thee. And the wicked one will give no heed when the heart is single to Me. When you choose to love and serve the true God of man, and All That Is, the Creator, even I Jesus Christ. For when My name is spoken with the intent of the heart, the wicked one must flee and it is in this that is in the true nature and authority. For when your blessings of the Priesthood are restored, it is then that the angels of Heaven will serve every righteous desire. For fear not until that time, for have not still the angels of love surrounded thee and have you not found the love of God with thee? So know My son, that the hand of God is upon thee and that the angels will still heed the wisdom of the heart. My son focus unto Me and let the fears of the wicked one be unto him. And in this you will be guided unto following your heart and in so doing you will be guided unto Me. Know My son that the love of the Heavens is upon you and that the love is the guide of the heart. Remember to continue to prune that which does not serve you and light your way and you will be in a place to receive Me and My guidance. Therefore come unto Me in your prayers and supplications and let your heart be your guide in all that you do. Focus on Me and be in peace My son, peace.”
October 29, 2013 Tuesday (5:45 am)
I woke up before My alarm and heard, “Oh My son, let Me comfort thee.” And in hearing these words I replied, ‘Father I need your words of comfort.’ And heard in response, “Write and let Me love thee.”
Pen in hand and breathing into my heart…
“Oh My beloved son, I send thee words of comfort and praise to soften thine heart and to show thee the way before thee. Your prayer of pleas has been heard and your heart of hurt is softened unto love. For My son and beloved servant, I know whom thou art, I know the whispers of desire to serve Me. And I know that the act of faith is a challenge for one so loving and one so challenged with the mind of self, that cares so much for the acceptance of others and fears the judgments of man. And My son, if it were not that the soul of the Supreme One, has not bore the weight… Yes My son, trust the words, fight them not and they will flow… and witness of who thou art, you would not even stand in this place that thou stand, you would have returned (meaning death) to Me years ago. But know My son, know whom thou art and in this knowing the comfort and love will pour unto thee. Oh My son, I can hear your questioning mind that questions the self and the sanity therein, asking if this is a figment of your imagination, asking if your sanity has been compromised and that this is a creation of the self to boost thee up and I say unto you know. Behold the wonder that is… yes, stop and behold the wonder that is…
Trying to write through tears, but am mixed in My heart with feelings of comfort and love, but still doubting myself and the grandiosity of things being taught and manifested. As I saw the veil pulled back and there was a multitude of spirit beings gathered as a choir and singing a praise unto me and it was revealed that this is the way of the Heavens in their love and support. That their songs of hope and praise are sung unto us to help us and support us and they were focused unto me in love and song that I might receive the comfort and love that I need. I could not hear the singing, but saw the intent, perhaps because I went into overwhelm and disbelief. Again, about it being part of this grandiose creation of an unstable mind.
“Stop! Oh My son, what is it that would comfort the ramblings of such thinking? I show thee love and it is too ‘grandiose’ for the human mind. I show thee comfort and the heart will not accept and I show thee patience and the mind doth not accept My love and offering. If it that this mind, your mind, was not in a wounded state, I would surely smite thee even as you stand, but oh My son, turn unto Me and trust all that hast been given. For has and is this not the desires of your heart to be of Me and to have the mysteries of the world revealed? Have you not wanted to be a part of both worlds and have you not asked and pleaded unto Me to return? And here it is that I bless thee with this, even to stand in both worlds and to receive the love that is and you cast the offerings at the feet of shame and disbelief. And I say unto you, ‘That if it were not that the heart is of Me, I would have sent you unto that which thou seekest, even unto death. But oh My son, even in this weakened state, My heart is softened unto thee because of just that, your weakness and woundedness. For if the mind was not so I would have turned My heart from thee, but in this your humbleness that I come again unto thee and tell thee, My son of the morning, know whom thou art.
‘Oh Father, I am afraid to fully see, to fully accept because of the buffetings of this world, that can be so cruel.’
“Oh My son, I am far too merciful in as much as you fear man over God. Do you not know that I could let the angels of love depart and the angels of the dark one could even over take thee and devour all that is good and sacred? That I, God of All Creation, could send forth every manner of judgment upon thee, that I could cast thee into the depths of despair, and yet thou doth still fear the judgments of man. Oh My son, come unto Me on bended knee that My heart still might be softened, that My soul doth remain in the state of loving grace that flows freely. For My beloved son, thou hast seen the future, thou hast been given the truth of what is and still thou doth question. Yes, I hear that you question not the experiences, but of which the experiences are manifest. And can you not even see how that is a slap in the face unto the Heavens that serve thee? Can you not see that the source of truth and love that flow is of a nature that is not of thee? Oh My son, bend thy knee and pray, bend thy knee and beg that the Heavens of love might continue to pour the love that is for thee. Oh My son, come unto Me in mighty supplication that the ways of Heaven continue for thee, and in this you will find your way. For in this thou will know of which I speak and thou will know of which is. For thou hast come before Me in the past and thou will come before me again that I might remain with thee. Oh My son, thinkth thou that I am Omnipotent and that I do not know all things of which is and even in that which will be? Yes, know this and know of what will be, but if the mind is such a weakened state, thou would not accept the great wonder. Bend thy knee and ponder.”
I have been praying for forgiveness and asking, pleading, begging for the Heavens and the Father to not turn from me, but to have mercy on me and to show me the way in baby steps, that I might know the way and begin to trust myself and my experiences. As I was pleading I was shown to reach out for support from those around me. I have begged the Heavens to not turn from me and yet I still find myself questioning. What is going to get me through my doubting and questioning nature!?! Oh please help me Heavens! Help me heal myself!
November 1, 2013 Friday (5:42 am)
I’ve been restless since about four o’clock this morning, so I read some and still found myself restless as I put the book down in half waking and half pondering state, when I heard, “Come ye My son unto the covenant.” I am not sure if there is more as I paused and then heard, “Yes, I will speak to thee. Oh My son, it is now that the Lord God of All Creation is upon thee, to aid thee and sanctify thee unto that which has been written and spoken. For in this is My work and My glory to bring to pass the glory of all mankind, and in this work is the word of My mouth and the workings of My Spirit, and in this endeavor is My heart. For in this is My call unto many nations of the youth and unto all peoples of the earth to hear My call and My trump. For the call is and has gone forth and the cry and shout of the Heavens is heard, as one cry and one voice, be ye therefore attuned unto Me that our hearts might be one and in this thing then shall we be one, even as the angels of God are one in Me. And in this is My word to ‘Come unto Me’ that the word, My word might be heard among all peoples. For it is a bold word and a loving word, and in this word is My salvation unto all peoples and unto every kindred of being that dwelleth there so. Oh My people hear My voice and lift up thy voice in honor and praise that the word might go forth, as the mighty rock rollth forth. Oh peoples of the world, hear Me and hear My voice in the testifying of this even My gospel and My truth, for in this is thy salvation and the sanctity of the world. Have ye not heard the cry of the Heavens? Have ye not heard the joyous praise of My angels, as we unite as one body and one word in the work to be done? Lift up thine eyes oh ye servants of the Lord and behold that which is about you. Cast thine eyes round about and know that which surrounds you, that guides you and is working for the good of thy favor. Cast thine eyes from the tarry and things of the world and know ye that which is here to lift thee up and sanctify thee and bring thee unto the Covenant of Peace. For in this is the word of the Heaven’s heard and in this is the word given. For with all My peoples I have made a covenant throughout all times, as it is now with thee and this generation. That ye might enter into My word and know Me; that ye might know that which is and that which is to come. For in this ye shall know of which I speak and know the word that is upon your hearts, that ye might know My will as I cometh. For even as that day surely cometh in which every knee shall bend and profess Me of who I am, the Lord of Hosts, and Savior and Redeemer of All. So be ye therefore with My word and My truth, that ye might know Me in that day that I might come to thee as a friend. Oh My children, come unto Me in all ways and in all things that I might call you Mine. Seek ye My word and I will seek you, even so in this is My word and My command. To come unto Me and enter into My word and in this, ye shall know Me.”
November 3, 2013 Sunday (8:30 am)
Feeling the beginning of a head cold coming on and decided to stay home from church, so I don’t infect other people as my calling as a greeter. So here I am in bed reading the scriptures and was drawn to the Book of Joshua in the Old Testament, reading of Jericho, and of all the other destructions and killings. I laid my scriptures down, being filled with enough accounts of destructions, and said out loud, “Lord why so much destruction and killing?” As soon as I finished with the last word I heard, “It was to set a precedent unto those people, even unto the people of this time, that those that fight against Me shall perish.” I then thought again, of the women, children and whole cities destroyed and as I thought, I heard, “A soul is a soul unto Me and it mattereth not of an age. For those that fight against Me shall perish even unto their offspring. For of Me, life shall be given and the Lord of All Creation shall take that which is given to teach that which must be known. Oh My children, come unto Me that ye might not know that which is to come, that ye might not be against Me, but in My favor.”
Later in the morning (10:30 am)
An interesting day as I lay in bed resting with my cold symptoms, as I rested I was reading in the Doctrine and Covenants section 88, absorbed in the words spoken to Joseph, and in a flash I thought of my friend ‘W’, who has been struggling on a project for her church and in that moment I saw an answer to her struggle. So texted her and she immediately called and shared that she was now at her church in her worship service and was saying a prayer for guidance about her project and heard in answer, “Trust in Divine guidance.” And then I called with my message of what I saw, she expressed her gratitude of that connection and the input.
I am now showered and cleansed and had a desire to kneel before the Lord in a prayer of thanksgiving for the blessings. As I did so I thought of how earlier in the week I was instructed that with it being Fast and Testimony meeting and that I should stand and bear witness, so now here I am sick. Dad joked when I shared this with him and he said that it was probably because of this that I became ill, he knows me well and how I have a hard time speaking in front of people. I almost went to church because of that command, but now here as I knelt in prayer, it came to me that I can still bear that witness with my spoken word. And so on bended knee I gave a prayer of thanks and then bore witness to these that hear and to the energy that sends forth, that Jesus is the Christ and to the glory of God, and to the divine calling of our brother Joseph. As I spoke the words aloud it felt good to do as I was commanded, even though it was not as I expected.
Also I was told because of my being sick, I could break my fast early, but I responded that it was my desire to complete a full fast to show the Lord that I am wanting to fulfill His commands. I know that a fast is a small sacrifice, but want to show even in small ways that I am committed to Him and this path.
November 6, 2013 Wednesday (2:30 am)
Heard a soft, “Write.”, as I was in a deep sleep and so here I am with pen in hand and finding my clarity…
“The time shortly passes unto that time when the Lord God of All Creation will call forth the beginning of the end. When the time for preparation will cease and that which was given will be for those that await the beginning of all words fulfilled. For this is the time to get ready and let no man say unto you, ‘for what cometh is in the hands of God and let Him say prepare and then I will prepare.’ For he that awaits a cry from the Heavens is a deaf man, for hath not the God of man been calling forth this cry and hath not the Lord of His sheep been gathering them unto His flock that the flock might be fulfilled? And I say unto you, ‘Behold, the hour is nigh when the time of preparation will be of the past and the reckoning will begin to count forth the days and hours of it’s beginning. Remember My son, the time of the Lord is of the Heavens and the time of man is of the earth. So fear not that thou are not in the completion of all things, but know that thou art nigh in the time to end your preparations and in this time no man knoweth when the clock of the Heavens will sound and the time of reckoning will begin with a shout and in this shout the holy angels of Heaven will send forth the first wave of judgment and in this wave the earth shall rock on her axis with such might that all the world will know that the change of God is upon them and in this they will fear and quake, but those that know will be in a heart of preparedness and have a quiet assuredness in which will give them peace amongst the fears of the beginning of things to come.
Oh My son, take heed in this that is not a warning, but a command to make this your day to prepare in all things for that which cometh. And as that day cometh fear not, but know that the hand of mercy and love is upon you and your people that you call family and friends that call you friend and brother. Seek ye the things of knowledge and seek ye the ways of that to sustain upon a land of no means. Seek ye Me in these things and I will bring forth that which ye would know and the books of all understanding will be made known unto you. Let these words overwhelm you not, but bring thee honor and peace that the hand of the God of Mercy is upon you and touches you to know such things. Be ye therefore in Me and know the peace of all things. Peace unto you My son, peace.”
November 7, 2013 Thursday (6:15 am)
Just woke up and immediately after I woke my alarm went off and as I switched it off I heard in a softness, “Write.” In which I replied, “Yes Father, I will write for Thee.”
Pen now waiting as I breathe into my heart for clarity…
“Yes My son, the time is here for you to learn the lesson of thanksgiving and love, for it is only in the service of others that you will be able to receive the knowingness of the depth to which one can know the heart and it is in the service of others that you serve Me. For I can hear your wondering mind and I now speak of the service of those whom you find in your travels. Such as the woman yesterday whom I asked for you to assist, and it was your mind that rationalized the rejection of Spirit, because of not wanting to interrupt or intrude. Yes My son, it was the Spirit that was speaking that directed you and it was the mind that wiggled and evaded, not because of a lack of love and empathy, but because the fear of response, engagement and intrusion. Also it is another challenge to be seen and to bring upon you the public focus, which is so painfully difficult for you. But My son, in the lesson you will find that which you have been asking, the power to discern and to know the call of Spirit and in this you will be called to be seen and act and in this it will give you small act upon act to chip and break through that fear that has kept you from serving those and reaching out unto those in need. Yes, I can hear your questions, and yes I will guide thee unto those to pass by and those to reach out and in this you will know further My voice and My call. It is in this that the true lessons of service will break through those barriers of fear and the heart will be free to serve, as it desires as you see the needs of others. Oh My son, fear not for I can feel you anxiety of concern of what I will ask of thee and of your time restraints as you live your busy life. Know that there will be times when you make choices and mistakes, but this is to build that which you have been asking, to teach thee the guidance and to help break you through your fears. Trust My son and I will guide thee, release thyself unto Me and you will receive the joy of service and heart. Peace My son, peace.”
November 8, 2013 Friday (6:10 am)
Just woke up before my alarm and heard immediately, “Oh My son, fear not that which is on the horizon, for the change is for the good of man.”
“For in this I have decreed that the Heavens watch and wait until the day cometh of My coming. And as the earth changes upon her axis so with the conditions of the climates and the tides and all manner of weathers will be upon the peoples of the earth, but in this is the good for when this day cometh fall upon bended knee and give thanks and praise for thou knowest that My day will surely come and in this will be the joy of the world and in this will be the glory of Heaven and earth. So My son, the change of which you fear is for the good and in this good is your and mankind’s glory. So rejoice in this which is upon you and it is then that the angels of the Heavens will increase their watch and care and the guidance, of them that watch over My children of My fold will be as in the beginning of a mother’s watch over her newborn. So learn to heed thy promptings and in this is the key to survival and care. Know that the Heavens is upon thee and in this will be thy comfort. Fear not My son, and be at peace. Rest My son and ponder.”
November 10, 2013 Sunday (5:30 am)
Just a few hours of sleep and as I was stirring I heard a soft, “Write, My son.” As I heard this I began to doze off again when I heard, “Please write.” I questioned my clarity and then heard, “I will be with thee.”
Pen now waiting…
“My son, My son the will of the Lord God is that ye should be in the house of My worship and that ye should be as a soul of good cheer, that the love that is with thee should be in thy countenance and that thou should not whisper in shame, but to be as a man who knows his truth and stands on the ground of God, even a firm ground. For when thou presented thy message to My servant it was in a manner of shame and in this is doubt then placed with thy doubt and the assuredness of knowing is then given to seeds of doubt. Oh My son, whisper not in shame My will, whisper not in a lack of knowing. Thou know’st the truth, thou know’st My will. And so when confronted with the opportunities be therefore bold, even as My word is bold and stand as a man who knows himself and the power of conviction which is in thee or thou would not have come thus far. Stop thy self-mutilating words of shame and doubt, it then breeds that which is set forth. My son thou art in My heart and it is in this thou knowst the good and the strong things of thy word and will. Know thyself and know Me. For this is My command that ye should know thyself and the will shall follow. Be strong My son and be forthright with thy conviction of truth and honor. I say these things unto thee that thou should come before Me in the same as I have spoken. Cast off the ash cloth of shame and know that a son of God dwells within and even a son of Me. So be bold, meaning strong, in thy ways and thou shalt then be even as I in My word, one. Yes one, not a divided intention, divided by shame and doubt and acceptance. Know thyself and know whom thou art and in this there is no room to not act in the surety that is. Be strong My son and keep an eye single to Me in all ways and in all things and I will lead thee in which thou shalt say and do. So cast off thy ash cloth of fear and doubt and be whom thou art, My beloved, even so.”
November 15, 2013 Friday (4:00 am)
I’ve been working long hours with my Christmas setups, I even fell asleep before I could switch off the light next to my bed. I woke up with the light shining in my face and as I switched it off is when I heard the soft, “Write.” I questioned and heard, “Yes my son, write.” I responded, “I am so tired.” and heard immediately, “I will bless thee.”
“Yes I will bless thee with the health and endurance that you are needing to continue your tasks. It is My will that ye should write of the things to come and of what is. For that which is to come I have spoken of but it is in this hour that he who prepares must prepare in hast and in that hast let him not forget the things of the Spirit. For when one is preparing to sustain the body let the spirit be fed and let the soul come unto Me, that the things might not be in vain. For what is needed in that day is the preparation of this day, of a heart and mind attuned to Me. For I can hear you questionings of what and how and it is these that I will address. For when one is attuned to Me one hears what is spoken onto the heart. One hears with the heart and it is then that one is attuned to Me. Yes, for did I not whisper to you about the ladder not being secured before you climbed upon the steps, even though it looked and acted locked into place? Did you not say, ‘Thank you’ and recognize Me in the warning? Yes My son, it is in those subtle ways that I speak. And yes you are even now thinking back to the woman seated on the grass that I had asked you to respond to but the mind rationalized in it’s fear of intrusion and why would you even think of her? Yes, it is even My guidance that brings her into your focus again. Yes, your thought of desires and when the mind of want comes into play and how it is more difficult to determine My answers in that place of desire. And I say unto you again, ‘That if it were a clear choice, then how would one be given agency?’ But there is clarity in the asking and the answer, but it is the mind of desire that seesaws with the perceived answer. For have you not seen the imaginings of your mother’s face as you have asked about your expansion and is it not always the same? Have I not given you your physical situation to help you even more question the question of health and have I not put into your head the concerns for failure? For if I commanded in all things and not give you your agency then how would you have choice? But I say unto you now, because of your petitions of Me concerning this matter of expansion… that the idea is a good one and one that would thieve for a short time, but with the knowledge of what is coming, why would one put the added stress and effort when that could be given into your preparations and offerings unto Me? I know that your blessings of creativity would expand in its fullness, but I say unto you, ‘That have not you been blessed with the success of that creative expression, and it is now to focus on the expression of preparedness. For you have seen the beauty of what could be and let the mind’s eye live in that idea and have its form in the mind, but let the thought of the physical be turned to Me and let thy satisfaction be in Me. Oh My son, trust of that which is in Me and trust in Me as you have, and I will take care of thee. Yes, you heard My thought in remembrance of how I saved you from physical disaster for the expansion of another creative idea and how you had even moved into the signing of agreements, if it were not for My workings upon the one in contract you would have lost all in your decisions. For fear not My son, can you begin to see the subtle ways of Spirit that come unto the mind and workings? I know that the mind of man would want the clarity of ‘yes’ and ‘no’ but in that you would lose thy action of self and then would come to resent the hand of God. But as we act and manipulate in the subtle ways, then the mind of man has the freedom that has been set from the beginning. Oh My son, rest and know that thou art with Me and I in thee. So fear not the world, but act upon that which thou knowest and then I will help thee in thy actions that thou doth not know. Fear not that which is before thee and fear not Me. Know thy truth and then know thyself, and in this you will know Me and even find Me, and in this My place in thee. Come unto Me and know thyself. Even so I will be with you.”
November 23, 2013 Saturday
Woke in a crazy dream state, I have been working late hours with little sleep and I was woken out of the dream state and heard, “Write, My son write.” Now in a state of clarity… “Yes Father”…
“Oh My son, the will of the Heavens is that ye should save that which is to come for that which is to come, and not let the present influence the past and not take that which is to come with the magnitude of the past. Yes I can hear your questioning mind of understanding and I say unto you, ‘In other words, leave the past unto the past and let the future hold that which is of the future and not bring that which is behind you to the present, continually release that which is gone to that which is and in so doing you will be able to stay in what is present.’ For this is the way of this world and in this time space reality/continuum. For when one learns from the past and then brings it forward, it is then that the future is influenced from the past and it is in this that the continued past is present. But I say unto you, ‘That the present is what is and when you align with Me there is no concern with the past for what is gone is what was, and the point of new creation is in what Is and in the present newness of pure creation. Allow yourself and others to hold that newness of creation and let the mind be of the trust in Me, and in that trust all will be for thy good and salvation. For in this is the way prepared before you and in this is the lesson of forgiveness and new beginnings, which is eternal and endless. For the prayer in which you struggled is of last night, but are you not in a new state and with Me now? And in this is not the present more of your liking than last night’s confusion? So let the past be and let that which is of Me become your new state of creation and the newness of the future will be in this very moment of creation. And to speak of the self and of the struggle of the mind to bring that which is undesirable to the light. Release that which comes into thy mind unto Me and I will cleanse all things and in this you will be set free. Your mind is fading into exhaustion and I say unto you breathe, breathe into Me and let the breath bring you the clarity and new strength. Oh My son, ponder these things and remember that the past is of the past and the future is of this very moment. So come unto Me in all that you do and I will bless thee in this hour and in this moment. Ponder and rest.
Again, for when you come unto Me, it is a lesson of trust. Come unto Me continually in every new moment. You ask how and I say unto you that it is a mindset and intention and a will. Ponder and more will come unto you with every thought. And thought will beget thought and concept will beget concept unto the building of revelation.”
November 26, 2013 Tuesday (5:30 am)
On My knees for my morning prayer and after breathing into my heart, I am told, “Write.” I question and I am told again, “Yes write.”
Pen waiting and focusing on my heart…
“Oh My son, yes the time is of a challenge for mind, body and spirit, but in this come unto Me continually and know that I am with thee and for thee. Why else would I have led you to this very place and in this very time? Oh son, know that the will of He that commands all things, is that the Lord God is to be glorified through His children, and in this love of Father and children is the exalting power of oneness of purpose and will. For in this is the praise and key of all things. For have you forgotten that, ‘Even as I am ye shall be also.’ For this is the plan of all things that is created in the spirit and then created in the physical, and in this state shall be gloried even unto the Earth that is in Me and Of Me. For endure this well and all things will be added upon you. My son, I can hear thy questioning mind of even desire to of Me, as I am, and I say unto you, ‘Behold the beauty that is and even in your glimpse of My kingdom you have not seen all and in this there is a place for thee.’ For would I lead you this far as a folly of purpose? Would I say unto you to follow and not have a reason, a purpose and a place in My heart and kingdom? Trust My son, trust that the Lord of All Creation, even your Father has prepared a place for yes, even you. For you cannot even begin to see the beauty and love in this. For let thy will become My will and begin to believe that there is more beyond the very view and comprehension of what has been seen and shown.
Let the belief of the judgments of others be just that and let your faith be unto Me, and know that I am with thee and know that in this you cannot fail. For if you chooseth Me and My will and My way all things shall be added upon you, even in this that is your very question. Trust My son and know that I am upon thee even in your times of weakness and faltering love and devotion. You question and still fear the influence of he who fights against Me. And I say unto you, ‘he is given as much or as little power as you give this power of darkness.’ For let your focus be of Me, even as your mind confuses thee and all will be well. Yes, let My mighty wind of love cleanse thy undesired thinking and let My love wash thee of that which does not serve thee. Continue on in this and all will be well, and even in your glorification as you radiate and glorify Me. In this is the key unto all that is and there is nothing more than this, for in this is All That Is. Even so Come unto Me and I will lead thee unto this very end. Peace My son and know that I am with thee.”
November 29, 2013 Friday (7:30 am)
Waking up naturally after a full night sleep and upon waking heard, “I will speak with thee.” It repeated several times, with pen in hand and ready …
“Oh My son, it is the will and hope of He who commands all things that ye should have hope and courage and know and trust that the arm of God is before thee, and that the hope of all things will lead thee. Have courage My son that the will of God will be made known and that all things will work for thy good. For in this are the lessons of faith and trust and in this is the knowledge of My love for thee and all mankind. For if it were not so the Earth would fade away and all hope of a bright future would be lost with it. Fear not those things that are before you. Fear not that which you have been called, for day upon day and precept upon precept and in due time you will know and come to an understanding of all things that have been asked of thee. Trust in the goodness of He that leads you and trust in the goodness of your heart. Know My son, that I am with thee and in this thing as you choose Me, thou cannot and will not fail. Let the Heavens work the way before thee as you remain with an open heart and in a heart of trust and faith and goodness. Keep the faith My son and you will begin to see the workings of My hand. And you will come to know that it is a mighty hand that goes before you. Fear not the judgments of man, but stay with an eye single to My love and the whole will be for thy good. Fear not and be true to that which you have been given. And in this the angels of love and mercy will surround thee and lift thee up even as now in your times of weakness. Wax strong in My love and know that ye are called of Me and in this will be your peace and salvation. Trust and hope will be your friends and your companions as you continue to walk this path, which is of Me. For remember and hold true, that it is I that command thee and it is I that now reaches out for thee in the love which is of Me. Trust My son, trust and all will be well for thee.”
December 6, 2013 Friday (2:35am)
I woke up and heard, “Write.” I responded with no hesitation, “Yes Father.”
Pen now ready as I breathe into my heart…
“The time is soon approaching when every man, woman and child will be defending that which they know to be true unto themselves, and in this time the honor of self will be known unto them that believe upon His name. And in this honor will be the beginning of godhood and the unifying faith of those that believe and know themselves. For if one knows themself, they know the truth of what is and what will be, and in this knowing is the beginning of all things of Heaven and Earth. In this beginning is the seed of all things. Oh My son, that ye should know thyself and in this is that which is for thee and in this is the beginning of the moral man, the honest of heart and the true to God. That ye should love thyself enough to be right even in the wrongs that might happen to you. For when another betrays the honor of self and then throws and belies another, it is then that the act is committed on not just one but on both. Remember this for when the self wants justice; know that the justice is already being served in the action of honor and of dishonor of self. For in everything is creation and in this you will know thyself in all things. In this is the answer to all things, for if everything, every act, an act of creation, why would one not choose the honor of self, which is in the alignment of God? And in this alignment is the alignment to the heart. Therefore, My son, is the lesson of the mind that wants justification. For when one is justified unto Me, the knowledge of every act is an knowledge of Me. Therefore know thyself, and in this one thing all will be given unto you. Peace My son and know thyself in truth.”
December 7, 2013 Saturday (4:50 am)
This morning is interesting; I was in a dream state and heard, “Write.” I remember coming out of my dream and saying, “Yes Father.” And then fading back into sleep because of exhaustion from my work schedule, and as I faded back into sleep I heard a phrase spoken to me, which is now too far gone to recall. But I was back in my dream and heard, “Write My son”, which paralleled along side my dream. And now with pen in hand as the Heavens patiently wait, breathing into my heart…
“Yes My son, I would have you write that I might give thee counsel that I might say unto thee, that in as much as you are of the service of man, it is in this that the will of the Heavens, My will, that ye should not be a spokesperson unto those that have passed from the physical unto spirit. And in this is the reasoning, that ye should not be exposed to this realm, which is a very precarious realm that opens you up to the physical influences of those less evolved and those that are of a counter nature. For in this state, between world and spirit, there can be much confusion if one is not willing to release the life lived and is still willing to be bound to that which is of them. For if that which is of them is not released in love there are many things that can bind and snare. You see My son even in death, the transition of life to life, there is even choice. If it were not so, how could one still have the reason to ‘Come unto Me’? Why would we still have the need to administer unto them and have the need for a program to call them back unto Me. For your understanding… If a spirit is unwilling to leave their physical life there is a place between world of physical and world of spirit. For there are many worlds of wonder and creation, but in this there is still choice and the freedom to choose continues. And in this choice is the place of snares and being lost, which is why your physicality is able to encounter disembodied spirits on every level of process. They are still My children and have a great love for each and are still monitored and governed, but they are in their state of agency. So therefore, in this state are still subject to the throws and influences of the wicked one, whom I am not well pleased. For he lieth in wait to snare and confuse and even lead away My children and in this there is concern for your well being. For this is My caution. For I know that it is only your willingness and desire to serve them even in their need for that connection in life, but it puts you in jeopardy in the realm of spirit. For when you open yourself to this state, it is in then that you open not only to the one but your light attracts all. And in this is the danger for one not constantly aware and on guard. For in this is My love for you and in this is My concern. For you are not ready to walk both worlds in strength and in this you are vulnerable. So My son, leave the dead unto the dead and focus on the living and I will guide thee therein. Yes son, I can feel and hear your disappointment in serving these that have passed into the other realms, but fear not and know that there is plenty of service in which is in your realm and is for you to discover. Fear not and come unto Me continually, that I might know thee and guide thee in this your world. My love to you and for you even as you continue to cultivate your desires, peace My son, peace.”
December 8, 2013 Sunday (5:20 am)
Woke up before my alarm and wondered … and thought I heard a faint, “Write.” And I wondered also if I was just creating expectation, when I heard, “Yes, My son write.”
Pen in hand and breathing for clarity…
“Yes My son, I would like to convey the love of the Heavens in the sincerity of your prayers of oneness of purpose and heart. In this you have been heard and in this your prayer will be answered with the same amount of praise and thanksgiving. For have I not spoken of the joy of the Heavens and have I not sent even My elite to come for thee and aid thee. For in this has been My love extended and in this has been My love received. Go forth My son and know that I am with thee and for thee, and it is in this that the love of the Heavens is in thy heart and will guide thee to that which is of the utmost desires. Remember to continue to release that which does not serve thee and I will bless thee in ways that you cannot conceive. Know thy heart and you will know Me. Come unto Me through the heart and the door will be opened unto thee. For have not the doors of wonder been revealed and have not your spiritual eyes even seen that which has been veiled? And did it not even instill wonder and awe? And these are only glimpses of what is and the possibilities that are. Come unto Me that I might continue to bless thee in love.”
December 10, 2013 Tuesday (4:00 am)
I’m so exhausted, going on my third week without a day off. I just want to sleep, but upon waking I heard, “Write My son, write.” As I replied, “Yes Father always willing.”
Pen in hand and breathing for clarity…
“Yes My son, the Lord God is upon thee and in this you are given the word, the holy word of God, in which is given unto those who are counted unto Him as called and in this is the word given and in this is the calling of prophet. For in this you have questioned and in this you have wondered, for how can a man be called unto this, when there is already My beloved whom leads My flock and calls them unto the fold, watching over them and instructs them of My word and My desires. But as I spoke and you have wondered, and have I not given your mind peace? Have I not instructed you upon the writings of old, as was spoken to Moses, of prophets in the land and have I not spoken through the words of others as a reassurance of this call and My love for you. And have you not heard and listened, and yes, you have received. Now you begin to see how the Lord, God of All, speaks and answers. It is in and through many ways, means and methods. And you caught them all, for did you not feel the testifying love of Spirit, when the man, yesterday called you a ‘prophet’? Yes, he meant it in jest, but did you not hear for a second time someone calling you ‘prophet’ as I speak to you through others. And now you begin to see the workings of the Heavens and how your awareness is sharpened, even in your sight of the spiritual. For have you not even seen the World of Spirit and have you not even seen and heard the comings and goings of these that press the veil of love in their comfort to their loved ones? And have I not even counseled you in love concerning this world in which is a state of transition? For in all of this, do you still question? And I say unto you, ‘No’, except in my one thing to seek him whom I have appointed you to see, to visit and to be instructed by. For have I not called you to him and have I not told you that the way would be prepared before you? Believe My son, believe in My word and know that there is purpose and cause for all things that I speak and command. For you still fear the love of God and I say unto you, ‘Fear not God, but fear the wrath of man that is brought upon My servants by he that fights against Me, and in this it is he that you must watch and have concern.’ But behold have I not watched over you and have not the angels of Heaven come to thy side and delivered thee even in your hour of need and despair? For in all of this have I not been there for thee and in this you still fear the love of God? For know My son that the Lord God of All is upon thee and for thee and in this you have been called. For have I not even now the words of the past come tumbling forth into your mind of the words of Joseph, ‘You cannot let another do… and to take up the yoke before you and the angels of Heaven will carry that which is too heavy’? Words spoken to you and over the past year has it not been so? So believe My son, believe that this is My will. And in this year have not many wonders transpired and have not My angels of love taken the burden of desire from thee and for this you have been blessed because you have followed My command, and in this and for this, you have been called. For hear My words and continue to follow My lead, and in this all Heaven will work for thee in this cause that even the mountains of fear might be moved. That you might be counted unto Me and called to serve Me in this very way and in every deed that I have spoken to thee. Oh My son, how the maverick now waits to be saddled and it is in this humbleness of service you have been called. And it is in this humbleness of spirit that you are now being lead as you submit yourself to Me and for Me. And in this you have been called to hear My word and in time the pen will no longer be needed, but will always be used. Fear not My son, but relish in the love in which you have been called. Come unto Me that ye might surely continue to be blessed in love and word. Peace My son and know.”
December 11, 2013 (3:00 am)
I awoke and heard, “Write.” I am so tired and not wanting to assume that every time I wake up that it is to write and so I kind of ignored it. But the “Write” became louder and was then followed my this stream of words, “Yes son write for I will speak to thee on faith of the Kingdom…”
“Yes, the faith of the Kingdom and the ability to put thyself in the right place at the right time. For you see son, there is a faith of the mind and then there is a physical faith where you are told to be or stand in a certain place or to take a certain direction to be physically in a certain place that will require the ability to believe and hear the promptings of My Beloved Spirit to guide thee. And in so much as you are prompted and heed, the blessings of Heaven will befall thee time and again in the encounter of purpose and love. For have you not received the love from the promptings to return to the testimony meeting even after you left and to bear witness? For even in this one act the rippling effect is beyond your vision, but was and will be used to create the junctures for self and others. So begin to hear and believe the promptings of place and direction and in this will be an outpouring of love that will continue to bless your life. Also My son, I would say unto thee, ‘That as you serve you will encounter the feelings of Spirit, which will guide your word and moves and in this you will learn trust and in this trust will be your safety.’ For if you hear, ‘Step to the left’ and not belabor the counsel with self-evidence from the mind, but do as it is spoken and in so doing will be the faith needed to accomplish the purpose. So My son, listen and believe even in this of which I ask. Seek ye the Spirit and in this you will be blessed. Rest My son and be of peace.”
December 14, 2013 Friday (4:45 am)
In slightly waking I heard a soft, “Write.”, and then fell back asleep. I’m still exhausted because of my long and late working hours. I just woke again and heard, “Write.”
Breathing into my heart with pen in hand…
“Yes My son, write the words that I should speak to My beloved, that you might know the will of He who is the Father and Creator of All. That ye should know and come unto Me in mighty supplication and prayer that the heart might know and be cleansed, that ye might be of Me and for Me. That I might dwell in thee and with thee. That the house of the Lord might be pure and worthy for the Host of the many and King of the few, that ye might know Me and that ye should be of Me. For I the Lord of All have chosen thee to do My bidding and in this is the charge to come unto Me that ye should be prepared to receive Me. For in that hour and in that day the world shall sleep, but to those that know Me ye shall be awake with full eyes to the Heavens in wait and with thine hearts open and pure, waiting for He that has promised to come in glory and honor. But in this hour the few will know and the few will receive the gift of love and the gift of that which shall come. For in this hour, which is nigh, the world will slumber and the awake will behold that which is to come, for those that are purified unto Me. Oh My son, I can hear your concerns of worthiness and questioning your worth and purity, with a mind that still runs with the freedom of the maverick and the will that still falters and waivers. But look into thy heart and see the pure love of Me. The pure love that sought Me in the depths of despair, the pure love that sought Me in the willingness to risk thy very salvation to come with such a burden and to come to the very brink/edge of the precipice. And did you not take the leap of faith and fly? And did not the angels of Heaven lift thee in love that ye should not fall and did I not promise thee that the gift/reward would be great? Oh My son look to the heart and see what I see, that is not based on worthiness but based on worth, that is not based on today but the potential of what Is. For in this day is the seed of what will be and Is. For in the risking of all is the joy of salvation and in this joy is the love of the Heavens, which is the pure love, of what Is. For can you glimpse the sight of salvation, which is the love of All, which required the pure love of sacrifice that, even I should stand as you on the brink of disaster and utter destruction, for even the world. For on that edge of fate was My salvation and the salvation of the world and in that leap of faith and strength I laid Myself down that ye might live, that ye might know this very gift that comes so freely to all whom receive Me. In this gift is also the gift of exaltation, for what would become of a world with no bridge to what Is? For when ye receive Me, ye receive all that the Father has and in this is the pure love and gift of salvation, and within this is the pure and mighty gift of exaltation, which few will receive. Oh My son, do you not think that I can and have heard your rejection of the highest of gifts, thinking that there would and is no hope for one such as yourself? But your view is based on the view that cannot see past the mountain, but the view at the top of the mountain is pure and far and in that distance is it still not the view of what Is in this very moment of sight? Just because you see in the distance does not mean that it does not exist in this very moment. For what Is, is what was and what was is what Is, and in this is the very key to your salvation and exaltation. Things to ponder and things to know, for in this is the key to the way that is before thee and in this is the key for all. Look into your hearts and know Me and as you know Me, you will then know Him that is the Author of All. Oh My son, My children come unto Me that ye might know thyself and in this is the knowledge of All things, even so I would not be called Christ and Savior. Oh My sheep, hear My voice and follow Me out of the things of this world and into the joy of the next and into what Is.”
December 15, 2013 Sunday (2:10 am)
Waking up and in my waking heard, “Oh My son, write that ye should know and have peace and comfort in thy heart.”
“Yes, peace and comfort that ye should know My love and that I will not command every movement and every jot, but do know that it is of Me that ye should have peace and a life not burdened with the will of expenses beyond your control, that ye should work with no peace and no time to give thyself for the pleasures of life. For in life there should be joy and in this joy will be the reward for your labors. So know My son that in this, the releasing of your business, there is no ‘right’ answer. For as you choose there are adjustments in the outcomes and in these outcomes you will be blessed. So as you can gather, there is no one-way or ‘right’ way to all of life’s choices as you might think. Yes, I can know your questionings as you wonder about the future that you saw … and do you not think that the future self of worthiness and of the priesthood of My honor, could not come a life of many choices? You see My son, you truly are in a creative world and have choice in many and all things. And in these choices are the many lessons and choices in abundance. Oh My son, in these choices you will be blessed that the outcome will be blessed. My children want to know the answers to every decision, but I say unto you and all My children, yes there are moves that are and do affect outcomes, but for the many, many decisions that are made daily there are correcting, you might say, principals that are continually correcting and adjusting. For in your questioning your way, to know of what and where, know this My son that you will be blessed. Oh My son your exhaustion is getting to your mind and body as we communicate, just rest My son and know that in this and many things there is no one way or ‘right’ way. For the adventure will give way to the outcome. Rest My son and have peace in your heart that I am with thee and bless thee in your decisions. And every decision that is focused on Me will then be blessed in love and adjustments for the expanding light of love. Peace unto you and now rest your exhausted mind and body.“
Just a note … I was falling asleep as I was writing, not an indicator of my heart but of my exhaustion. As I have been contemplating letting my business go and moving on to something else. I think I am just in a state of overwhelm and exhaustion.
December 20, 2013 Friday (3:20 am)
Waking up and hearing a faint, “Write.” I question several times and my questioning is confirmed with, “Yes, My son write.”
Pen now ready as I breathe into my heart…
“Oh yes My son, the hand of the Lord is upon thee as the Spirit of love abides with thee and on thee. For how can the love of the Heavens overlook the praise and out pouring of thy heart? When the Spirit of My love fell upon thee and the body beheld My love, it is in this that the oneness of All That Is was felt and it was in this that the unity of all realized. For such is the state of God and thus is the state of oneness that abides in Me. For am I not your Father and your Brother, and am I not the Creator of All That Is? For in this is the blessing of the worlds of Spirit and Earth and in this is the Spirit of Me. Oh My son, that ye should know that when such a love is sent forth that the Heavens rejoice in praise and thanksgiving that the spirit is carried in such a fullness of unity. For in this is the love of the Heavens and in this is the love of Me. And in this love shall all abide that come unto Me. Oh children, oh children come forth and receive this that flowth freely to all that open in love and honor, that turn their hearts over to Me and in this shall all be blessed and in this is the state of God. Confirm the offering and in this you will be blessed with the outpouring of Spirit. Confirm this love and come unto Me for in it rests the beauty of all. Rest My son and know that when you tap into this flow and state of God, it is in this that thou shall be blessed with such grace that the Heavens cannot and will not turn thee away. Rest and know of My love.”
December 22, 2013 Sunday (6:20 am)
Woke up and heard a faint, “Write.” I questioned as I was falling back asleep and as I questioned again I heard, “Yes, My son write.”
Breathing into my heart…
“Yes son, I have said for thee to write, inasmuch as ye should know My mind and My bidding, that ye should know My heart. For as the Lord God hath said, that ye should not receive the world of disembodied spirit. It is of the most importance that ye should understand that the world of spirit is broken into several worlds/spheres/dimensions, for ye should know that when the spirit is separated from the body it depends upon one’s belief that one has an experience separate from another. For when thou left the body, you experienced what most souls experience of the common experience of light and the love of a loved one to welcome, but there are times such as trauma where there is a space of uncertainty where the mind will not accept the experience or welcome the experience and therefore is locked into a non-existence state, in which there is no transition from the physical to the world of Spirit. And in these experiences the disembodied spirit is left to wander in this world of non-existence, where all time and space is in a suspended state. Where the mind is at its very will to create as it will and it is here the mind/soul is in its full creative existence. Where the creative is in it’s most pure state and therefore the existence is of one’s own creation and belief. As you are questioning it is so. And it is as or until one asks or desires more that then this is opened up unto other realms and experiences. For only in this state is there such a boundless state of creativity. As you can now see the laws of agency are still respected and given, that the spirit is always given choice to the experience and even in this state which is also governed by laws of creation. So let the mind know that when one encounters these worlds of the deceased that in this is My concern and in this is My command. That when ye are opened, this world is very precarious and in this ye should be at risk of attracting that which is not most desired and in this ye should avoid, to stay pure and clean of any attachments of those that are drawn to the light of love. Therefore seek ye Me and in this, ye shall be free of such things and the worlds will be guided by Spirit that ye should know and experience, come unto Me and all the worlds will be unto you. Peace My son and know the love that is yours.”
Just a note… I feel that I should now give you as Paul Harvey used to say, “The rest of the story.”
It was about a week and half ago when I received a phone call from a customer of mine and as she shared between sobs that her young husband had just passed away from cancer. As she concluded the phone call, we had found a time for her to come in and to discuss her floral needs. It was upon hanging up the phone when I heard a voice of spirit, his voice, calling her by a name of endearment (a name I will respect for just them). As I heard the name I immediately thought, “Oh boy here we go again!” I knew what was happening because of past experiences and it was on recognizing this experience that I began to hear more of his voice as he said to me, “Tell her that the ring that I got her is a promise of my love.” And immediately flowed was just one word that was intended for her… “Believe!”
I was instantly thrown into memories of the other experiences that have taught me to trust and at the same time is so crazy making for me as I exclaim to myself, “What if I am wrong in the names and the information!” … As the “What if” of the mind challenges the learned and accepted reality of the experience. It is here that the haunting takes place, the haunting of when and how you can slip in the message with an ease and grace that is impossible. It was the next day as I was in my morning shower when I heard him again as he spoke with a slight attitude, “Dude, I can see you.” I was shocked and angry as I strongly told him to get out and to have some respect. It was then his words were soft and any concern of my compromised view faded as I heard him say, “Tell her to be angry with me (for leaving), but to always forgive me.” Those were the last words that I heard from him, but I did feel his strong urges and nudges and a desperation from him as she came in for our meeting with a hangover and said that she had to make it short and she just trusted whatever I wanted to do and was out the door. I felt for him as our chance to share slipped away and my mind gave into thoughts of defeat. The days past and it was soon time for me to fulfill my responsibility to her and create the flower arrangements for the funeral, when I had an interesting request. The owner of a highly respected jewelry store came in and he was requesting to pay for the funeral flowers that she (the wife) had ordered because he and my ‘new friend’ were best friends. My ears perked up and I wondered how I could keep my reputation and still ask about a possible ring that was purchased for her. But again, I gave in to fear and couldn’t bring myself to ask the questions to give me the proof to pursue his requests. But as other orders came in I began to see the interconnectedness of my clientele, which I was totally unaware and wondered if I might be offered another chance. And it was after the funeral, that chance came, it was about a week after the funeral, and I was working in the back when I overheard someone giving a birthday order of flowers for the newly widowed wife, as she explained that she and the wife were good friends. Again my ears perked up and as I glanced over to one of my co-workers, that I had shared the experience, she motioned to me with the gesture of sliding on a ring and a wave of her head in the customer’s direction. It was then that I mustered some courage and introduced myself and asked how the wife and friend was doing. As I listened I formulated in my mind the question about the ring. And it was only after I slipped in the question that I felt a release of weight off my shoulders as she shared in strict confidence of the surprise, that the newly deceased husband had secretly made plans that after his passing, to have presented to his wife a ring for their anniversary. And that the anniversary was going to be in a couple of months. It was then that I asked, the customer, if I could walk her out with full intentions of telling her, “The rest of the story.”
I have now seen my new confidant a couple of times as she also is now haunted with the ‘when and how’… as I release the dead to the Heavens and focus on the living.
This story continues … I am editing these writings for the blog that you are now reading and it has been over a year since this experience and I should give you an update. I would continue to see the newly widow and would often wonder, ‘when and how’. It wasn’t until one slow day, at the shop, that she wandered by and we were both very relaxed with no time pressures as we discussed how she was doing, that I decided to share the full experience with her. It didn’t go as I had expected, she seemed very agitated, as she expressed anger of why her husband would come to me and not to her. I recounted, in my mind, her very words just moments earlier in her sharing that ‘he wasn’t there and her disbelief.’ As she now wonders why he would come to me, and it was this very thinking of her disbelief that was the impetus for me share. Well it was still about a month before her anniversary, when she was to receive the ring, and I had intentionally left out in our conversation, his words of giving her the ring as a symbol of his love. But I did tell her to think about what I shared and that I would love to talk to her after their anniversary. Well crazy as it is the jeweler friend of hers called me and shared that she was upset and I then shared with him about my experience with her husband. And as I asked about the ring he was in shock that I would know about it because it was a kept secret between just a couple of people. It was then that I shared the full story with him as he was in shock and struggling to wrap his head around the experience that I shared. Well it is now well past the anniversary date and of last May and she called me once and wanted to get together to talk some more, as I expressed my willingness and for her to give me a call when it was best for her. I have have bumped into her a couple of times and she still expresses her intention to talk, as I continue to honor her timing.
December 25, 2013 (9:00 am)
I rolled out of bed and onto my knees for my morning prayer, while I was praying I heard, “Write.” I questioned whether to finish my prayer and I heard, “Now.”
Pen in hand and breathing into my heart…
“Oh My son, the Lord God of All Creation hath commanded thee to write that ye should know that which is and that which is to come, that ye might know for thyself the truth of all things that are in Him and of Him. That ye should come unto Him in an attitude of reverence and humbleness, that ye might continue to know His word and His will.
Oh ye children of the Earth, hear the sound of the voice that callth forth unto you that ye might bring yourself unto Him, unto the Lord of All Creation and Author of what is upon you. That all might be of His light and of His mind and His heart, that when that day, which surely cometh, ye might know of and whom ye standeth. For in the hearts and minds of the wicked is he that fights against Me, and his cunningness of thought are the plans to destroy all that was worked for and planned from the beginning of time. For in this is the joy of evilness and the cunning of the dark one that fights and plots against Me and the angels of Heaven. For as he tries to take the gifts so freely offered to all, for in this is the war against Me and in this is the love that I give freely unto all of My creation. For oh children of My creation, come unto Me that in this ye might know the one and true God of the Earth and that ye might be saved even as the day of reckoning is upon thee. For as the angels await to send forth the fires of destruction, that the Earth might be cleansed and prepared. That the wickedness of all peoples and all lands might be brought unto Me and give way to the new and holy, which is to come. For as the Earth offers herself to be cleansed, even in this is her glory and her salvation. As she comes unto Me and I will soon come unto her once more, that all things will be made whole and in that day the Heavens and Earth shall be one realm of glory and in this the words of the prophets fulfilled and in this the glory given to the Father, that all might come unto His domain, as an offering unto Him. And in this all will be sanctified and glorified, as the offering is made pure and whole. Oh ye Children of the Earth, awake from thy slumber and hear the sound of the trump that cries the call of readiness, that gathers forth the angels of love for this holy purpose. For as a man wonders of their love let him look within and see their heart aglow, as even the seat of God that sits upon the glory of All. For in this is the Honor given to do the work of salvation, For in this are the angels waiting, and in this is the call and trump sounding that ye might prepare also the heart and soul of thee and thy children. Gather them unto you as the hen gatherth her chicks and let them know of what is soon upon them. And for what holy purpose that is upon all the Earth as the love and honor of the Lord is given freely unto those that will hear and bend the knee of reverence and humility. Oh children, hear this cry and come unto Me that ye might know the things that are upon you. Even so, it is I that give you praise and honor this day and it is I that will be given the very same as all the world will know Me as My flock knows Me. So come unto Me now that ye might receive Me in joy and offering, that ye might be prepared. Oh My children listen and know of that which is upon you, even in these words of warning and love.”
December 26, 2013 Thursday (12:55 am)
I woke and heard a soft, “Write.” As I was still trying to clear the sleep I heard, “Write that I might be heard … Oh ye people hear My voice…”
Breathing for focus with the pen ready…
“Oh ye peoples of the world hear My word that ye might know that the Lord God of All Creation cometh, for if it were not so I would not be God and the prophet’s words would fall upon deaf ears and …(having to breathe for clarity and the stream of focus)… and barren ground. And that which hath been spoken would die unto itself. But even as the words goeth forth and the pen writeth, the will of He who calls forth unto all nations and a peoples to prepare ye. Prepare ye, that My children might be ready for that day that is nigh. And in so much as all things that have been told even from the beginning and not one thing shall be lost, but all fulfilled unto every word. I cry forth in love and understanding that ye might know that the day and hour cometh in love and … (still struggling the thoughts/words seem a little jumbled, not sure what is wrong. I want the writing to be pure and feel guilty if I stop … let me pray.)
“Stop, for the mind is exhausted and let not the words of guilt shake thee from that which is spoken. Sleep with rest in thy comfort.”
December 27, 2013 Friday (9:22 am)
Waking naturally with the day off and as I said “Amen” to my morning prayer I heard, “Write My son, write that I may speak with thee.”
Pen now ready…
“Oh My son that the Heavens might be upon thee and with thee as the Lord commands thee to bear witness unto My children, unto My fold, and as thou standth before them I will send My Spirit of love to open their hearts, that they might hear the words of love and understanding, that the children, My children, will receive thee in love and that they might begin to know thee and that the fears might fall away and that the truth of love might be seen clearly before them. Oh My son, fear not the world as ye stand in My name and fear not men and their judgments/thinking. For thou knowest the peace of the soul and thou knowest the sweetness of My love, so lift up thine eyes to the Heavens and know that all is well with thee and in thee. For the house is built and the Lord dwelleth within and in this ye shall be blessed. For the Spirit will dwell so shall the house of the Lord shine with the love and radiance that is His. And the world will come to know that he that dwelleth within is of a peace and love that only is of the Lord. Be of good cheer and know that thou art chosen, and in this is the peace and solace that thou seekth. Come unto Me and be of good cheer, and in this is the love of the Heavens and in this is the light and love of He who reigns and dwelleth in the hearts of His servants. Fear not and know that I am with thee and for thee, even so amen.”
December 29, 2013 (Sunday)
This is a talk that I gave to my ward (congregation) … I prayed prior to writing it and the words flowed through me almost as if it were a writing…
Dear Brothers and Sisters, I would like to say that it is a pleasure to stand before you, but to be honest it is terrifying to me… a few weeks back I was sitting in Gospel Doctrine class, next our Patriarch, and we were conversing on just how good the Sacrament Meeting talks were and he said to me, “There is nothing better than a person speaking with the Spirit.” Well Patriarch, I pray that I might be that person! And as I told my dad that I had ten minutes to speak he said, “ I can hardly say hello in ten minutes.” So I guess I better get going!
The Bishop assigned me to share with you, how living the gospel this past year has brought me joy and given me additional blessings. As I have pondered this I thought of many avenues that I could take and speak of many blessings, but as I continued to ponder what kept coming to me, which to me is the greatest blessing and in which encompasses them all and that is, my relationship with the Heavens. And for you to understand that joy and blessing in my life I thought I might touch on how I got here to this place. As I have mentioned in my past testimonies, that I left the church nearly thirty years ago and lets just say that I began to feel that there wasn’t a place for me in the church. And so I left hurt and angry, feeling victimized by life and God. As I headed out into the world, leaving the safety of the corral or church, I didn’t even know if there was life beyond the corral. Would God strike me down, would I be overcome by the evils of the world? But in the wonderful love of the Father, He allows us to choose for ourselves and He knew my heart and me as I continued to seek the spiritual, which is my very core. Feeling the adventurousness of a maverick roaming in my new freedom I journeyed to the Native American traditions, where I sat in ceremonies, which honored the Earth, and God relationship. I journeyed to Peru where I sat in ceremonies with the indigenous people, true Inca who just came down from their hiding nearly 50 years ago to fulfill their prophecies. I traveled into the eastern traditions and to India, seeking the blissful state of the mind and body. As this maverick journeyed to each of these and not wanting to be corralled by any of them, and as a seeker of truth, I would often hold an experience or gem of truth to the light and would say to myself, “This looks like Mormonism.”, and tuck it away and the maverick would journey on. And as my anger and hurt gave way to awe and inspiration my relationship with the Heavens began to grow and take on a new light. And it was with line upon line and precept upon precept that the Heavens began to whisper to the maverick and bring me unto submission.
Have you ever seen a Horse whisper work? In my youth, my family use to raise horses. And I would watch, as they would try to break a young horse. First you build a relationship with the animal, whispering and talking to it, and then gradually you start to move the rope around and let him see it, feel it and get use to it. And then comes the halter, which is for leading the horse, different from the bridal, which is used in riding the horse. And as you rub the halter on the neck of the horse you simply slip it over the snout and hold on, because at this point the horse is going to throw it’s head at the feeling of the halter, in trying to get the halter off. And this is the beginning process that eventually leads to the bridal and then saddle. And this is exactly, what the Lord has done with this maverick, over the last seven to eight years. He began to whisper to me and I began to hear, “Come unto Me.” Repeating over and over with experience upon experience, I became familiar with His voice as He built a relationship with Me. As He poured value and worth back into me, as He taught me to love myself again. I tasted the sweetness of the fruit of His love and began to crave that fruit which is most desirable. Oh not to mislead you, there has been plenty of head tossing and bucking at His whisper and touch, but I am coming to trust His word and His command, even when the Spirit tells me, half way across a parking lot and my civilian clothes (non-church… my work jeans) to return to the Testimony meeting and to bear witness. Oh there were about ten minutes of head tossing out those doors a few weeks ago!
You know as I have journeyed as the maverick the past few years I would come in view of the corral. And the corral of the Church looked so small and tight and I would say to myself, “I just don’t think I can do it, I can’t squeeze back into the tight quarters of the corral”, and I would journey on. Well little did I know where the gem trail of truth was leading, it was just last year on Dec. 2nd, the Lord sent a message to me and said, “Take up the yoke that is before you and that which is too heavy the angels of Heaven will carry.” And He spoke of being the man that I was meant to be and that I could not let another do what I was suppose to do. And with this message I knew what I was suppose to do and that is why I stand before you today. That is why I crave the feel of the halter and the bridal and await the saddle. And as I view from within the corral, that which seemed too small and tight I can now see with enlightened understanding and feel of its freedom and vastness.
So Brothers and Sisters, in the love and wisdom of the Lord He has brought me back into the corral and back under the law, that I might not be judged outside the law. And you can now see my greatest blessing and joy of the past year is the deepening of my relationship with the Heavens. As we look to this New Year, a time of introspection, may we see how we can lower our heads in praise and honor and take upon us the bridal of the Lord. It is my witness that the Lord loves each of us and is continually whispering to us, “Come unto Me.” I bear witness that Jesus is the Christ, our Brother, Redeemer and Friend, and that Joseph Smith lives and upon these two, all else hangs for our generation. I humbly say these things and bear this witness in His holy name, even Jesus Christ, amen.
Just a note… Today, I was so nervous to give my first talk to the ward, for days now I have been praying to the Heavens for help and that I might have the Spirit with me and to deliver my words with the flow and love that they were intended. And this morning as I walked to the pulpit to speak my mind was spinning, but as I opened my mouth and spoke a peace came over me and a calmness came into my mind and as I spoke I could feel and see my words going forth with such ease and strength. And when the word ‘amen’ was heard I could see and feel a joy in the chapel. Even as I returned to my seat, as I was sitting next to the Stake President, presiding over the meeting, I could see and feel in his countenance and body language as he opened his arm at the top of the seat to embrace me as I sat next to him again. I began to question, is this just a joy from within myself, a relief to have survived what was for me an ordeal that feels like a victory? But as the outpouring of love and positive feedback surrounded me I began to understand and it was then when a sister spoke to me with tear-filled eyes and shared that she had only experienced another time when she could not stop the flow of tears and that was in the celestial room of the temple. She then said to me, “We both know what this is.” As a tear ran down her face, it was that tear that bore witness to me of the gift, the Lord answered my prayer!
December 30, 2013 Monday (11:50 pm)
Just knelt for My evening prayer before climbing into bed and as I was praying I was told to write. And it repeated again…
So pen in hand…
“Oh My son, the joy of the Lord is with those that come unto Him in all ways and all things. For he that cometh unto Me in the body and receiveth the Spirit of truth, hath come unto the Heavens and Me. And in this is My joy and the salvation of him that abideth in Me. For as a soul is in My grace and love, so is he in the mercy of the Father. For as the Father is in Me, so even I am in Him. For in this is the oneness of thought and purpose. So therefore come unto Me and know that the Heavens are one even in this, as I call forth for the word of man to be of Me. Know My son, that the call has been sent forth and in this is the call heard, and those that are prepared to hear will hear. Be at peace and know that as the world comes unto Me it is then that I come unto them, and in this is the way and freedom of God Lord Creator of All.
Blessed are those that come unto Me and give of themselves in all ways and manner of service, for in this is My command that ye should serve your fellow man. Know this and do this, and I will abide in thee. Sleep, My son, and know the peace of this joy, know this and in this joy you will be revealed unto the Father in a state of love and glory. Receive the joy in the heart and know.”